Sunday, June 30, 2013

Bestie Hernie & Zamri's Wedding

Dear Diary,

And so my best friend of 11 years finally got married today. I am more happy than anything for her. It felt like few years back that we finally graduated together during Secondary school and now she has gotten married.

28 Jun 2013 - Malam Berinai

Rushed from work just so that I could be on time to accompany my Bestie for her Malam Berinai. I know it's my best friend who is getting married but I also want to feeling-feeling like that lahhh. Haha! So I put on the henna together with her.

The Bride,




Mine,



I knowww, it's like as if I'm the one getting married. Lol!

And as I was walking to her house, I saw the decoration that was being put up. It's really nice, especially pink & cream. They go really well together. 






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The night before I had a hard time digging out the closet looking for a pink kebaya for Bestie Hernie's wedding. Her theme colour was pink and she wanted her best friend/brides maid to be in pink with her. It was such a short notice and I didn't have much pink kebaya in my closet. I found 1 pink baju kurung which I wore it like prolly 10 years back and the only time I wear that was for Terawih. It looks pretty errr...not nice for a wedding.

So Mama whatsapp me this 2 kebaya that is ONLY left for me to wear and she told me both look small and don't think I could fit into them. Right one belongs to Adik which she wore 10 years back and Adik being Adik, you know for real I cannot fit into her kebaya!! And the left one was the ONLY option left for me which I wore it few years back as well. Realising how much I have put on weight, I have only myself to lose weight so that I could fit into that kebaya. THANK ALLAH, really THANK ALLAH, I threw the dice and put it on just before leaving house to Hernie's. Guess what?! I FIT into it. HAHAHA! As I put on the kebaya, I prayed and tell myself, if I cannot fit into the kebaya, I will just FORCE myself in. Hehehehe!

30 June 2013 - The Solemnization

The day is finally here. My best friend is finally getting married for real! The day where the solemnization takes place and she will finally be somebody's wife. :) Meet up with Bestie Hajar first before heading off to Hernie's house in cab. Because I really gave up taking a bus since I was already perspiring so bad and my heels are like really high! Hahaha!

We were so called the Bridesmaid and so we reached quite early. Hernie was in her room with the Mak Andam (Beautician), who was downing her tudung for her Akad Nikah ceremony (Solemnization). While waiting, Hajar & I as usual, did our cam-whoring session together. Pictures can be found in my Facebook. Hehe!

When Bestie Hernie was done, we managed to capture a few shots together-gether. At the same time, I was feeling really really happy for her while she was feeling quite nervous at that point of time. I swear, I cannot imagine what it would be like for me. Lolololols!





More and more Kranjians start coming and we all took a picture together. It was like a reunion for all of us there. One happy moment and recalling back those naughty & good days during Secondary school and we all seem to remain the same, non-stop hit teasing each other. Lolololols!

Arrival of the Tok Kadi and the solemnization starts,


Sahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! Alhamdulilah! Dah halal! Amin! Hehehehehehe!




And not forgetting the nasi minyak and wedding cake indulgence. Burppp! Alhamdulilah!



And so two of my best friend is finally officially married. It is left to just Bestie Hajar, Iqah & I. Apparently, Iqah is like not contactable for the longest time, which I wonder how is she doing now. While Hajar & I was cam-whoring, we were telling each other from 5 of us taking pictures together, it was down to 4 when Iqah starts MIA-ing and then 3 when Mirah got married and now finally the 2 of us when Hernie got married. We just looked at each other and asked, who's next among the two of us. Lol! Because if either one of us get married first before each other, we might have to end up cam-whoring alone. Haha!
Dear Allah, I hope You'll listen to both of our prayers, let us get married closer to each other so that we don't have to face those moment being alone while seeing others happily building blissful life together with their life partners. Dear Allah, fill our life with a guy who can bring and guide us to the right path, Your path dear Allah. A guy who does not take advantage of us and for granted. A guy will love us whole-heartedly and accept us just the way we are. A guy who show good example and is responsible in his task in upbringing of the family, a guy who bring joy no matter how hard the situation of the family is. A guy who would go through thick and thin with us. And nothing means more than having a guy who is sincere and faithful in our life. May you grant our prayers, Ya Allah. Amin ya rabbal alamin! :)
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And like they say, 


Insyaallah! Jodoh tu dah tertulis, time will tell. Amin! :)

And while watching this awhile ago,


I hope nothing like the dowry or whatever, make it hard for me to marry my Prince charming. =( It doesn't matter if he earns so much lesser than me as long as he is responsible, hold a job and bring food on the table. It doesn't matter whatever his status is, poor or rich, we are all the same in Allah's eyes. And if Allah has written my fate this or that way, Insyaallah, He'll bring me through it as well. I mean everything happens for a reason and we, as His slave, has to accept things as it is.

Status, education, whatever. I did this on my own for my now family and future family, not because I wanted to be more superior than my husband-to-be or set high value or standard on myself. I don't ask for that. But what is value anyway? Who are we to judge, it's only for Allah to decide. Subhanallah!

XOXO,
Princess Azie Anni

Sunday, June 16, 2013

White Horse

Dear Diary,

So many things have been happening in my life lately, which left me with nothing but mere confusion and big question mark in my life. Sometimes, I wish I could get out but I can't because I brought this whole situation to myself. Yes, me and my stupid self.

I kept pursuing and pursuing that it come to a point, I have no idea where is this leading me to. Or maybe I know where I want it to lead to but as usual, I'm taken advantage of, taken for granted, being make used of. Seriously.

Have I not wake up from what I've gone through all these while? I know it's painful yet I still risk it. I just wish my heart will stop breathing, stop feeling. But still, I shouldn't complain. I should be really blessed to feel love than not feel at all.

On a lighter note, my exams are over and this is already good enough for me. Alhamdulilah! And I'm one a 1 month semester break now, which is long compared to other University but as a matter of fact, it's still consider a short holiday because without you know it, school will be reopening soon.

And then followed by the fasting month, which I really cannot wait for. I wonder how different how this year will be. With school going on, I'm not too sure if I could have the same amount of time to do my Terawih. I hope I won't be tired and probably going for Terawih alone compared to  the last few years where I had companion. But still, I feel at ease and peace each time when I perform one. And Geylang, I hope I'll have time for you because you are a MUST.

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I've totally given up, my last straw. I'm not going to be bothered. Not going to be taken advantage of as easy as this. I'm sorry, thank you for everything but this is over.


Say you're sorry
That face of an angel comes out just when you need it to
As I paced back and forth all this time
'Cause I honestly believed in you

Holding on, the days drag on
Stupid girl,
I should have known
I should have known

That I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairytale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell

This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you and your white horse to come around

Baby I was naïve
Got lost in your eyes and never really had a chance
My mistake, I didn't know that to be in love
You had to fight to have the upper hand

I had so many dreams about you and me
Happy endings, now I know

That I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairytale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell

This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you and your white horse to come around

And there you are on your knees
Begging for forgiveness, begging for me
Just like I always wanted, but I'm so sorry

'Cause I'm not your princess, this ain't a fairytale
I'm gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well
This is a big world, that was a small town
There in my rear view mirror disappearing now

And it's too late for you and your white horse
Now it's too late for you and your white horse to catch me now
Oh, whoa, whoa, whoa
Try and catch me now
Oh, it's too late to catch me now

XOXO,
Princess Azie Anni