Depression, leading there.
Everything seems to be so fine to me. My marriage life is good, never been better. Alhamdulilah! I would say it has been the best thing that have ever happened to me this year. My work I wouldn't say excellent but it has been quite fine, okay....until recently things took a different turn at work.
My colleague and I have been picked for so many reasons that I could not understand why. And why would that made anyone so mad and hateful towards us. And keep on picking on us over and over again.
I have feelings and truly hurts, especially when we were thrown with painful words and remarks. Why is it okay for someone to commit that same mistake without getting pint down or scolded whereas it's like a crime for me when I did one?
I don't know where else should I express my feelings because I've cried enough in the dark, silently or sometimes in front the rest of my colleagues. So painful that I couldn't handle this anymore. There are times, I feel so scared for no reason and I wish I could just die. And there are days I just kept crying and hoping to God to take this away. It's a never nice feelings but I'm such a loser handling my own emotions when it comes to things like this. I wish I was stronger somehow.
Praying makes me feel better and so do I felt better when D is at home with me, he comforts me at best and his presence never fail to make me feel at ease just like how exactly my mom would if she was here. Thank you so much Allah. Sadly, D is on night shift tonight and texting me to feel better. And this would do to.
Make me feel better Ya Allah.
XOXO,
Princess Azie Anni ♥
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