Feel my frustration

¨°o.O (Post) O.o° 2340 hours

Dear diary,

I’m frustrated! There are just so many things that I’m frustrated at. I wish I could scream out loud! I’m frustrated that………

• ·         I have put on 6kg ever since the last time I lost 20 kg! I really have got to do something! I just hate being in my shoes now.

• ·         I have been thrice to Ikea! Twice to Tampines and once to Alexandra hoping to bring some of the furniture or things I want to buy back home but only to keep realizing that I probably can’t get it through the train especially my 202cm in height book shelf!

• ·         I have not been saving any of my pay recently and been so spend thrift. I just find no value in money and keep thinking, I won’t bring this thing call money even if I die. And this is so UNLIKE ME I swear! It feels like as if that I might be declaring bankrupt sooner or later or dearest friend, would you do the honour of eating grass with me?

• ·         Sometimes I’m just confused to tell or not to tell someone about something I know. Tell, but people might mistake me for being such a big mouth, busy body or worsen relationship ties. Don’t tell, but I wouldn’t want others to be taken advantage of and I wouldn’t people to hide anything from me if they know something.

• ·         I have a freaking spotlight pimple on my forehead and my Boyfriend keeps teasing me that I have nandek every second!

• ·         I’m going to get ulcer really soon and it’s painful

• ·         I’m struggling to write the SOP at work. T_T And I have this freaking bad habit that when I’m “stress”, I tend to talk to myself and scare people away

• ·         I’m eating a lot a lot a lot more and I just can’t stop eatinggggggggggggggggggggg and my snacking is as bad too!

• ·         I want to throw away all my smexy clothes and dresses away and put on more of those cover up clothes but I find it freaking harddd. I guess all these devils are sitting right on my head manipulating my mind every second!

• ·         I don’t feel like moving out of my old room and be in my new room because I just find the study room which is currently my new room, stuffy! I need air.

• ·         I fall in love with this particular chair at Ikea because it’s cheap, red, comfortable and easy to clean but the only problem, you have to spin around by sitting on the chair in order to adjust the freaking height and I feel like puking after that, even the headache still carries on. Why can’t they just have this adjusting handle where you can go up and down easily?! But I’m still getting that chair because I’m that kind of person when I set my eyes on it, no matter how much you twist & turn, I still have my eyes set on you.

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• ·         I don’t even know what I want in life..

But for sure, I’m frustrated that I don’t get enough sleep. So I better get some sleep now because I have 1 more day before I’m half-day. Still, I don’t get my rest because I’ve got to clean up the room again. How long will this carry on, Allah knows.

Goodnight. Sorry for ranting.

Princessazie Bella<3
Elena Gilbert(: