Steam Boat & Birthday..

Dear Diary, 

😢😔 Yesterday was the day. I was invited over by D's family to celebrate his mom's birthday. Trust me, I had no idea that we are going to eat or have steam boat. I wasn't even told in the first place. So I kinda had a heavy meal before attending. Thus, by then I was feeling quite full already. I'm on my nonsense diet, so I'll only eat one meal a day every day. Not that I purposely choose not to eat when I was there.

Anyway, besides nuts. I don't like dendeng, hot dogs or grapes. So when these food were offered to me, I rejected politely but I did eat some, hotdog cheese for instant. And I like mutton & beef but ever since braces, these meat will get stuck in between my teeth and it hurts like crazy. And I can't just be picking my teeth in front of his family like when I'm with him. I also tahu malu. So I didn't eat much of the food there. Plus, I don't know how steam boat actually works. It was my first time eating like that with his family.

Most of the time when I'm there, I was just quiet because I don't know what to say to the family. I don't want to appear too bubbly. People might think I'm crazily annoying talking non-stop like how when I'm with my colleagues, family, friends or even when I'm with D. Sometimes they even wish I'll just keep quiet for once.

And yes, I may know how to cook at home but when it comes to BBQ-ing & steam boat, I'm a total failure. Does he not remember? The last time when we went to Seoul Garden, he did all the cooking for me? I don't even know what food to eat or even if the food was cooked for the record. So I just sat down until the food was served onto my plate. And then of course, I cut all those meat slowly and put them inside my mouth slowly. Honest to God, inside me I was nervous. You can 'yek eleh' because that was what I was feeling. Then yek eleh, I'm just different from you.

So after finished eating, I wanted to help clear up but I'm too shy to even help. Plus I don't know my way around at people's house when I first just step my foot at. I'm not like this when I'm at my bestfriend's place or relatives' place. I always helped to clean up and stuff. Just that I'm not used to in other people's house. So I just sat down in the living room to watch TV together with the family.

Yes, I sat straight because I was too full. Yes, I was stoned because most of the time when I'm with D, we will always tease or joke around with each other. I'll do stuff like poking him, but we're not even married yet. How can I be doing all these stuff in front of his parents? Of course, I just sat like a rock. I'm brought up in a way how my parents brought me up. I also tahu halal & haram. Things I can do or not do.

So before we made a move, D hinted to me that he haven't slept the whole day because he hit the gym after night shift. We were supposed to go out after that, which he already promised me. Pinky promise me some more! I know the he way said that, was because he wanted to hint me that he do not want to go out but to have his sleep instead. So you tell me now. Was the gym necessary on that day? Tiring urself, not to sleep, then I'll become the victim? He could have hit the gym another day right? So I just rolled my eyes on him and I guess he understood the sign and agreed to go out.

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Told his parents that he was going to send me back home. At the same time, I wanted to take a look at the Bukit Panjang BTO area, how far it is from the LRT & stuff. So D brought me over.

While walking, he was making fun of me, "Wah! Tadi potong daging, ayam semua bukan main lembut lagi eh. Potong sikit. Sikit. Sikit gitu. Then duduk punya lah straight macam gitu. Kelakar seh. You takut sangat apa dengan my mom? My parents? They are not monsters okay. They are going to be your in-laws soon. Your family soon."

Woah. I told you, the moment when all those words were thrown at me. I could no longer hold back my tears. I already felt my most awkward when I'm there. Like I don't know what I can do or not do in front of his family. (I mean some family have different adab what) Like my family don't like people slurping the noodles loudly while eating, we will be scolded for doing that. 😔

Plus it's not like I meet his family always. I could even count with fingers, yes only twice but in bigger occasion, when many people were present. I have NEVER sat on the same table feasting together. And then when he said all those words to me, I felt like my presence nor my effort to be there was not even appreciated. Can't even believe I'm crying in the train, while typing this. And it wasn't even in my mouth to say things like his parents were monsters or what. I am not that rude.

So I tried to hold back my tears, until he saw my eyes and asked me "Why are you crying? Eh why are you crying?" I could no longer stand it and I told him everything and what I felt.

Yah. Just because he knew me for 2 years already. HE FORGOT how I was when HE FIRST MET ME. If I can rewind back to show him, I will. I never even finish our food when we were eating and if there was big chicken, I didn't even cut them to eat. When he ordered a lot of food, I will only eat what's on my plate. Now different lah, I eat everything, even on his plate when we are together. And so I was this quiet when I first started my job. Ask my colleagues. They can tell you how I behaved when I first join. I was quiet. I don't even eat or go for lunch at work. Ask my girlfriends. They'll always thought I don't speak Malay or English, or think I could even speak for the record. Haiz!

Instead of understanding me, which his sister somehow did when she said "Kak Azie is behaving like how Kak Maria was, when she first met our family." All he does was reprimand me for my behaviour without even giving me a chance to let me take my time to be comfortable or to get to know his family better.

So hurt. If I really don't want to make any effort, I wouldn't have asked if I should buy anything for the family or even asked what gift should we get for his mom's birthday.

I know his family is important, I never said they weren't. I know they are going to be my family. I accept and love them just like how I will when it comes to my family too. How important my family is, so are his family to me. But I need some time, some adjustment. It's just me. I always had my guard up when I first meet people before I open up. Just because you know me for years or have seen me how I behave towards my friends or people I've known for years, you don't have to reprimand me for my behaviour when I first meet people.

I'm this hurt that I don't even wish to talk to D. Honestly, the last time when I met someone's family. It wasn't even like this to begin with. The reason why even when someone's family members was hospitalized, I will, for the record go down to pay my visit.

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Despite all that, I did apologize to D for behaving that way and so did D, for saying such things at me. Besides, no relationship is perfect. And being engaged, you know there are 1001 things of obstacles waiting to just fall at the both at you. Plus, we are at this stage of adjustment, getting to know each other more/better in life. So, let's move forward from here and take this as a stepping stone to learn from whatever. But that does not mean I'm not hurt and feel like talking to D.

XOXO,

Princess Azie Anni ♥

Bukit Panjang VS Sembawang

Dear Diary,

Today will be exactly a month away from our HDB appointment for Bukit Panjang BTO. Yes, that Bukit Panjang house that will take forever to be built. 😔 Oh, D and I actually applied for another BTO during August. We applied for the one at Sembawang and guess what? We got a queue number for this one too. I was just merely trying my luck since I know I have increased chances since we have been failing to get a house.

I have no preferences when it comes to getting my own house, okay our house. I mean yes, location is one thing but definitely not way too far from the West, from our parents. For example like all the way to the East in Bedok or South all the way to Punggol. No no. And I thought North side in Sembawang would be a good location since Adik will be in Admiralty next year and we will be somewhat near to each other and to Choa Chu Kang or Bukit Panjang (our parents place) requires only one straight MRT down.

But considering the accessibility of Sembawang to CCK/Bukit Panjang like to me it's a bit leceh compared from Bukit Panjang to CCK/Bukit Panjang itself. It is much nearer because there are more than one public transport heading back to our parents' places. In fact, I think I'm having half-hearted about the flat in Sembawang because I'm not so used to North sides. I rarely even stepped foot there and always feel so much alienated when I'm there. Awkward. The only time I was ever in the North area was because my Polytechnic school is there. And I find from Bukit Panjang or CCK you have interchange that can lead you to many many areas in Singapore (which we will rarely go) even to the East. Unlike Sembawang, D was telling me, what happens if there is no other necessity around, like your food places, shopping centres etc etc etc which is so far from our future house, compared to Bukit Panjang, we have almost everything here nearby. Hmmm...Besides I don't like changes as well, so Sembawang may not be a good idea.

But hmmm....

I know chances are quite high if D and I go for the house in Sembawang. The leverage of getting a house there is that most of the houses there comes with a balcony. I know me and my forever balcony. Hahaha! I don't even have to bookmark the houses unlike the one at Bukit Panjang which only have a few units that has balcony. In fact, our queue number for Sembawang was 265/304 and for Bukit Panjang was 523/525. I KNOW RIGHT! Due to our queue number that is so far for Bukit Panjang BTO, all the balcony units has been taken. Another advantages for the BTO in Sembawang is that, it will be completed in 2019 and the one in Bukit Panjang will be in 2022. 3 years apart! Estimation time after marriage will be 2-3 years VS 5-6 years of getting our own house. OMIGOSH! Can you imagine how old will I be then before I get my OWN house in Bukit Panjang?! Like takkan selama-lamanya I want to menumpang rumah orang and not having our own house/privacy right? Haiz. I mean even if it's my parents' place or his parents' place. Sebaik-baiknya we have our own place to stay. I do not want any conflict or anything. Like I have ever watched this video by Mufti Menk who adviced and said,

It is better for a married couple to stay further away from their family and see each other once in while and maintain that good bond among each other's family. Then a family who stays together who look like they have good bond among each other, pretend like they have good bond among each other but in real life, they are always fighting, disagreeing or having conflict with one another.

I am not even lying about this, I have seen how things were at home before. And I've seen how many other married couples feedback to me too about this. He is your husband, you will love him for whatever ways he is, but he may not be able to stand certain ways of your parents/siblings, and so are your parents towards your husband. And she is your wife, you will accept her for who/what she is, but she may not able to stand your parents/siblings ways and so does your parents not being able to stand her ways. We can swallow bit by bit, once in a while over little trivial matters but if it's years, we're not angel or malaikat that can have patience as high as mountains.

I am myself doomed and dilemma when it comes to this. I can't decide which house to choose even after I weigh all the pros and cons. Besides, the ethnic quota is also another factor that both of us have to consider. We may get a queue number but the ethnic quota could kick us out from getting to book a flat. So, I leave this matter to Allah SWT to decide for us. Everyday single day I pray and keep our house in my prayers. If He think Bukit Panjang house is right and good/baik for the both us, then we will get to book our flat in a month's time, else, if it's not good/baik for us, then the ethnic quota can do its job of kicking us out. Furthermore, our appointment for Sembawang is only next year. So, even if we don't get the ones in Bukit Panjang, we will have another chance for Sembawang next year.

I know Allah SWT will never abandon me and is never deaf to my prayers. He knows best and I'll leave the rest for Him to decide. Amin. Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin.

XOXO,

Princess Azie Anni ♥

Rumi & Jawi

Dear Diary,

Since the internet at work has filter installed, so the website that I usually frequent to watch my online movies during lunch time was blocked, thus I have nothing to watch currently. So a friend, recommended me interesting Malay dramas to watch from Youtube basically and some other websites. He recommended me a long list of Malay dramas but the first on the list was 'Rumi & Jawi'. Besides some of the drama are latest drama and I usually like to watch a show that has already ended because I don't like the waiting game for the next episode. Impatience? Yes.

Short attention span? Yes. The first few episode was okay-okay to me but I find the first few episodes quite draggy, but there are many laughing-haha scene in the drama though. When it reaches episode 9-14, it was even more draggy and I couldn't stand Fathia Latiff as 'Jawi' in those episodes. She was so annoying, so childish, so unreasonable, so stubborn, so selfish and she always want to win, that I feel like I want to smack her right in the face. And yet, Remy Ishak as 'Rumi' was so patient as ever. I remember even fast-forwarding during some of those few episodes because I hate the way how Jawi was treating Rumi. And all I could think of, how can one be that annoying and the one as patient as ever? Drama. Fantasies. Fake. Doesn't exist! Poyo!!! (Like how many times this word kept being mention in the drama that I decided to look out the meaning for it.)

Poyo (definition):-
A Malay slang, used by teenagers and some 'young' adults. Offensive, when used intentionally and can lead to quarrels+fights if used for insulting purposes.
1. A liar, or faker.

  

While I was watching that drama, D and I had a slight tiff regarding Sunday. Well, of course it is always me who decided to spark the fire first. He invited me over for a family occasion but I kinda felt uncomfortable and out of place about it and I told him I do not want to attend as I feel like I'm just an outsider. I know it's wrong to be saying all these. His family is going to be my family soon, which also means I am also marrying his family as well. And knowing this, my dad will definitely get mad at me if I do not go because D has always made effort to attend my family's occasion whenever. But I just have to say this, I do not hold grudges and I do not hate. But I hold on to pain. Yes, I reminisce on hurt and I dwell on sadness. I still remember how hurtful I felt during his brother's wedding 2 years ago, when I was chuck aside not knowing anyone there. It was my first time meeting his relatives. I may be loud, bubbly and look like I am not shy or I can get along well with everyone but the fact is I am not. I am never good when it comes to meeting people for the first time. I'm shy and I will be quiet and I just don't open up to people easily.

But that day? I had look from afar, overlooking how happy their family were while they all took pictures together and I stand like a pole at the side not knowing anybody. And the worse thing and most embarrassing thing, I was wearing BLUE exactly the same colour like their family but I don't belong to their family and nobody knows who the heck was I. Everyone kept staring, kept looking. Only a few friendly ones whom I remember, made conversation with me. His cousin, Nursyah and I can't remember the other person name was. I was even eating alone at one point of time because he had to take picture again. And then I was chucked again when he was entertaining his colleagues while I stand in the corner and he continued talking to his friends, ignoring me until one of his friends, OFFERED me a seat to sit down. It wasn't even him who offered me to sit down. I even stayed at his brother's event long enough, but countless times he asked me what time I want to go home as if he don't want my presence there.

Did you see me doing that to him during my sister's wedding? No I did not! I accompanied him throughout while he ate, I even eat together with him because I don't want him to feel awkward/left out. I brought him around, introduce him to my close relatives/cousins and some even of my relatives step forward asking me to introduce him to them. Yes, we took one family shot without him since it's understood that we are not married yet BUT...Mama invited him to take picture with us during the second shot. MY MOM ASKED FOR HIM! She never make him stand like a pole at the corner. And that was the ONLY family picture we have of us. And guess what? He decided to leave half-way and not attend the next day event even when I asked him to.

I have never been invited for any family occasion ever since despite knowing of my existence yet my family continuously have him over like a family. GOD. Tell me, how can I not be this hurt? 😢 😢  That's when I promised myself........

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And then, I realized one thing about me, I reflect very much like 'Jawi' in the drama. Even Rumi in the drama said,
 
Rumi: Siapa kahwin dengan perempuan macam Jawi ni, dah lah kasar, garang, macam dia semua aje yang betul. Kalau kahwin dengan perempuan macam ni, bukan isteri yang dengar cakap suami, nanti suami yang kene dengar cakap isteri. Eh, boleh kene penyakit, sakit jantung dengan stroke.

Hahaha!

How much I dislike her in the drama is as the same as not liking myself, no? I am stubborn to a point when I made up my mind about something, a no means a no. So, when D tried to talk to me nicely into going, I get annoyed, like a child, I'll started throwing tantrums because things doesn't go my way and I always want to win. At times, I can be very selfish thinking about myself but not the people around me, what happens if I do this or that. I can just picture Mama telling me off for behaving such a way.

I am not proud of saying all these about myself and for being like this at times, but this who I am. And I am slowly trying to change, although a couple of times I failed. The only person who I thought who knew how to deal with me is my mom. But I was not quite right...

I've always thought D will reprehend me for saying such things but he has never. In fact, he will always continue talking nicely to me, asking me to calm down and to think it through. He even said he won't force me into going and let me make my own decision, whatever that I'm comfortable with. And with that, it always manage to soften my heart. I remember years ago when I wanted to quit polytechnic because I was so stress with the life there. Ayah was literally scolding me upside down and the more I was determined to quit school but Mama was giving me the "permission" to quit. It was just a reverse psychology that she used on me, to "win" me. I felt so sorry for Mama and guess what? It worked! I didn't quit school after that and I even graduated. Lol!



My dearest fiancé,

I know you won't be reading this, but just that I expressed better when I'm writing. All I want to say is thank you. Thank you for always being patient with me and having patience for me, no matter how difficult or how "unreasonable" I can be. Thank you for always tolerating my worse moments, my little kid-self, when I start throwing my tantrums around or when I decided to stomp my feet away. Thank you for always mellowing me down, calming me down when I'm being angry, stubborn and hot-headed. Thank you for always talking to me nicely even though I will answer you back at every little thing you said. I know those 'upset' moments I mentioned was years ago and you are never like that now, not even close to that now. Thus the reason why you always keep telling me to learn from the past and continue moving forward, which I will try as much as to from now onwards. I fail to realised sometimes how bless I am to have you by my side. Thank you for always fighting for us. And I hope you don't kene stroke all lah when you marry me.  Please continue having patience for me okay. I too, will change. Insyaallah. Amin!

A: I'm only capable of love, other than that I am nothing.
D: But u're my everything.
A: I just want to apologize. I didn't mean to behave that way. But ever since my mom is no longer around. I feel like no one loves me, no is going to protect me when I get hurt. I tend to feel guarded about my feelings all the time.
D: I am going to protect u, from here on out.

Time checked: 0142 hours.

Syukur Alhamdulilah. Thank you Allah SWT for a love like this.
Ya Allah, please keep him happy and bless him with abundance of Your blessing in every thing he does. Ya Allah, keep him close to You in every step that he takes and keep him safe under Your care, Ya Allah. Lift his burden away if he has any and when he feel upset, calm his heart and ease his journey, Ya Allah. Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin.

XOXO,

Princess Azie Anni ♥

Post-audit

Dear Diary,
A week ago was the internal audit. We were divided into separate sections of the laboratory to be tested on. And you have to be "specialized" or "familiarized" more on the checklist questions that is given to you. There is the usual Molecular Diagnostic, Microbiology, Urine & the General section checklist. For the longest time, I have always been given the Microbiology checklist while my colleagues took the rest accordingly. And I'm actually quite please with mine. 😌 For 6 years doing the same thing, I'm already familiarized with my checklist more or less. Internal audit was a breeze, not that stressful compared to external audit. Hurhur!

But what I always look forward to after the audit is FOOD. We will have a small company's celebration among us and have buffet for dinner. Fooooood. Yasss! So this time instead of our usual Carousel, Royal on Scotts buffet which we will have another round of buffet during the upcoming Christmas dinner, we decided to have Straits Kitchen, Hyatt instead. So at least we don't get too sick of the food. Hehe!

 

The usual. I have hidden talent when it comes to food/eating. HAHAHAHA! And I'll usually unleash my potential that is hidden in me when it comes to buffet. Look at my spread. Tadaaaaaa~

This is from the Chinese section. The carrot cake is to die for and so is the fried rice, sedapppp!

I have been craving for Chicken rice for the longest time and D was supposed to bring me out eat Chicken rice near his place but well, I finally brave my crave (Wow. It rhymes) here. Alhamdulilah!

And I was also craving for Briyani and Prata. D too, was supposed to bring me out to eat Briyani at Tekka sehhhh but until today also no Briyani. But thank God for this, I brave my second crave here. Alhamdulilah!

Satay - Mutton & Chicken. And yes, I love baked potatoes like especially with the skin. Niceeee!

Glass noodle. It was supposed to be soft but apparently, this doesn't taste quite nice because the noodle was hard. I am never a fan of cheese (except cream cheese) but I took cotton cheese thinking of wanting to give it a try since my colleagues most of them love cheese but nope, nope, nope, nothing is going to change the fact that I will still not like cheese. Ewww! But but but...I took their sweet potato and Yam tempura. BOTH, to die forrrrrrrrrrrr.

Finally my favourite part, for someone who has such a sweet tooth is dessert. That's Horlicks & Durian flavoured ice-cream. Niceee! Ondeh-ondeh in yellow and according to my boss it's called the 'poppers' since the Gula Melaka pops in your mouth. I kinda put the whole ball inside my mouth and caused myself to be choked & coughing away when the sugar "explode" inside my mouth that it went right into my throat. 😔 Not forgetting, the pandan cake and mango pudding. Yumssss!

What differ Straits from Carousel is that, Straits cater more on Asian food while Carousel has VARIETIES. I am not going to even mention how much I love Carousel. But anyway, yes people. I ate all of this. But this is lesser than my usual consumption of food for buffet (usually I can eat more than this) because currently, I am on a diet. Thus, my stomach is already kind of used to little consumption of food for now. Besides our dinner was supposed to be on Friday and for the record I was going to "train" my stomach from Monday onwards by increasing my food intake slowly till Friday. But no, it was a last minute change to our dinner that we had it on Tuesday instead. So I didn't had enough time to "train". But despite all that, a pat on my back. I did my best! Good job Princess! Hehehe!

And look at this, they even have coffee machine and teas too! Which I didn't notice it before or maybe they only have it now. Since Eileen & I were too full from our food, we decided to have Chamomile tea to hopefully "soothe" our stomach and help us sleep easily when we got home. But nah, I was still that full when I reach home that I end up being awake till the wee morning hours before I finally fall asleep. Hurhur!

Till here. Update soon.

XOXO,

Princess Azie Anni ♥

Halloween Horror Nights 6 (HHN)

Dear Diary,

I have so many things update from my post-audit to the recent Halloween Horror Nights I went with the fiancé and girlfriends + friends. Since Halloween is only yesterday and is still fresh in my memory, that will be the first to be updated in my entry today.

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I was working yesterday and I never really like it not vacuuming and mopping the house on the weekends. I find by the time when weekends come, the house is as dusty and sticky as it is. So yesterday, I ended work by 2pm. We could have ended earlier but sadly, the amount of specimens was craaaaazy and I am the one schedule to work the next day which is today. Tsk! Why patients choose to be sick this week?

So my girlfriends (Pag couldn't make it) decided to meet at 5.30pm at Vivocity to have dinner first before heading for Halloween. I told D, I cannot be late to meet my friends since I have a "reputation" to keep. "Reputation" as in I am always early when meeting my friends and have always been the first to reach each time. But despite telling him all that, we were still late by half an hour. Hahahaha! But it is okay because Amanda is always late anyway, so we will end up waiting for her too. Hehe!

So when both D and I reached Vivocity, Hana have already finished her dinner with her 2 other Uni mates, Trish & Mel (who is also coming for Halloween). And Manda & boyfriend, WM had food coma from their lunch. Thus, it was only left with D and I to grab our dinner.

I could actually skipped dinner because I was feeling still quite full from my lunch. I had Nasi Lemak for lunch at work (bought my dispatch) and my manager gave her chicken away to me because she couldn't finish it. And I had a leftover boil egg from the day before. Thus, I end up eating 3 chickens + 2 eggs. Eyes became bigger than stomach already. And I kinda drank two coffees? before leaving house just so that I could hike up my energy level for Halloween since I know we are going to do a lot of walking & running and end pretty late as well. Honestly, as I age, I find myself getting so tired easily. I know consuming caffeine is not good but coffee does helps in kicking start the energy level in me. Muahaha!

But well, I still bought my favourite Chicken Ramen Noodles from the Korean stall at Kopitiam just to accompany D ate and I was also afraid that I might feel hungry later on. So yeah! And oh! D had his usual, rice. Looks like Nasi Lemak I think. I can't remember.

After dinner, I told D I wanted the Godiva ice-cream for dessert. JM have always talked about how nice that ice-cream is and I have always wanted to try it. BUT...that ice-cream cost me a freaking dress. 9 bucks for an ice-cream?! Crazy! Knowing that my fiancé like to pamper me (Okay maybe I THINK he likes to pamper me. Hehehe! Or maybe I just made that up? Hahaha!) He treated me to one. Dark Chocolate flavoured. Oh before I even get to buy that ice-cream, I had to go through an inquest from the fiancé asking me if the ice-cream was Halal or not. I mean like how can I forgot that part of him who have always been this particular. I just kept silent while he tried to google his way and found one link that says it was Halal (no idea where he got it from) but Godiva doesn't have a Halal cert. 😜😆 But it's just ice-cream !!! So I got the ice-cream! Yay! Hehehehe! And it was super duperly chocolaty nice when towards the end, it makes me feel super jelak. Probably because I had such a soupy dinner and was feeling quite bloated already. So I gave 3/4 of the ice-cream to D for him to eat a bit and hoping to get the last bit of the ice-cream cone (which is my favourite part) but NOPE! My fiancé ate them all.  And then he purposely went "Kkk...I buy you another one later." So I gave him a fast rebut "No. No more already." 🙄🙄🙄

No idea why this picture is this way.

 Halloween Horror Nights (HHN)

We decided to walk to RWS via the boardwalk just to save our 4 bucks. Well 4 bucks plus a dollar could buy me a bowl of Chicken Ramen Noodle okay. 10 minutes walk and we finally reached RWS. By then, there were so many people there and we couldn't figure the queue to enter USS for the Halloween Horror nights, when Manda finally figured the queue entrance. We waited for about 5 minutes and by 7.30pm, the gate was opened for us to enter USS.

They had an 'Opening ceremony' or rather a show before officially allowing us to start exploring the haunted houses. More of like you know clubbing kind of music and some Halloween props performances. So my girlfriends started dancing away and so did I. When D pinched me hard on the arm. SO PAINFUL!! And he went "Wah! Clubbing pe ni?! Suka eh?!" So I stopped lorr. Later he discover more of me-self how I am when I'm with my friends. Tsk! This is even scary than Halloween. Hahaha! So from this, I probably can assume D will never enter a club or even go for clubbing for the record.

• He cannot stand loud music
• He is always tired to stay up in the wee hours for clubbing
• He don't drink, well never did I
• He cannot stand squeezy & hot places
• He cannot dance. Well, I don't know if he can, maybe he just don't dance. Lol!

10 minutes later, everybody started moving forward. I guess that marked the end of the opening ceremony and the start of our haunted houses adventures. The more experience and enthusiastic ones started running, while the more chinchai and probably first-timer ones to HHN walked slowly.

Now here is the trick or tips to conquer all the haunted house yet not buying an expensive express pass ticket but just a one entry normal pass ticket.
 
1) Choose to go on a later date towards the end of HHN event, by then there will be lesser people going for HHN because kanchiong & kiasu people will definitely want to be the first to go to HHN.
2) Choose a day whereby they end much later than usual. Usually on days like Saturday they end one hour or half an hour later compared to other days.
3) Please be early to maximize the whole 6 hours there. You honestly, need those 6 hours to finish all the haunted houses and if you're lucky you'll get to take 1 or 2 of the USS rides.
4) Well it's not a must to run but in order to conquer all/most of the haunted houses you HAVE to run to your first haunted house. This is to get the best queue and be as in front as possible to enter the first haunted house. Once you're done with the first haunted house (should only take 30 minutes of waiting time at MOST, if you run). Be prepared, because the next few houses will take 90 minutes to 110 minutes worth of queuing time.
5) Run to the furthest haunted house from the entrance. Because usually people will enter the nearest haunted house as their first haunted house, this also means you have to wait very very long.
6) If you don't get to buy a cheaper tickets towards nearing the HHN, don't worry. There is always Carousel for you to recce for cheaper tickets at least. Hehehehe!

If you have better other tactics than this, why not share right?

So altogether, there were 5 haunted houses there, 2 scare zones and there were some attraction rides that were opened yesterday. So, Amanda lay out her strategy on how to conquer 👆🏼 the haunted house which was deem awesome and we followed suit. So we all ran all the way to the end of USS to catch the furthest haunted house first.

Bodies of Work (Haunted House) - Join artist Damien on his trip down memory lane as he unveils his latest exhibition, and appreciate all the blood, swear and tears it took to create his own and most complete bodies of work.

I was feeling a little bit nervous to enter the first haunted house. It took us about 30 minutes to enter this haunted house. I am not scared when I see those "ghost". Like I mentioned before, I know they are real humans behind those masks and make-up, just that I don't fancy when they suddenly appear out of nowhere and do the scaring bit. I just don't favour much that part. Other than that, I quite enjoy this first haunted house. It was one of the best that I enjoyed. Gives me the scare that I decided to close my eyes and hold onto D while inside. HAHAHA! Waste money, what I see like that? And I know the brochure doesn't say much but the part I remember most about this haunted house. Alert! Spoiler alert! There were clowns (beware those who are afraid of clowns) and the carousel thingy which made us go round and round inside the haunted house. It was truly truly awesome!!!

Suicide Forest (Scare Zones) - Some say an evil spirit lurks in the Suicide Forest, calling desolate souls to their death ... but no one knows for sure. That's because no one has returned to tell the tale.

I think we wasted 45 minutes of our time at this scare zones which doesn't have anything much. It was literally like an "abandon" trail of forest, nothing of any scary part happenings. We were just going in circles. Zzz! But it was an experience though, like literally walking into a deserted forest, but still the fact that we did waste our time here. I could literally walk elsewhere.

Old Changi Hospital  (Haunted House) - Patients who don't know they are dead. Soldiers who still scour the wards for enemies. Empty morgues that are not really empty. They all await you at the iconic Old Changi Hospital.

 

It took us 90 minutes waiting time to enter this haunted house. Of all haunted house, I was looking forward to this more than anything else. I have always wanted to have a feel of being in a hospital that has been deserted or have the spook. The pre-entrance to this place was like a 'dark deserted building' which represented the old hospital and it look super super spooky that Mel got so scared and she didn't want to enter at all. And upon seeing some of the Halloween scares outside the building among the trees, Trish then U-turn out of the queue and left. But I was kind of disappointed with this one. It was supposed to make me feel scared but it didn't really have much scare to it. Can't beat the first haunted house we went. But I remember holding on to Hana's hand on my left and D's hand on the right. LOL! So I felt super safe. Alert! Spoiler alert! Maybe one thing, I SLIGHTLY like was the 'mortuary' part because we were feeling superly duperly hot and that place was air-conditioned!! So cooling but not that cooling when the mortuary opened and someone just came out to scare us. HAHAHA! And at the end of the trail, just before we left. There were soldiers who was supposed to look scary like they were from the dead. BUT!!!! That guy who dressed up as the dead soldier holding on to a shovel was good-looking can?! (No idea if he will be working for every Halloween nights) HAHAHAHAHA! I forgot D was with me, the moment I saw the 'dead soldier', I turned to Hana and Amanda with excitement and went "Eh look! Look! That soldier good looking siaaaaaa!" And Hana and Amanda give a double take on him and Amanda being Amanda went "Wahhh! Eh my friend said you good looking ehhh." HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Haizz! Recalling how our poly days felt like when we behave like this. I have no idea what was the 'dead soldier' response to Amanda, I couldn't even ask her because D was already staring back at me after that. HAHAHA! But I know my fiancé would not waste time feeling upset or affected with such thingy. He is good like that, never the excessive overly jealous kind. And the rest tried to "calm" the situation telling D "Okay, okay, after this you go look for pretty ghost." And he was like "Yah!" Hahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahaha! 😂

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I was feeling thirsty at this point of time and so D bought me a mineral water which cost him $6.90. Omigod! Such a rip off! The same bottle sold at 7-11 cost only $4.90. Haiz! 😔 The person even asked us, if we wanted to buy a $20 mineral water with unlimited refill. Like whatttt. But we decided not to, as I know there were water coolers around. Moral of the story is to bring your own water bottle next time!

Hu Li's Inn  (Haunted House) - Step inside Hu Li's Inn, set in the swinging 1930s of Old Shanghai. Your fate is in the hands - or should we say, claws? - of these beautiful nocturnal beasts.

 

This haunted house took a toll on us. We queued for 2 freaking hours for this since 10.30pm. Since, Mel and Trish did not go for the Old Changi Hospital haunted house, so they went over to queue first for this and by the time we're done with the Old Changi Hospital haunted house, we met Trish and Mel in the line. And we were able to "jumped" over 1,000 over people in the queue. (I don't know if 1,000 is over exaggerating but it felt like 1,000 people.) And of course, some of them were not happy at us for "jumping the queue" and went "Eh!!! Queue starts from behind! Oi! Queue behind lah! Oi oi oi! Queue behind lah!!!" You stupid or what?! It's not like as if we all go inside the haunted house ONE by ONE. It's with groups and per batches what. So, adding 6 of us in the line won't make any difference, you are still going to get inside the haunted house the same time that you're supposed to enter and together with your friends. Gundu! Ignore the jeering, we just stayed in our line. Despite Trish & Mel queuing up first, it still took us 2 freaking hours man! While in line, Manda was initially a bit upset that WM didn't want to join this haunted house since he left the queue to head to the toilet and didn't want to join back. And D was already feeling super tired too. I could see it in his face and I really felt really sorry for him. He wanted to not continue queuing up as well but to me it would be such a waste to pay 50 bucks and not going for the haunted house. It's as good as throwing the 50 bucks down the drain. Plus, he paid for me as well. If I leave the queue with him, because of him, it's as good as throwing the 100 bucks away. People work so hard to earn $100 sehhhh. I was also feeling quite tired and cranky as well BUT I was driven to really conquer the haunted houses.

This place is 2nd best after Bodies of Work. I love how they make the room pitch dark one moment and let us walk blindly. HAHAHAHA! We were literally holding on to each other to walk. Oh! The adrenaline rush. And lots and lots of mirrors that add on to the scariness feeling. Alert! Spoiler alert! I too like the shaking bridge they have inside this haunted house. The bridge literally shake and you get to feel like scary earthquake kind. I likeeeee!

Salem Witch House (Haunted House) - Maison Deux-Six, the witch house of the Defeo Witches in Salem, has stood untouched and abandoned since 1692. But a group of modern-day witchcraft enthusiasts have awakened something within...

By the time we queue for this house, there weren't many people anymore. So it took us about 45 minutes to finish queuing up for this. D's back was already hurting so bad, so while in line, I tried to massage his back hoping to make it better. Haiz! I really feel sorry for him again BUT...I just wanted to conquer the haunted house. This haunted house is maybe my 3rd liking to the rest of haunted houses. Alert! Spoiler alert! This part too have some of the room going pitch dark and you have to walk in the dark. Hahahaha! And I love Vampire and Witches kind. Probably only once, I felt slightly disturbed when one of this witch who was sitting down carrying a baby and jumped out from her seat and make that 'pontianak' laughter. Errrr. So I just hugged D all the way while inside the haunted house. I love how on point their make-up was and they look so pretty! Especially one of this witch, she was hanging on astick just before we exited. After we left, Hana, Manda, Trish & Mel was asking D, "So how? Got pretty ghost or not?! Pretty right?" And D went "Yahhh! Pretty." 🙄🙄🙄 Suka hati kau lah nak.

By the time when we finished conquering all 4/5 haunted houses, it was already 1am. 30 minutes before the whole place close. I knew D wanted to make a move first if he could but I was hoping that we do not. So he did sacrifice and accommodate so much for me and stayed with my friends. 😢 *So touched* We didn't really care much about the last haunted house - Hawker Centre Massacre because we already plan to strike it off the list thinking we won't have enough time and it won't be as nice compared to the rest of the haunted houses.

Transformers The Ride (Attraction Ride)

Instead of conquering the last house, we took about 30 minutes to queue up for Transformer ride. It was good as usual but I don't know why I felt slightly frightened riding Transformers and was screaming at the top of my voice. Hahaha! Maybe I was overwhelm with scariness. And I anticipate the scary last drop, the part that was supposed to make me feel more scared but suddenly I felt too tired and I kinda "knockout" during the ride and stopped screaming. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA! So I felt nothing after that. HAHAHAHAHAHA! Kental sehhhh.

By the time, it was already 1.30am and guess what? Both D and I have to work the next day. Yes, ona  Sunday.  As we made our way back to the exit of USS, we saw the last haunted house - Hawker Centre Massacre was about to close and the USS crew was announcing to us to make a quick run to enter before they finally close the gate to that haunted house. Amanda, WM and I kind of hesitated to go. I really wanted to! But I'm afraid I'll make D more upset and cranky if I were to go. But trust me, I would have run and go for it if D wasn't around. Hehehehe! But it was okayyyyy, I guess not my rezeki lorrr. Anyway, my HHN was paid for. So I should be at least thankful than feel nothing right?

While the rest stroll and took their time to head for Starbucks, RWS to buy some drinks, D and I made our way back to Vivocity first. Even the girls saw how tired D was. Upon reaching Vivocity, the queue for Taxi was crazy there. It was then, after all the fun was gone, I finally felt pain. I finally felt super lethargic to walk. My feet was hurting, my butt was extremely cramp, my body was screaming in pain and I was feeling quite cranky. Despite D being the most tired one, he still asked me out of concern if I was feeling okay and then we walked slowly to Harbourfront where the taxi queue was not so crazy. But in the end, we called for a cab instead and D sent me home safely, paying for the cab fare too like always.

Sometimes I want to be angry or upset with him like wanting to leave the HHN earlier and be a spoil sport but sometimes the things he does and sacrifice for me like making sure I'm home safe, treating me often and even though he was tired, he still will really really TRY so much for me. The things he will do to make me happy (even though I have to tell him what to do since he is not very auto and oblivious to many things) just to please me, always surpasses my anger and dismay I have for him. At the end of the day, I know I can always count on him somehow minus some days when he can really annoy me.

Anyway, sidetrack what happened in the cab:-

Taxi uncle: Ada apa eh sini? Ada show eh? Ramai betul orang.
Me: Oh tak lah. Ada Halloween night dekat Universal Studio cik.
Taxi Uncle: Oh! Padanlah cik tgk ramai betul orang kat Sentosa dengan Harbourfront dah berapa hari ni. Sampai bila eh benda ni?
Me: Sampai end month cik.
*Started calling his other taxi friends..
Taxi Uncle: Ehh, korang turun ni World Trade Centre. Ramai orang kat sini. Ni aku baru angkat orang kat sini. Diorang ada Heroin night ah kat sini. Heroin, Heroin night yang hantu-hantu tu.

Alamak. We ain't one drug dealer uncle. 😐😐

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I went to HHN 3 years back and it was quite boring, mostly were just walking trails and people scaring you that way. But as they progress after years now, they added more props and more interesting things now. And I don't mind going for HHN again next year. But this time probably we find or buy tickets that allow us to go for few days AT LEAST, so that we don't have to rush like crazy in a day to finish everything. It may be slightly expensive but probably worth it I guess. And I don't mind bringing D along again the next time, provided he wants to come and not being cranky and all. Also, provided his parents allow him to, because it's haram. I don't know why but having him around make me feel safe and less "scared." I don't know what that boy have in him but Allah SWT sure created him to make me feel at ease as stated in the Qur'an,

Alhamdulilah.

What we missed:-

Hawker centre Massacre (Haunted House) - A wholesome meal at the hawker centre turns into a banquet of horrors.. as food poisoning victims turn into savage, flesh-eating creatures as radioactive fish contaminate their bodies and mind.

March Of The Dead (Scare Zones) - Bask in the spine chilling festivities of the Day of the Dead (Dia De Los Muertos), and be swept up by a carnival procession of spirits in the Death March!

Jack's Recurring Nightmare Circus (Show) - Jack is back! Along with his loyal gang of deranged disciples, he;s on the hunt for his next batch of killer acts.

March of the Dead (Show) - Revel in the hypnotic Sounds of the drums, the beauty of the intricate coffins and the haunting spectacle of it all...

Attraction Rides available are basically,
1) Enchanted Airways
2) Scared Shreckless
3) Puss In Boots
4) Canopy Flyer
5) Revenge of the Mummy
6) Battlestar Galactica: Human (Red Track)
7) Battlestar Galactica: Cylon (Blue Track)
8) Accelerator
9) Transformers The Ride: The Ultimate 3D Battle

Till here I guess my butt is definitely is as tone without squats. 7 hours of walking, standing & running. Awesome. HAHAHA!

XOXO,

Princess Azie Anni ♥ 

Pre-audit

Dear Diary,

My boss flew to Singapore today for our internal audit this week. And as usual, he will buy tidbits or chocolates most of the time all the way from Switzerland for us. My boss is such a generous man. Look, the amount of chocolates he bought. Hehehe!

Cadbury chocolates of different flavours. Milk flavour, Caramel, Wholenut and Fruits & Nuts. 

The popular ones is definitely the Wholenut. Everyone in the lab lovesss them, EXCEPT for me. I am never a fan of nuts, any kind of nuts. Especially if the nuts is big. I just cannot handle nuts. Maybe because I'm nutty enough for everybody. (Okay just kidding.) Hehe! If the nuts are small, I can slightly handle it but not too much. For example, Ferrero rocher. I can eat the chocolate coating outside with the little nuts but the wholenut inside the Ferrero rocher always got thrown into the bin. Muahaha!! I don't know how people can ever love nuts? Eww!

So the good thing about not liking nuts, I don't have to "fight" with anyone else at work to eat the chocolates or fearing it disappear even without me having to eat them yet. While the rest, always have to take a handful of chocolates and hide them in their locker or secret foody hiding place. Hahahahaha! I'm not a fan of Caramel but a fan of raisin. Sooooo, Milk Chocolate and Fruits & Nuts (it has smaller nuts) are mine, mine, mine to have.

🍀 🍀 🍀

The latest update. My company's audit dinner will be moved to Tuesday from Friday instead. Reason being, many of us cannot make or have something on Friday. The rest of the days, many of us have been chope for something else. So we are only left with Tuesday for dinner. 

I thought I could prepare myself to shed some kilos before putting on some weight but I guess not possible for now. Hurhur! I can't go running tonight as I have my Qur'an class.

This ALSO means, I have to finish my auditing stuff by hook or by crook today! Tsk! The initial plan was that the audit was going to be stretched for 3 days till Thursday, but I guess not now. Everything will be cramped all for one tomorrow. Hurhurhurhur! *Please knock me in the head now*

And my boss have been teasing me ahout going first. =(( Nawwww. Till here.

XOXO,
Princess Azie Anni

Feeya's Baby Shower

Dear Diary,

I guess I can no longer hide anymore because sadly, D has found the link to blog.  So this clearly answers my doubt which I have been having for months thinking 'Does he know or does he not know if I have a blog...' I guess my blog name was a giveaway as well. All he had to do was to type 'Princess Azie' on google and there you go..FOUND me. I really want to think of that I'm "popular" in a sense that I could be found online but on second thoughts, all I wanted to do was just to blog quietly + secretly and not to be known or found by people, unless if they stumbled upon my blog, then of course they are welcome to read but that does not include my fiancé.  And his reasoning wasn't that reasonable to me somehow, "I wanted to know you more, the person you are, the person that I'm going to get married to." Like seriously?!  To that extend?  But after much thoughts, I hate to admit this but he did make some sense. I did mention that there should be no more secrets between us now that we're in this level of getting married, and so, he gave his social media passwords to me. I used to think that he has many secrets to hide from me but the truth is, I am the one with many secrets. =X Anyway, I did try to distract him with my many powerful "U...u...u...u...u...u...u" from reading my blog, but I guess it's not that effective. So for now, I'm just going to blog and pretend like as if D is not reading any of my thoughts.

  

Today was Feeya's baby shower.

And I really must thank D for taking time off from work (He was on afternoon shift today) to enter work at a later timing, so that he could accompany me. It was really sweet of him when he did this for me. I felt so touched God knows. And I too, must thank my sister for not making me feel left out and accompanying me to eat together while we were there. Bless. Because I have this tendency to always feel left-out whenever I am in a place where I'm not that comfortable in or feel like I'm being ignored. =X Just me and my sensitive-self.

Here is to food,

 

Nothing much for today besides we all just sat down together talking and spending some time with each other. The atmosphere was rather relax and I enjoy it very much. Anyway, Ressal's auntie met me after quite some time and she went "Azie! Dah kurus sekarang. Jangan lah kurus-kurus sangat. Nanti tak lawa tau." Honestly, I still think I need to lose weight and I don't think I lost weight either. Yes, I have been dieting for at least 2 weeks now but I don't think 2 weeks could shown any results ever in losing weight. But the thoughts of going dieting for 6 months before my big day is almost killing me. You know I love food right?

My food. Hehehe!

 

And of course, what is food without desserts.

We sat for almost an hour plus, while meddling our own business and talking among ourselves. Most of the time, I was trying to snapchat away and taking pictures. And Ayah was talking to D about random stuff. That boy, literally need to do some adjusting to my family. Every little thing seems so funny to him.  

 

After which, we made our way back home. Okay, not literally home since D had to head for work and so I was being such a Korean sweet boyfriend girlfriend would do, I accompanied and sent D to work. It wasn't much but I have always truly enjoy every minute spend with him, although literally he could drive me insane and crazy with his annoying-self. Sometimes, I wonder what has life gotten me into marrying this boy. HAHAHA! But I'm not saying anything about regret. Just probably, "looking forward" to all the upcoming "surprises" in my life. Oh well, Muahahaha!

 

After D headed off to change and for work, I made my way to Vivocity to walk around. I would say, I kinda enjoy it, walking alone, having my own me-time. And to make me feel not so much alone, I decided to grab something. I couldn't decide if I should have Double Chocolate Ice Blended from Coffee Bean or Chocolate Ice-cream from Godiva. Both were making me drool, both was what I wanted and both places were just next to each other! Since I had so many things in hand, I know Ice-cream wasn't a good idea, in case I might drop the ice-cream. Thus, I decided to go for Double Chocolate Ice blended instead. Hooray!

 

It tasted sooooooo good, so heavenly! I bought the small size thinking I would not be able to finish it but end up regretting buying a small one, should have gotten Regular one at least. Hurhur! So anyway, resume walking around as I wanted to get my nephew, Ra'if some clothes. Goodness gracious! Vivocity was the answer. They had a long stretch of kids' clothing stores. There were Muji, Cotton On Kids, Fox kids to name a few. And I literally went into the shop one by one to recce and buy clothes. From wanting to get Ra'if some clothes, it turn out to be more clothes instead. Swipe swipe swipe that credit card happily. HAHAHAHA! But of course, I know my limits. I just don't spend unnecessarily okay. -_-' Just that I haven't been spending much for Ra'if for the past 5 months since he was born.

Felt tired after all those walking and so I headed home after that. Reached home and I felt super super hungry! Reality strike me that tomorrow is Monday, which means I'm back to work and it also means my diet shall resume. I was trying hard to force myself not to consume any food anymore but I couldn't. I succumb into the pack food that Ayah brought home from Feeya's baby shower and I ate like a greedy little girl in the kitchen. =X The chicken, the beef, the rice, the dalca. Oh dear! Felt terrible after that. =X

  

I guess this week shall be a good week for food, since it is auditing week this week. And once audit end this week on Friday, we always end it with a company's dinner buffet at a restaurant for a small celebration. Can't wait to eat, eat and eat. This time, it will be at Straits Kitchen, Hyatt. And I realised there are still many things that I haven't settle much at work for the audit. Tomorrow will be a super busy day for me, before audit starts on Tuesday. I wish I could stay back after work tomorrow to settle work issues but I have been skipping my Qur'an classes for two weeks alreadt. Ain't skipping another week for audit stuff. Haiz! I have been slacking and procrastinating my stuff at work. And now I realised, I have only TOMORROW to settle everything. Tskkkk!!

Till here. Stress mode on.

XOXO,

Princess Azie Anni ♥