Feeya's Baby Shower

Dear Diary,

I guess I can no longer hide anymore because sadly, D has found the link to blog.  So this clearly answers my doubt which I have been having for months thinking 'Does he know or does he not know if I have a blog...' I guess my blog name was a giveaway as well. All he had to do was to type 'Princess Azie' on google and there you go..FOUND me. I really want to think of that I'm "popular" in a sense that I could be found online but on second thoughts, all I wanted to do was just to blog quietly + secretly and not to be known or found by people, unless if they stumbled upon my blog, then of course they are welcome to read but that does not include my fiancé.  And his reasoning wasn't that reasonable to me somehow, "I wanted to know you more, the person you are, the person that I'm going to get married to." Like seriously?!  To that extend?  But after much thoughts, I hate to admit this but he did make some sense. I did mention that there should be no more secrets between us now that we're in this level of getting married, and so, he gave his social media passwords to me. I used to think that he has many secrets to hide from me but the truth is, I am the one with many secrets. =X Anyway, I did try to distract him with my many powerful "U...u...u...u...u...u...u" from reading my blog, but I guess it's not that effective. So for now, I'm just going to blog and pretend like as if D is not reading any of my thoughts.

  

Today was Feeya's baby shower.

And I really must thank D for taking time off from work (He was on afternoon shift today) to enter work at a later timing, so that he could accompany me. It was really sweet of him when he did this for me. I felt so touched God knows. And I too, must thank my sister for not making me feel left out and accompanying me to eat together while we were there. Bless. Because I have this tendency to always feel left-out whenever I am in a place where I'm not that comfortable in or feel like I'm being ignored. =X Just me and my sensitive-self.

Here is to food,

 

Nothing much for today besides we all just sat down together talking and spending some time with each other. The atmosphere was rather relax and I enjoy it very much. Anyway, Ressal's auntie met me after quite some time and she went "Azie! Dah kurus sekarang. Jangan lah kurus-kurus sangat. Nanti tak lawa tau." Honestly, I still think I need to lose weight and I don't think I lost weight either. Yes, I have been dieting for at least 2 weeks now but I don't think 2 weeks could shown any results ever in losing weight. But the thoughts of going dieting for 6 months before my big day is almost killing me. You know I love food right?

My food. Hehehe!

 

And of course, what is food without desserts.

We sat for almost an hour plus, while meddling our own business and talking among ourselves. Most of the time, I was trying to snapchat away and taking pictures. And Ayah was talking to D about random stuff. That boy, literally need to do some adjusting to my family. Every little thing seems so funny to him.  

 

After which, we made our way back home. Okay, not literally home since D had to head for work and so I was being such a Korean sweet boyfriend girlfriend would do, I accompanied and sent D to work. It wasn't much but I have always truly enjoy every minute spend with him, although literally he could drive me insane and crazy with his annoying-self. Sometimes, I wonder what has life gotten me into marrying this boy. HAHAHA! But I'm not saying anything about regret. Just probably, "looking forward" to all the upcoming "surprises" in my life. Oh well, Muahahaha!

 

After D headed off to change and for work, I made my way to Vivocity to walk around. I would say, I kinda enjoy it, walking alone, having my own me-time. And to make me feel not so much alone, I decided to grab something. I couldn't decide if I should have Double Chocolate Ice Blended from Coffee Bean or Chocolate Ice-cream from Godiva. Both were making me drool, both was what I wanted and both places were just next to each other! Since I had so many things in hand, I know Ice-cream wasn't a good idea, in case I might drop the ice-cream. Thus, I decided to go for Double Chocolate Ice blended instead. Hooray!

 

It tasted sooooooo good, so heavenly! I bought the small size thinking I would not be able to finish it but end up regretting buying a small one, should have gotten Regular one at least. Hurhur! So anyway, resume walking around as I wanted to get my nephew, Ra'if some clothes. Goodness gracious! Vivocity was the answer. They had a long stretch of kids' clothing stores. There were Muji, Cotton On Kids, Fox kids to name a few. And I literally went into the shop one by one to recce and buy clothes. From wanting to get Ra'if some clothes, it turn out to be more clothes instead. Swipe swipe swipe that credit card happily. HAHAHAHA! But of course, I know my limits. I just don't spend unnecessarily okay. -_-' Just that I haven't been spending much for Ra'if for the past 5 months since he was born.

Felt tired after all those walking and so I headed home after that. Reached home and I felt super super hungry! Reality strike me that tomorrow is Monday, which means I'm back to work and it also means my diet shall resume. I was trying hard to force myself not to consume any food anymore but I couldn't. I succumb into the pack food that Ayah brought home from Feeya's baby shower and I ate like a greedy little girl in the kitchen. =X The chicken, the beef, the rice, the dalca. Oh dear! Felt terrible after that. =X

  

I guess this week shall be a good week for food, since it is auditing week this week. And once audit end this week on Friday, we always end it with a company's dinner buffet at a restaurant for a small celebration. Can't wait to eat, eat and eat. This time, it will be at Straits Kitchen, Hyatt. And I realised there are still many things that I haven't settle much at work for the audit. Tomorrow will be a super busy day for me, before audit starts on Tuesday. I wish I could stay back after work tomorrow to settle work issues but I have been skipping my Qur'an classes for two weeks alreadt. Ain't skipping another week for audit stuff. Haiz! I have been slacking and procrastinating my stuff at work. And now I realised, I have only TOMORROW to settle everything. Tskkkk!!

Till here. Stress mode on.

XOXO,

Princess Azie Anni ♥

Angry Gemini VS Angry Virgo

Dear Diary,

One month has past that we have been engaged. It's true when people tell me that being engaged requires your highest patience of all patience in the whole wide world.  I did ask some people in particular about being engaged. For instance, my sister said she felt totally normal during that period of time. Like nothing lorrr. Like the usual when being in relationship. But many, okay a number of them (they didn't tell me what exactly happened) briefly telling me to 'BE PATIENT.' Could be third party, could be you just gotten "sick" of each other, could be the endless sensitive feeling and whatever that decides to fall into the picture.

I have no idea but at this very period, I find myself easily flick and I became more and more sensitive. Every little thing D does, ANNOYS me, ANGERS me. Omigod! So terrible that I could literally punch him in the face. (I have been warned not to be abusive by my colleagues. HAHA! Not that I am, anyway.) Hahahaha! So and so, I even dream about him. And in the dream, I punched him. HAHAHA!

Subhanallah. But I have been granted the most patient person from Allah SWT ever. Just like my
mom, D is ever-patient with my nonsense. I don't know how he does it but he did it with love I'm supposed....Or with ignorant? Hahahaha! No lah. I'm sure it's love lah ehhh.

Honestly, I wasn't like this before.  So my poor fiancé is counting down to the number of months left to our wedding and hopefully, being married & seeing him everyday after that will make me happier and make things better, he thought. Although, I find no link how will things be better seeing him everyday?  And how does my happiness link to seeing him everyday?  Hmm.. BUT...I shall give him the benefit of the doubt lah okay. Lol!

Talking about anger, recently a friend shared this link http://www.theearthchild.co.za/how-each-sign-of-the-zodiac-expresses-their-anger/ on Facebook on how different horoscope react when angry. I don't know how true this is for everyone but it is DEFINITELY 100% true for the both of us. HAHA! I'm the Gemini and D is the Virgo.

Gemini-
As you probably already know, Geminis are known as the Twins. You may as well flip a coin when it comes to how they’re going to react when in anger. They may seem completely calm and centered when their words of anger cut you to the core.

Geminis LOVE to talk. That’s usually what they do best. When in anger that does not change. When you piss off a Gemini, get ready to be chewed out. Anger may start as rudeness or sarcasm, but it can quickly change to screaming, yelling and throwing things.

Luckily, they don’t tend to stay angry for an extended period. As long as you don’t tell a Gemini what to do or how to act, they may be able to forgive and forget.

Hahahaha! Yes, when I'm angry + upset. I'm usually calm BUT my words are full of anger and hurt deeply. And then slowly when things got more heated up, that is when I'll talk non-stop. I will keep going and going and won't allow an explanation. I'm a horrible person when I'm angry. I'll just lash out, rude and sarcastic. When I'm really that angry, yes I scream, yes I yell. When it get really worse, yes, I do throw things. HAHAHA! But ONLY when it gets too extreme. For all I remember in my entire life I threw things at people only thrice. That was because those a**holes were calling me extreme names and involving my family in the picture when I didn't even disturb them. I don't just throw things at people when I'm angry, will never. No matter how angry, I won't let stupidity take control over me just like that, not if people provoke me to that extreme.

Virgo-
Virgos are one of the most patient and loving signs. They can take an unbelievable amount of abuse from people before they start showing signs of frustration and anger. They try to avoid doing so because they aren’t very comfortable expressing their anger. But when they need to let it out, their emotions can get very intense. Their anger can be so strong, you may even feel it from the other room.

Virgos are still quite passive aggressive when angry too. They usually avoid confrontation and arguments at all cost. They find it much easier to walk away when they are angry, rather than sticking around to scream it out.

Virgos are also very forgiving, and won’t really hold a grudge. Then again, they don’t tend to forget either. They are far less likely to trust someone after they realize their trust has been misplaced.

This I do agree too. It does says too that Virgo are patient people just like D. I can be rude and sarcastic to him and he can still take such an unbelievable amount of abuse from me. Lol! It's only when sometimes when I can get a little tooooooooo rude, then he will start showing his frustration and anger. But most of the time, he'll calm down again, avoiding confrontation and arguments at all cost. But when he is mad (rarely), yes, it's so strong that I can feel it from home even we're just texting each other from each other's house. HAHA! But when that happens, I'll usually will mellow down. They say when one is fire, the other should be water vice versa. Despite all that when I apologize, his reply is always "No matter how angry you get or make me upset, I will always forgive you sayang." Haiz! That's how forgiving he is. And I know he never hold grudgesbecause he never bring up things about the past, while sometimes, I can still dwell on a long time ago mistakes. Muahaha!

Till here, shall go for my run and produce more Endorphin. It's the best therapy to release stress at least.

XOXO,

Princess Azie Anni ♥

I Am

Dear Diary,

Today I skipped my ngaji class and celebrated JM's advance birthday together with ZO. It has been long since the 2 of us went out to have dinner together or to even have meet-ups, since I no longer go for gym classes with them.

Initially, we wanted to settle for 'Lava Stone Steak House' for dinner but the Halal eatery one is all the way at East Coast and it was a little bit too out of place for us. Thus, we decided to go to the one nearby which is at PasarBella, when JM realized Lava Stone only serve beef which she can't have. So we had to change the whole venue and look for another Halal eatery, for my convenient as well. It was not that difficult though because Bugis have a variety of Halal cafes and since JM have always wanted to try 'I Am', we settled for that.

I Am

ZO have already made a reservation beforehand and the people there kept getting confused asking us to queue up before walking-in, and different people kept attending to us. They kept asking how can they help us and when we told them we made a reservation, they walked away to help us check our reservation and "never" came back  and another person did the same thing, and another and another when...a familiar face came up to us and assisted us. Then! I realized it was D's cousin. Small world. The funny thing, I smiled widely in confirmation knowing it was her (I kinda have superb memories ahout people even when I see them once, just like Mama) but I felt kinda paiseh after that when she gave me this unsure smile back at me. LOL! Made me felt super awkward too. Heh. Maybe I wasn't that easily recognizable among some others. I really should learn not to embarrass myself by acting like a smart alex with my overfriendly behaviour with people sometimes. People might think I'm crazy. =X Or maybe I really look a bit Chinese wihout the make-up (that's what D thought to) just now.

So anyway, they brought us to our seat at the 2nd level. I had no idea they have 2 levels to this cafe. Awesome! Again, I couldn't decide what to order. That's me being fickle, nothing new about that. I was thinking of having their Burger initially, 'Satay Burger' but I couldn't remember if I already had that with D the last time. I tried to 'eeny meeny miny moe'-ing on my choice but ZO said such things doesn't work. So, I decided to follow the girls and have Pasta instead, since they all are having our usual favourite - Aglio olio. But this time with Fettuccine as our choice of pasta. We three had different sides. Mine was Cajun Chicken, JM was seafood and ZO's was just prawns. It was my first time trying Fettuccine pasta (I don't usually fancy any other pasta besides just Spaghetti). To me, Fettuccine felt a bit dry with the Aglio olio sauce but well it was still nice though, chewy-chewy and  because it was Aglio olio. Slurrrp!

Not forgetting we have to have sides whenever we dine, so we had Buffalo wings as the sides. It was also my first time trying Buffalo wings. It's nice and I like it but not something that I would go crazy about. It tasted a bit burnish like your BBQ kind of taste, which something I don't favour much but the girls love it!

After we finish our pasta, we did a Birthday surprise for JM. The person there brought their in-house special rainbow cake that we order over for JM, singing her a Birthday song too. Thank God we were at the 2nd level. So, it was only us and 2 other groups of people there. They too join in to sing JM the Birthday song. Hehehe! It was really sweet and luckily not too embarrassing for JM. Hehehe!

Anyway, side track a bit because I just had to share this part of my story. When the girls and I were seated at the 2nd level, we had the table near a red window and at that point of time, it was only the 3 of us there. While seating down and waiting for us to be served, the window suddenly opened by itself and then shut on its own. It shocked the 3 of us and I was confident that there were NO wind at all at that point of time. Like literally, how someone would open the door and closed it. So ZO tried to neutralize the situation and explained that probably the window was loose causing the window to open by itself. Plus I didn't want to think so much about it either and so I brushed it off my thoughts. But few hours later after we finished eating, I realised my glass had a lipstick stain on it which I had no freaking idea where it came from. I was sure that my glass did not have lipstick stain in the first place because I am very particular on checking my glass before drinking. (I know of some places who doesn't wash the glasses/cups properly, don't want to name them) So, I'll usually give a quick check to see if the cup is clean. I have been taking sip after sip of water from the glass, not until later when I found the lipstick stain on my glass. The spooky thing, I wasn't wearing any make-up or lipstick AT ALL. So again, ZO helped me change my glass to a new one and we ignored what had happened. But then while taking pictures, we realised there were candles reflection on JM's face, which I am not too sure what was that and we were sure there wasn't any reflection before we snap the picture. Anyway, does candles' reflect light on pictures? No right? Hmm.. Anyway, I choose not to think too much about it again. Could be just one of those spooky day, you know. Told this story to my other colleague and she too got spook out. Lol! And then she asked me this question, "Would you go back there again?" OF COURSE! I'll definitely will and I don't think that place was spooky or anything. Probably it was just some playful soul who was just trying to "play"  around with us. Hurhur! 

I did mention to the girls that the cake is huge with 7 tall different colours slices. So the 3 of us get to share JM's birthday cake as one person won't be able to finish this. We all chose a colour each and started eating the colour off. JM chose the violet and ZO chose the blue, while I chose Yellow. And then ZO was too full that she had one last Green and so was JM, with one last purple. I don't like anything to go to waste when it comes to food and so, I finished the cake with the Red and Orange, this time skipping the cream cheese because it was making me sick and jelak. Haha! But honestly, their cream cheese is so so nice, to die forrrrr!

After dinner, we all walked for a bit to let the food settle in since we were already too full and then we headed home. Sadly now, I am still thinking of their rainbow cake. Haizzz! It's sooooo nice!

XOXO,

Princess Azie Anni ♥

Deposit.

Dear Diary,

A week ago, D and I headed to our Bridal place to make another deposit. Not that my bridal was chasing us for deposit payments, just that I think it's best that I start settling the money part slowly since I had enough cash at that point of time...before I start splurging them all. Hurhur! Plus, I still have a long way to go on the payment as I took a Photoshoot package with them as well. (Very smart girl.) So yeahs, some of you would have already known which Bridal I've settled for. In fact, I am quite please with them for now other than the friendliness..

Anyway, I dropped a text to them that D and I will drop by in the evening to make payments. And I got no reply back, but it doesn't matter because the person I texted was extremely busy which I truly understand, plus I know they are open everyday on weekdays till 8pm. So I know it won't be a wasted trip, no worries about that.

So when D and I reached, we were greeted nicely by a lady, let's name her G for now. She was extremely friendly and I felt really welcome. And then met the Mak Andam or rather the Pak Andam. He was busy entertaining and doing alteration for a Bride-to-be who was also present there. I know he's nice. My sister and even my BIL's sister, Nonoi used their services and he even did the make-up for them. He was friendly there but wasn't that too friendly with me on that day or even when I went down previously to make my confirmation on the booking of the bridal.  So I started to compare how I was greeted nicely by the people at Peti Solek TBR. They were all super extremely friendly!! But the Pak Andam did have conversation with us, though with a straight; serious face, it was okay lah. Lol! Or maybe it's just me, maybe it's because of my bubbly personality, I have such high expectations of how I define the term - FRIENDLY. Lololols!

But all in all, it was okay. At least, they did acknowledge me instead of ignoring me at all. That could be worse you see. But I am superbly excited looking at all the Wedding gowns, the wedding costume, attire. Oh myyyyyyy God. Extremely beautiful!! Especially those with laces and flare gowns. Omoooooo! Seriously, I wonder how long will I take to choose my wedding gowns when the time comes, =X especially when it comes to me, the problem of being fickle. Opps! And it just dawn on me about what the person at the jewelry shop told me the other time..

"Engagement ring or choosing a ring should be one of the easiest compared to choosing the wedding gown."

Yeahs, that was because I took 3 freaking hours to choose one engagement ring.  But it's MY engagement ring. It will be with me for a lifetime and so is my wedding, it's once in a lifetime and I want everything to be how I want them to be. Maybe, not perfect of course but something memorable and something I would love and like. Something when I remember and think about it in years to come, I will smile and be happy about it. Not something that will make me upset or regret. That's the last thing we all want.

Till here. More updates next time. Heee!

XOXO,

Princess Azie Anni ♥

Descendent of The Sun

Dear Diary,

Since I am going to be late for work today, I am going to take my time to blog. (Still am waiting for the bus) Yes, horrible traffic! I could have reach the interchange by bus within 10 minutes but the traffic caused me to be stuck in it for half an hour before reaching the interchange. And then the trains were super pack that I could not get in. I had to bounce one station back to Yew Tee before heading to Jurong East. And you could hear the announcement "Due to the weather, the train will travel at a slower speed." Yeahs. Super slow indeed. I am technically half an hour late for work now and still counting...

So anyway, I recently caught 'Descendent of The Sun'. I know that Korean drama. =/ While everyone have already probably finish watching them, I just finished mine. I remember how I find it annoying when people like to watch K-dramas or worse those when they are so into K-pop bands. Big bang whatever not. Trust me, I don't even know these people.

Many people have tried to convince me or convert me into liking all these K-pop, K-dramas stuff. My sister, my girlfriends, my bestfriends BUT..I have always stand on the firm ground to never start. I've seen people who go extremely beyond crazy and it scares the hell outta me. How one can be extremely fanatic? But I did tell myself, whoever managed to make me have some slight change liking towards all these, must have been such an amazing influence in my life because when I say no to something, it just means no, never will I ever. Ahuh. Nope.

BUT..yeahs! I finally succumb to it because of my own fiancé. Cehhh fiancé sehhh. Zzzzzzzzzz! But strange how it happens BECAUSE I wasn't intending to. I was just done watching a local movie 'Long Long Time Ago', when I started scrolling down the link and I found 'Descendent of the Sun' in one of the link. So I erm..click it to stream it to see how Korean shows are like. Few minutes of the first episode was kind of boring, almost loss me there. Plus I don't know all the actors or actresses, so there wasn't anybody that I'll like YET for me to even continue watching the show. BUT...when the funny scene and romantic teasing part kicked in, I couldn't stop and I just kept going. HAHAHHAHAHAHA!! Half the time I was smiling to myself. Lalalala~ And because of me, my colleague, Eileen is also watching it now. Muahaha!

So, I'm still having a slight post-DOTS syndrome for now. I am still watching some online short clips of the drama scene on website. Goshhh! Funny thing, I asked D how come he is watching all these romantic funny shows but never done any of this to me before. HAHAHA! And he was like "B, this is all fantasies, only in dramas." So I assume my fiancé will never be as romantic or sweet as this ever. Oh well! But it's okay, he has other favourable characters of his own that is deem special to me. Nyehehehe!

Araso.
Till here, I'm thinking what is for lunch in this heavy rainy weather.
Annyeong.

XOXO,

Princess Azie Anni ♥