I am quite speechless at the moment. I don't know how should I blog this. I mean, I don't know how to even say it. There are many things that are running through my head. This is the first time it feels like I couldn't even expressed everything into words when I'm actually better at this.
Well, let me try....
My life. It feels empty. Unfair. Confused. Sad.
I know there are people who is going far through worse than me. I should feel bless and syukur standing at where I am now. But sadly, feeling torn and broken is consuming too much of me. It empowers all other emotions, making it the most superior emotions I have at the moment.
How do you handle the people who left? Your loved ones especially. Someone whom you love so much. It's not that I haven't been through this before. There are a few occasion, I lose my love ones. My late grandma, late grandpa. But certain things are not the same.
I worry the after effect. Will I be okay? Is everything going to turn out fine? What will I be?
I have never imagine few years back this is how Allah SWT have written my life, fate to be. But after all, this is life. This is dunia. The short-lived. I have to redha with His Qada' and Qadar.
Everything happens for a reason. And I must know my purpose in this world. It's only to serve Him. Nothing is permanent, everything are just temporary. To Allah we belong and to Him we shall return.
I guess that's all.
And I don't even know whatever I'm saying make sense.
Who cares about making sense. I am sense-less myself.
It's been a long day without you my friend
And I'll tell you all about it when I see you again
We've come a long way from where we began
Oh I'll tell you all about it when I see you again
When I see you again
Damn who knew all the planes we flew
Good things we've been through
That I'll be standing right here
Talking to you about another path I
Know we loved to hit the road and laugh
But something told me that it wouldn't last
Had to switch up look at things different see the bigger picture
Those were the days hard work forever pays now I see you in a better place
How could we not talk about family when family's all that we got?
Everything I went through you were standing there by my side
And now you gonna be with me for the last ride
It's been a long day without you my friend
And I'll tell you all about it when I see you again
We've come a long way from where we began
Oh I'll tell you all about it when I see you again
when I see you again
First you both go out your way
And the vibe is feeling strong and what's
Small turn to a friendship a friendship
Turn into a bond and that bond will never
Be broke and the love will never get lost
And when brotherhood come first then the line
Will never be crossed established it on our own
When that line had to be drawn and that line is what
We reach so remember me when I'm gone
How could we not talk about family when family's all that we got?
Everything I went through you were standing there by my side
And now you gonna be with me for the last ride
So let the light guide your way hold every memory
As you go and every road you take will always lead you home
It's been a long day without you my friend
And I'll tell you all about it when I see you again
We've come a long way from where we began
Oh I'll tell you all about it when I see you again
When I see you again
XOXO,
Princess Azie Anni ♥
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