Monday, March 20, 2017

My Bridal Part 2

Dear Diary,

Last week I headed to my bridal again for the 2nd outfit selection. But now, I have everything nice to say about it. Hehehe! We were supposed to do the outfit selection on a weekend but I figure weekends will be busy for them, since I guess people who work office hours would prefer weekends appointment and they will have lesser time to "entertain" this fickle-minded girl. So I decided to do it on a weekdays instead. Still, we had to change to another weekday appointment from the first one because D has been OT-ing quite a bit.

I was afraid V would be annoyed at us because we kept changing the outfit selection appointment and we were planning to change our photoshoot date (after Hari Raya) as well. Hurhur! But thankfully V was very nice to us, to me. She even call me 'sayang' when texting me the other day (because they had to change our final fitting day a day earlier from the day we wanted) but I was contented. big grin

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I took half-day from work and D drove on that day. So he fetched me from work and drove down to where my bridal was located. Honestly, I was feeling slightly afraid that I might feel like how I felt during my first outfit selection but on a second note, I was ready to "brave through the storm." In any case, if anything not nice remarks were thrown at me, I'm going to be strong and just put on a deaf hear. HAHAHA!

But that day, everything was different......

The moment we reached their doorstep, V greeted us nicely. She asked me if I was feeling better and have a much clearer mind today compared to the previous day. I answered her 'hopefully'. We sat down and she asked me what kind of gowns or outfit I was looking for, for the photoshoot. I came prepared actually. A week before, I did my own research. I look through their website, their Instagram, their Facebook and even stream their videos to screenshot and select a few gowns that I prefer.

V was being very patience with me on that day, she told me to walk around to see which gown catches my eyes and D followed me too. Our package consist of 3 outfits for indoor photoshoot and 1 outfit for outdoor photoshoot. I have settle for one indoor outfit - traditional baju songket on the last appointment and thus, I'm left with 3 more outfits - 2 indoors and 1 outdoor.

All the gowns were big and flairs. There were just too many gowns there that I just couldn't decide right off the closet. So, I gave up and showed V pictures instead, of some of the gowns that I have already screenshot in my phone and this part of her I must praise. V knows her things well. One look at the 'white dress' that I showed her from my screenshot, she knew what dress I wanted and where exactly the dress was hang and took it down for me to see. Initially, I thought she wouldn't allow me to try because she was like "Confirm ah this dress?" And I don't want to sound very difficult, so I said "Yes confirm!". Then the best part came when she brought the dress to the fitting room and say "Later I let you try the gown." And asked me what other more outfit I wanted since I have 2 more outfits to choose for the photoshoot - 1 indoor outfit and 1 outdoor outfit.

No idea why but I'm always attracted to white gowns and white wedding outfit, probably because they always look nice and elegant, I look at another white but D was like "B, no more white eh. Semua baju you ambil white. Pick other colours lah at least." So bye bye white Hurmph and I picked 2 other wedding gowns in 2 different colours. A royal blue and a pink. So happy with the gown that I let go one of my traditional baju for the indoor photoshoot for a wedding gown. :zonked: I was happy with my royal blue gown, it was a bustier dress. You should seen on V's face when I picked that dress, she was like "This one tube dress tau." Because she knows D was very conservative much. Lolols! Sadly, the dress couldn't be brought out for outdoor photoshoot because it's long and heavy. I was feeling slightly disappointed at that point of time because I have already set my mind on it and would really love to wear the royal blue dress for my outdoor photoshoot. Unfortunately, you don't always get what you want.

I then had trouble choosing the last outfit for the outdoor photoshoot because basically all the outfit I shortlisted were for indoor photoshoot, they were the long and heavy kinds. cry Some colours for the outdoor outfit were not very much to my liking and they have many outdoor photoshoot gown in white ones which D told me 'No more white' and as much as possible to go for other colours since I already picked 2 whites. So I picked one 'red' gown out of curiosity and V asked me if I wanted to try it on, even though I don't really like the colour 'red' for a photoshoot since it's a bit too Chinese-y but I was left with no choice.

My favourite colour has always been red but I guess as I grow older, red doesn't seems to be my favourite colour of dressing anymore but when I tried on the gown and seeing myself in 'red', I some sort like it. And the good thing the 'red' gown could be interchangeable into a bustier dress or you can wear a lace over to make it look less sexy. LOL! V was suggesting the lace because she knows D is a conservative about my clothing. But for some reason, D allow me to wear it without the lace for the outdoor photoshoot since he said it's going to be hot and he doesn't want me to feel uncomfortable. Hooray!

And while I was busy trying out on the gowns with V inside the changing room, D was already being very "helpful" to himself with the blazers on the open closet. He was already so busy choosing the different blazers to match my gown and looking at the mirror. Hahahaha! V whispered to me while in the changing room telling me D is busy choosing blazers for himself which is probably the reason why he is being slightly "lenient" for me to wear the bustier dress and "can't be bothered" on my dressing today. LOL!

After the selection, we sat down and V took our measurement. At this very moment, I have finally brace through the favourite part of my wedding process. Alhamdulilah! V also said she will just adjust the 'red' gown's lace to my measurement for me in case last minute D or I wanted the lace on during the photoshoot. HAHAHA! Probably hinting to D's leniency that day which could change during the photoshoot day and my fickle-mindedness. Lol!

Came back home feeling happy on that day. V was very patience with me and I got what I wanted except not feeling very much content with the red dress but it's alright. It looks pretty somehow. And my late mom always say "Orang kalau dah cantik, pakai apa pun tetap cantik."

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Feeling curious what red gown my sister wore during her photoshoot since she also wore one red gown and we took the same bridal, I told her to send me her photoshoot pictures and guess what? We chose the SAME red gown. HAHAHAHA!

After that my thoughts are filled with if I should change to another wedding gown or should I just leave it as it is? Hmmm... Till here. See you bridal again in 2 months time!!

XOXO,
Princess Azie Anni 

Friday, March 10, 2017

Ayer Hitam

Dear Diary,

Last week weekend D's family and I headed to Ayer Hitam, JB intention to look for our berkat and other wedding necessities there. It was sweet on his family side to bring me along as well since there is no one in my family particularly could drive me there and since I am the ONLY person who settle almost everything about my wedding - ON MY OWN. Haiz!

It was a long drive to the place but of course not that long compared heading to KL by car. Probably about an hour and a half long drive. And we stopped in between places for toilet break and breakfast before reaching our destination. D's parents and sister had prata while D had Nasi Lemak and I had rice + asam pedas + spinach and kalian vegetables for myself. I THINK his family probably looked at me slightly surprised, probably thinking that I could really eat. =X But...that's just me in the morning, I usually have super heavy breakfast and slow down on lunch and nothing or probably as light as drinking just a glass of milk for dinner.

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Ayer Hitam, JB

Upon reaching, I was so happy to see the whole stretch filled with wedding stuff. From your gubahan (wedding tray), bunga pahar, sirih dara and sirih junjung deco etc etc etc and definitely wedding favours which can be bought at a much much cheaper price there. Considering the RM rate VS sgd rate now, so why not.

We walked down the stretch of shops when one shop caught his parents' attention (no apparent reason) and so we went in. Just happened, everything they wanted can be found in that shop and we decided to buy everything from that one shop. The tactic is:- The more you buy, the more you can bargain, the lesser you pay, hopefully.

I realized it says no camera but I kinda snap the photos already. =X Hehehe!

Ayah has already decided to give 'Telur asin' (Salted egg) as my wedding favours. Egg is really the traditional and classic kind of wedding favour which I love about and it also signifies fertility. Examples of different 'Egg wedding favors'

 
 
Cute rightttt?

While, parents decided to give a more practical favour on his side - a towel. Examples of 'Towel wedding favors'

 
 

I wanted to give towel too initially but a lot of my colleagues doesn't really fancy towels because they said they have too many towels at home. Lol! So I decided not to give them something they don't want, afraid they will dump it away. :zonked: I really want to give something that people would use/like/eat.

Anyway, D's parents bought 700 of those towels which was pre-packed nicely in a cute little box (really) and stuffed everything inside the car. It was funny how we came empty handed and headed back home full with stuff inside the car that we can't even see our face. Lol! I bought another wedding favours just for my non-muslim friends and other friends, who prefer to have things that they can 'keep' to remember my wedding day because some of my friends are sentimental like that. :biggrin: They said if they received food favours, once it's consumed, it will be gone and nothing to be remembered of. But for us Malay/Muslim people who have always attended weddings, we usually prefer food favors because we don't want it to be space consuming and to collect dust at home. But to each its own, so I have 3 favours altogether to cater to people wants.

I went to Larkin, JB as mentioned the other time and I bought Hand fans. I think its quite practical since Singapore is so hot nowadays and I've seen many people carry hand fans everywhere. Examples of 'Hand fan wedding favor'

 
 
Pretty designs aren't they?

I wanted to get more hand fans because the last time I didn't buy much of it but sadly, Ayer Hitam doesn't carry anymore hand fan.  I wanted to get 'Coasters' as the next option BUT they don't carry coasters as well. So I had to look for another option for wedding favour. This time something else caught my eyes and I found it quite practical as well,

 
 

Tadaaaaa! No amount of fork and spoon is ever enough? Lol! To those friends who don't prefer to carry hand fans around (probably guys especially), they can bring home this. Hehehehe!

Okay, the slightly complicated part comes in when I have to distribute the wedding favours on the wedding day itself, because not everybody will get the egg, the hand fan and the fork+spoon. I have to find ways on how to distribute the wedding favors to the right person. But Insyaallah, I'll get my Bridesmaid to help me with that. Sorry Bridesmaid, you all cannot just sit down and look pretty, everybody's gotta work, work, work and help, help, help around. Hehehe!

Uh, the many beautiful bunga pahar that was available there. This is only a few of them. They have a lot of it! Different colours that I wish I could buy ALL of it.



Not bad right the price? And I should have bought 2 boxes lahhh. Tsk!

We even ordered Sirih Dara and Sirih Junjung there as well and to be collected only by next week. And Ayah wasn't too please that our sirih was actually plastic. =X Because my dad is more of the traditional kind whereas D's parents said, nowadays nobody eat sirih, thus, plastic ones will do. Hurhur! But I'll look into it how, I'll try to learn if I can make one because I still remember that I actually did Adik's sirih dara 2 years ago during her wedding. I remembered some of my superstitious auntie was telling me not to touch it. According to them 'Anak dara cannot do sirih dara' BUT...Mama was terribly sick on that day, she was lying down fighting and battling her cancer pain and Mak long was doing the sirih dara all alone by herself. I couldn't help it, so I just put on a deaf hear and helped Mak Long with Adik's sirih dara.

All in all, we were supposed to head to another place to look for many other wedding stuff but due to the many amount of loots we bought back, we decided to just head home. Lol! So people, if you have a car or a vehicle to travel to the other side of Malaysia to look for wedding stuff at a cheaper price - Ayer Hitam is the answer to your everything. But you really have to bargain your way (which is what D's mom did and she is really good at bargaining. Lol!) because they know a lot of Singaporeans come over to buy from them. Alternatively, Larkin (Joo Bee) shop too.

Haiz! Even blogging about this Ayer Hitam place makes me want to go back there again because I still have many things to buy but sadly, I have no vehicle to travel there....  And I don't want to trouble D's parents anymore.

Till here people.

XOXO,
Princess Azie Anni 

Thursday, March 09, 2017

Tired of Everything

Dear Diary,

2 months plus to go before the wedding and honestly I'm at this rate now...


Sometimes I really wonder am I the only BTB who doesn't enjoy this whole wedding process? I don't know why everyone keep telling me to enjoy the whole wedding preparations process because one day, after everything is over, I will start to miss my wedding and the whole wedding process. I wish I can say the same one day in the future, but right now, I'm not too sure about that. I just want things to be OVER soon. I can no longer take it anymore that I'm close to almost dying. Maybe I'm exaggerating when I say dying but yeah, it feels like one.

Maybe things are harder for me because I'm doing everything without a mom, without my mom.

Sometimes I ask myself why do I have to get married without my mom and only after when she's gone but who am I to question my fate, my path that has already been written by Allah SWT, His Qada' and Qadr. As much as I think I'm dying or I can no longer take it anymore, a slight shine of light in my heart always know that deep down, Allah SWT will never test me or put me through an obstacles heavier than what my shoulder could carry. For that, I always keep pushing hard and press on in life.

I have many doubts.

Many questions left unanswered.

Worries after worries.

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I hate you for everything, for causing my life in such a way.
I wouldn't have to be in this spot if it isn't because of you.
I hate you.
I hate to see your face.
and
I truly hate you.