I cannot stand it. My brain is about to burst any moment, any seconds from now on. I just dislike the fact how my school put 2 very difficult modules examinations back to back from each other for this semester. Omigod!
I really need some mercy on my hands and brain especially. I am going to take this short break to just blog something, what I felt. This gives me the motivation somehow to carry on. It's my last paper for today, so Alhamdulilah.
Not that I'm really forward much to school holidays because my dissertation is just floating at the back of mind asking me to quickly start on it. I have basically 3 months left. Oh boy.
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So yesterday, I was writing my exam script. I had like 7 more pages of information to basically still write but I was already rushing for time because I only had HALF AN HOUR left to complete. It is quite IMPOSSIBLE when you think about it, to finish within half an hour with 7 full of information to write.
My hands were already screaming to stop because I had already written 10 pages before that. I was there, almost giving up. I just wanted to submit just 10 pages of what I had written, which means I only submit Question 2 with just half-written answer.
As I kept writing, I realised I had like less than half an hour left and I still had 5 more pages left to write. I wanted to cry but like D said, crying won't change anything. But how do you make the impossible, possible? How do I even manage to finish it on time?
Rushing through of course, with my handwriting barely looks like my own handwriting, more like a Doctor's handwriting. Haha! But I saw my both my parents face. That was what push me through. I don't want to disappoint them in any way that I do things usually. Not that I am perfect, I do disappoint them at times, we humans ain't perfect.
And yes, I may be the one paying the whole course of this Degree, but seeing me graduate with a Mortar board have been something that my Dad especially wanted to see ever since we were young.
So with just less half an hour left, I finished the whole paper. 17 pages, OLA! I even had like 2-3 minutes left to just check whatever I wrote, some missing sentence, words etc.
And this won't be possible without Him as well. Remember, everything is possible with Allah. If He say, you'll succeed, you'll succeed. If He say, it is not for you, it is not for you. Whatever it is, always remember to make Doa. Insyaallah, if God's willing.
Today is my last paper and I am making Doa for myself too. =( I keep forgetting information and I have only today to study. This is ridiculous because I was down with a slight fever yesterday and even if I try to study, it will only make me worse.
I hope I will remember what I'm supposed to remember and I hope Allah will ease my hardship upon writing my exam script and finish it on time. Amin.
XOXO,
Princess Azie Anni ♥
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