White Horse

Dear Diary,

So many things have been happening in my life lately, which left me with nothing but mere confusion and big question mark in my life. Sometimes, I wish I could get out but I can't because I brought this whole situation to myself. Yes, me and my stupid self.

I kept pursuing and pursuing that it come to a point, I have no idea where is this leading me to. Or maybe I know where I want it to lead to but as usual, I'm taken advantage of, taken for granted, being make used of. Seriously.

Have I not wake up from what I've gone through all these while? I know it's painful yet I still risk it. I just wish my heart will stop breathing, stop feeling. But still, I shouldn't complain. I should be really blessed to feel love than not feel at all.

On a lighter note, my exams are over and this is already good enough for me. Alhamdulilah! And I'm one a 1 month semester break now, which is long compared to other University but as a matter of fact, it's still consider a short holiday because without you know it, school will be reopening soon.

And then followed by the fasting month, which I really cannot wait for. I wonder how different how this year will be. With school going on, I'm not too sure if I could have the same amount of time to do my Terawih. I hope I won't be tired and probably going for Terawih alone compared to  the last few years where I had companion. But still, I feel at ease and peace each time when I perform one. And Geylang, I hope I'll have time for you because you are a MUST.

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I've totally given up, my last straw. I'm not going to be bothered. Not going to be taken advantage of as easy as this. I'm sorry, thank you for everything but this is over.

Say you're sorry

That face of an angel comes out just when you need it to

As I paced back and forth all this time

'Cause I honestly believed in you

Holding on, the days drag on

Stupid girl,

I should have known

I should have known

That I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairytale

I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet

Lead her up the stairwell

This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town

I was a dreamer before you went and let me down

Now it's too late for you and your white horse to come around

Baby I was naïve

Got lost in your eyes and never really had a chance

My mistake, I didn't know that to be in love

You had to fight to have the upper hand

I had so many dreams about you and me

Happy endings, now I know

That I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairytale

I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet

Lead her up the stairwell

This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town

I was a dreamer before you went and let me down

Now it's too late for you and your white horse to come around

And there you are on your knees

Begging for forgiveness, begging for me

Just like I always wanted, but I'm so sorry

'Cause I'm not your princess, this ain't a fairytale

I'm gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well

This is a big world, that was a small town

There in my rear view mirror disappearing now

And it's too late for you and your white horse

Now it's too late for you and your white horse to catch me now

Oh, whoa, whoa, whoa

Try and catch me now

Oh, it's too late to catch me now

XOXO,
Princess Azie Anni