Saturday, September 30, 2017

Post-Bintan Trip

Dear Diary,

I have been wanting to blog about my Bintan trip for quite some time but I haven't got the time to. My company had an audit recently and I was busy with the preparation but needless to say, Alhamdulilah. We pass our audit and were given bonus. Yasss!

Anyway, the thing is, D and I were supposed to go to Krabi initially and not Bintan. The Krabi flight will be paid for by D's catering (FD) because D won a lucky draw dip from them to go Krabi. I was looking for at least a 4 days 3 nights trip. But the thing is, D's mom, my mother-in-law (MIL) was the one who liaise with them and I did make it clear and known to my MIL that we wanted to travel to Krabi from the 27th August to 30th August. So my MIL already texted them at least 2 weeks in advance to let them know.

So well, I don't know what went wrong, probably it was miscommunication but within that 2 weeks, my MIL kept asking us if we have already received our tickets. They told my MIL that they will email us the tickets to my email. But for 2 weeks and EVERY SINGLE day, I checked my email but there were still no sign of our flight tickets. And of course, I was too scared to book our accommodation in Krabi because what happens if we book the accommodation and we never get our flight tickets on time? Our paid accommodation will be wasted. I just wanted to be sure and see our flight tickets first before booking the accommodation since we will be paying our accommodation there.

Sad thing, D and I have actually took annual leave from the 27th-30th August to travel. But on the 26th afternoon around 5.30pm, which supposedly we were supposed to travel to Krabi the next day, there were still no sign of our flight tickets. I became anxious because I don't want our annual leave to get wasted with just us sitting at home doing nothing. Thus, I look for a last minute vacation for HOURS doing research where D and I could travel to. Probably not somewhere far since a last minute booking flight tickets will cause us at least few over dollars more and we don't want to waste that money.

I thought of our neighbouring country, like Malaysia or Indonesia. I wanted to go to Indonesia since I've been to Malaysia quite a few times. But D is not comfortable traveling to Batam, when Bintan rings a bell. Definitely just nice for 4 days 3 nights vacation.

So at 6pm after work, I booked our ferry ride and accommodation to Bintan. I headed off to my parents-in-law place together with D after work and they were telling me that we might as well just book our own Krabi flight and don't even bother to wait for D's catering to book the flight for us since they haven't got back to us. But I decided not to go Krabi either, since it will be a too last minute thing, we haven't even pack anything and haven't gotten our money change etc etc. Plus if we were to go the next time, it would be better because we can book the flight earlier and get it at a cheaper price. Thus, we let go of the Krabi idea and decided to head to Bintan instead (since ferry doesn't jock up their price even if you book them last minute).

All set and all happy.

I thought 2 weeks of letting them know was too rushing for them and since they haven't book the krabi flight tickets, I thought I wanted to get back to them to change our Krabi flight date to another day.

But the worse thing happened. It was around 1030pm, I refresh my email to look at my ferry ride schedule when I saw our flight details ticket book by FD right in my inbox. I cannot imagine how furious and disappointed I felt at that point of time. I honestly wanted to go Krabi, so I email them back, hoping they could cancel our flight tickets but to our dismay, they say they couldn't but had to forfeit it. I don't bother replying them after that because D was angry too.

In the email they stated that they already told my MIL that they WILL get our tickets book on the 26th August and we don't have to worry about that. That part I wasn't too sure because my MIL was the one who liaise everything with them and probably it was some miscommunication that my MIL didn't pass us that message. But STILL, I cannot accept, like who the heck book your flight ticket a DAY before you fly off? Come on! People need time to prepare their schedule etc. Or at least even if they have wanted to book it on the 26th August, they could have book and email us the tickets in the afternoon, no? Like before 7pm?! I booked my ferry and accommodation at 6.45pm, even then I keep refreshing my email HOPING to see the flight tickets. But no, don't have. And please, you just don't book and send the flight tickets SO LAST MINUTE to us at 1030PM and expect us to take the next plane ride the next day at 2pm. SERIOUSLY?! Really? *ROLL EYES 100 TIMES* What happens if we are the kind of people who sleep early and wake up late and for all you know, we might even MISS the flight.

I cried. I honestly cried and got so mad. SO DISAPPOINTED with them too, that's the word. DISAPPOINTED.

But D calm me down and told me it was not worth my tears and he will bring me to Krabi, himself. I honestly cannot believe this people. And I'm not sure if the flight could be cancelled or not but after telling them if they could help us cancel the flight (since we already book another trip elsewhere) and they said they had to forfeit it, I didn't bother telling them that we really couldn't make it for that flight.

I wished I could cancel my Bintan trip and go for Krabi trip but our Bintan was paid using our money. Thus, we let go of Krabi since we didn't pay for them.

But I guess God has better plan for us because we did enjoy Bintan so much. After all that venting, now I'm a little too upset to even blog about my Bintan trip. Zzz!

XOXO,
Princess Azie Anni 

Tuesday, September 19, 2017

Make Me Better, Ya Allah

Dear Diary,

Depression, leading there.

Everything seems to be so fine to me. My marriage life is good, never been better. Alhamdulilah! I would say it has been the best thing that have ever happened to me this year. My work I wouldn't say excellent but it has been quite fine, okay....until recently things took a different turn at work.

My colleague and I have been picked for so many reasons that I could not understand why. And why would that made anyone so mad and hateful towards us. And keep on picking on us over and over again.

I have feelings and truly hurts, especially when we were thrown with painful words and remarks. Why is it okay for someone to commit that same mistake without getting pint down or scolded whereas it's like a crime for me when I did one?

I don't know where else should I express my feelings because I've cried enough in the dark, silently or sometimes in front the rest of my colleagues. So painful that I couldn't handle this anymore. There are times, I feel so scared for no reason and I wish I could just die. And there are days I just kept crying and hoping to God to take this away. It's a never nice feelings but I'm such a loser handling my own emotions when it comes to things like this. I wish I was stronger somehow.

Praying makes me feel better and so do I felt better when D is at home with me, he comforts me at best and his presence never fail to make me feel at ease just like how exactly my mom would if she was here. Thank you so much Allah. Sadly, D is on night shift tonight and texting me to feel better. And this would do to.



Make me feel better Ya Allah.

XOXO,
Princess Azie Anni