Who would expect things could turn sour within a split second. This is what we call fate, takdir or rather Qada' dan Qadar dari Allah SWT. We won't know what or things will turn out to be today, tomorrow or even a few minutes or seconds later. Only God knows.
Who would have thought someone could offend me so badly and I could have taken it too hard, which in the first place I should have not wasted my time on things like this. And who knows someone could have been offended by my words which I wasn't directing it to anybody in particular and use things from the past to get back at me. Who would have known, only Allah SWT.
But anyway, let bygones be bygones. I've decided to do the purest thing in life, to forgive and forget. Move on with life and go with the flow. Whatever happens, come what may, let it be. It's not going to be easy after this especially when things have make its bad turn like this not once but twice now. And this ain't one party fault, it's both definitely.
I could be the old me who is always so angsty and hot-tempered. And revenge was my favourite thing to do. I do whatever it takes big time to get back at people who hurt me. I didn't even realise I was that vengeful that sometimes, I don't even realised what I have become.
But thank you Allah SWT for giving me time and opening the door for me. A heart to feel and eyes to see. My colleagues may not be Muslim but their values of patience is far way better than me. With them, I've learn to pick myself to be as patience as I can be and as forgiving as it is. Alhamdulilah. I managed to somehow and I am still learning, just like how I've start to practice my 5 times a day solat without fail, with God willing.
I don't deny at the initial part it was hard. So many times that when I'm angry, I fall back to my old self. Cursing and shouting vulgarities, getting back at each other but my colleagues have never fail to make me see the situation. From there I realised.
And I shall leave you guys with this quote,
“Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind.” ― Bernard M. Baruch
XOXO,
Princess Azie Anni
