Dear Diary,
So here I am in the office, waiting alone.
I don't wish to go back home, despite the thoughts of laundry is at the back of my mind.
Ever since Mama is no longer around, everything feels different at home. I don't know if this is even right for me to pen down my thoughts about home and letting the whole world know. I just hope the whole world doesn't know my blog because this is the only way for me to feel better at least, besides crying and pouring my whole heart out during prayers.
I am afraid to be telling people stuff too. I do not want other people to judge, neither do I want to trouble people into hearing my problems. Either way, I think I've come to a point whereby I have told D enough stuff. So I decide to bottle everything inside of me and maybe writing down here in this little tiny space of mine. Can't even believe I'm crying away as I'm typing this...
Honestly, I feel like no one ever appreciate my presence at home. Nobody treats me like how I'm supposed to be treated. Maybe I'm expecting too much? But what is too much if all I'm asking is for people to be understanding to my situation. Stop asking me for money, not when I am in need for now. I don't ask anyone for money. Stop bullying me around the house. I don't bully people around the house, in fact I do the household chores for everyone. Stop disparaging me as if I have the slightest feelings on earth. Stop slandering me when I'm trying to make a point, like as if my thoughts and feelings meant nothing.
As far as I'm big enough almost hitting my big 30's in a few years time, even when I'm going to get married, I still miss being pampered or love like how those times with Mama felt. Well, at least someone in the family, someone whom I could always feel safe with or share anything without slandering me. But ever since Mama is no longer around, nobody ever care to ask about my well-being, whether have I eaten, how was my day, if I ever come back home etc etc etc.
Don't bother about D. He rarely ask me this kinda stuff.
It always feel like I care too much and nobody ever does.
Ya Allah, do not let me go through another heartbreak of losing the people I love, like how I lose Mama. It's not that I do not redha, I redha the day You took Mama back. I know we don't have the right to choose but I always make doa that I don't have to go through another heartbreak of losing the people I love. So if the next person have to go, let it be me. Because they can live without me but I cannot live without them, and I don't think I can handle being in this kind of position anymore. Amin.
With love,
Azie.
Tuesday, November 15, 2016
Sunday, November 13, 2016
Pine Molek Luxury Apartment 2
Dear Diary,
Continuation....
11 NOVEMBER 2016
Woke up slightly later than yesterday but I did wake up first than everyone else but I went to bed again. Hehehe! It was then around11.30am when Hernie & Syafiqah woke me up to have breakfast together. This time again, I took care of Shayleen while breakfast was being prepared.
D didn't text me as often as the day before as he was back to work and no longer on course. At the same time he was on full OT shift also. That man, here I am "enjoying" and all he does is work, work, work.
Sometimes makes me feel so bad about everything. Anyway, the weather was fine on that day and so we decided to proceed the fail plan to go for swimming yesterday.
Swimming,
Shayleen was excited. That girl really loves water!!
Kilang Bateri
After Maghrib, we grabcar to Kilang Bateri. As you notice, we use a lot of Grabcar services because it's easy and cheap-cheap. Hehehe! This place is the bomb I tell you. They have all this you call hipster café and sell a lot of in-trend clothes that teenagers and adults like us like to wear. And the best thing, this is the best place to get clothes that are decent wearing at an affordable price. Unlike H&M or Cotton On places like that, they have both choices, the covered & revealing ones which always never fail to tempt me to buy the revealing ones. Lol!
So before we started shopping for clothes and other stuff, we tried this Dim Sum from Pondok Dim Sum.
This time we slept slightly later as Hernie & Syafiqah did the laundry hoping to dry them before we go home the next day. I continued watching 'Suri Hati Mr Pilot' in the living room while waiting for my food to digest. Hernie & Syafiqah then went inside their room to pack. I waited for them to finish packing that I end up falling asleep and so I went inside my room to sleep.
12 NOVEMBER 2016
We were supposed to check-out by 12pm but the owner of the apartment was nice and allow us to check-out by 1pm. Hernie placed all my washed clothes on the table for me to pack home when I wake up first thing in the morning. It was then, I realized I bought quite a bit of bulky things that I could not fit them all into my bag. I bought 2 high sandals and my coffees was also the problem. I tried to force squeeze everything in, which I managed and my bags felt super heavy and it almost torn! Tsk.
City Square Mall
Hernie then carried Shayleen with a baby carrier wrap, so that I could use Shayleen's pram to place all my bags. Less burden on my shoulder but more burden to push the pram around. Syafiqah couldn't help with the pram because she had 2 huge luggage with her. I am NEVER good with trolleys. They always seems to go another way than the way I intended to go. Since everybody else have many things at hand, I had no choice but to push the pram around. It was OKAY pushing it, not until I find the struggle to bring it up and down the escalator. GOSH! Almost killed me.
We settled for lunch at Express Thai since the one in Singapore ain't Halal.
As we were deciding what food to order, Shayleen started being cranky because she was already feeling hungry. That's when Hernie realized that she left Shayleen's bag full of her milk stuff & bottle in the Grabcar that sent us to City Square Mall. (She almost forgot her phone yesterday when we went to Kilang Bateri and LUCKY I just happened to look back at the passenger's seat which I don't usually do that and saw that she left both her phone and the apartment pass.) But this time, it really happened. But thank God, the grabcar guy was nice that he U-turn back and return the things back to us. Alhamdulilah!
So we just continued eating our food and hoping that the public won't be too crazy on us. After lunch, we dragged our feet around. I was supposed to buy D somemore shirt (He is always wearing the same few shirt over and over again) but I was short of 10RM. It felt so pathetic like how in Singapore I can just literally use card or withdraw money nearby to buy the things that I want but here, if I'm short of cash and I didn't change the money to Ringgit, means I don't have anymore money left. Hernie wanted to lend me her RM10 but I figure out, it's okay. D can live without the shirt since I already bought him something yesterday and I can get him these shirt next time.
Malaysia Custom
We made our way to Malaysia custom when we saw the ticketing area again. Hernie decided to just ask the counter again and coincidentally, 3 person happened to change their train ticket timing to a later timing and we got 3 tickets back home at 5pm by KTM. Syukur Alhamdulilah!! So so happy that pushing the pram wasn't so much of a problem for me, but still a problem. Lol! Because as I was trying to push the pram up the escalator I almost fall back down like a domino, pushing Hernie and Shayleen back. Luckily, there was this guy (I bet he is a Singaporean) whom quickly hold on to me and "saved" me mannnn. And Hernie was like "Cute sia lelaki tu datang terus save kau gitu. Ish! Melebih pula aku." HAHAHA! And he helped me with the pram all the way up the escalator since there were more than 1 escalator. Haiyazzz! Hehehe!
Another pram affair at the Malaysia Custom, when I was supposed to put the stuff into that baggage scanner.
I lift up the heavy things on the pram's seat to place it into the conveyer belt to scan but the other things that was hanging around the pram was too heavy too, that the pram overturned and fell backwards. Guess what? Those officer never even come and help me. 
They just look at me even though in my eyes I was looking so helpless for someone to help. So annoying! Hernie had to run to me and helped me instead.
Apart the Malaysia custom when I was in the train, there were really some other nice people who helped me to carry the pram in and out of the train upon seeing me struggling with the pram. May God bless people like this. See the difference in Singaporeans?
Woodlands Checkpoint
Seeing all those people in uniform, whom I used to be so scared of because I always think they are scary and of higher authority people. HAHAHA! But now I no longer am afraid of. All thanks to D. Hahahahaha! One of the ICA officer asked me as I was pushing the pram "Is there a baby inside?" Tsk. No baby apparently, all food stuff. Makes me look kuku pushing the pram around without the baby. Lol!
Hernie helped me to carry the stuff to be scanned at the baggage scanner and yay! We are back in Singaporeeeee! Feeling tired and it was raining heavily too, we grabcar all the way back home together.
All in all, I did enjoy my vacation. A good way to de-stress from the busy life of Singapore. Oh well, what to do now that I am back to reality.
But the good thing, it's Sunday today and I'll get to enjoy one last weekend before going back to work. I'll too, get to meet D in a while later. Alhamdulilah! Back in the arms of the man I love. Missing my very own Suri Hati Mr
. Okay maybe not his arms yet, we not Halal. Hehehe!
Toodles Noodles.
Continuation....
11 NOVEMBER 2016
Woke up slightly later than yesterday but I did wake up first than everyone else but I went to bed again. Hehehe! It was then around11.30am when Hernie & Syafiqah woke me up to have breakfast together. This time again, I took care of Shayleen while breakfast was being prepared.
Shayleen squeaky toy
Well of course, by the time we eat, it was already afternoon. So brunch that is.
D didn't text me as often as the day before as he was back to work and no longer on course. At the same time he was on full OT shift also. That man, here I am "enjoying" and all he does is work, work, work.
Sometimes makes me feel so bad about everything. Anyway, the weather was fine on that day and so we decided to proceed the fail plan to go for swimming yesterday. Swimming,
Shayleen was excited. That girl really loves water!!
Hernie actually forgot to bring her float from home and so she bought Shayleen this float for RM30 at Aeon Mall the night before. The scary thing, you see how unstable that float is. I mean it's not unstable, just that Shayleen loves to see what's under the pool. So, she kept looking down that way, when suddenly she overturned and went inside the water heads down. Hernie screamed at the top of her voice and Syafiqah quickly swim over but it was too slippery when Syafiqah tried to grab Shayleen by her hands, Shayleen slipped again inside the pool heads down. (I feel so scared or rather still feel that scary sensation when the whole thing happened.) I was actually doing swimming quite away from them, but I managed to faster swim towards Shayleen and just grabbed her by the feet up! I couldn't think of anything else, not to even grab her properly by hands or what. I just had to get her out of the water. She managed to breathe the water out of her mouth and nose. Everyone panicked and Hernie still feeling scared but I just had to calm everyone down and said that babies are natural swimmers, but that doesn't seem to calm Hernie down though. But guess what? Shayleen wasn't scared, she still wanted to swim after all that. LOL!
Here is one picture me trying to hold her as I was swimming in the deep pool and she wanted to be in the pool as well. But of course lah, I hold tight to her. Just sometimes, I thank God that I at least could swim, even though I can be quite useless in some other aspects sometimes. *Hugs Shayleen*
Kilang Bateri
After Maghrib, we grabcar to Kilang Bateri. As you notice, we use a lot of Grabcar services because it's easy and cheap-cheap. Hehehe! This place is the bomb I tell you. They have all this you call hipster café and sell a lot of in-trend clothes that teenagers and adults like us like to wear. And the best thing, this is the best place to get clothes that are decent wearing at an affordable price. Unlike H&M or Cotton On places like that, they have both choices, the covered & revealing ones which always never fail to tempt me to buy the revealing ones. Lol!
So before we started shopping for clothes and other stuff, we tried this Dim Sum from Pondok Dim Sum.
Salted Egg Siew Mai & Chicken Dumplings.
Bought this I-Jumbo Green Milk Tea and Caramel Vanilla Milk Tea that taste like paddle pop ice-cream from this stall. Worth my RM5!
Thanks to 'Suri Hati Mr Pilot' that I am currently watching right now, I bought Neelofa's shawl. It was super affordable. The one I bought was RM53 and had had 20% discount when I bought 2. I know I won't look like Wardah or Neelofa when I don on the shawl but neverminddddd as long as I am happy. I had to don on the tudung for my pre-marriage course anyway. Lol!
Finally! Managed to get this Polo shirt for D. Yayness!
I even bought myself 2 palazzo pants. Now I have to somehow stock up more of tutup aurat clothes since......... Although, I am still very much open to other clothes. Hehehe!
When we reached home, it was part 2 of taking care of Shayleen while Hernie & Syafiqah cooked to make dinner. Yada, dinner is served!
Angel Hair Bolognese.
This time we slept slightly later as Hernie & Syafiqah did the laundry hoping to dry them before we go home the next day. I continued watching 'Suri Hati Mr Pilot' in the living room while waiting for my food to digest. Hernie & Syafiqah then went inside their room to pack. I waited for them to finish packing that I end up falling asleep and so I went inside my room to sleep.
12 NOVEMBER 2016
We were supposed to check-out by 12pm but the owner of the apartment was nice and allow us to check-out by 1pm. Hernie placed all my washed clothes on the table for me to pack home when I wake up first thing in the morning. It was then, I realized I bought quite a bit of bulky things that I could not fit them all into my bag. I bought 2 high sandals and my coffees was also the problem. I tried to force squeeze everything in, which I managed and my bags felt super heavy and it almost torn! Tsk.
City Square Mall
Hernie then carried Shayleen with a baby carrier wrap, so that I could use Shayleen's pram to place all my bags. Less burden on my shoulder but more burden to push the pram around. Syafiqah couldn't help with the pram because she had 2 huge luggage with her. I am NEVER good with trolleys. They always seems to go another way than the way I intended to go. Since everybody else have many things at hand, I had no choice but to push the pram around. It was OKAY pushing it, not until I find the struggle to bring it up and down the escalator. GOSH! Almost killed me.
We settled for lunch at Express Thai since the one in Singapore ain't Halal.
As we were deciding what food to order, Shayleen started being cranky because she was already feeling hungry. That's when Hernie realized that she left Shayleen's bag full of her milk stuff & bottle in the Grabcar that sent us to City Square Mall. (She almost forgot her phone yesterday when we went to Kilang Bateri and LUCKY I just happened to look back at the passenger's seat which I don't usually do that and saw that she left both her phone and the apartment pass.) But this time, it really happened. But thank God, the grabcar guy was nice that he U-turn back and return the things back to us. Alhamdulilah!
Thai Sukiyaki Nam - It was spicy and okay-okay. I find the noodles a bit hard to swallow like as if I was eating jellyfish something so slippery slimmer-y. Lol! But still not bad.
I don't know what this is called but this is the nicesssst!!! It's like a French toast with prawns slices inside. Yummy yum yum!
Hernie then told Syafiqah to buy the KTM train ticket for us to head back to Singapore while waiting for the food to cool down. And guess what?! Syafiqah called back at the ticketing counter telling us that all the tickets at 4.30pm, 5pm and 7pm was SOLD OUT. We didn't know what to feel. Upset, annoyed and angry. Yes, we could have taken the bus back home but Syafiqah had like a HUGE luggage with her that it won't be possible to take the bus. And I had the pram with me too remember? Taking bus will literally kill me!!So we just continued eating our food and hoping that the public won't be too crazy on us. After lunch, we dragged our feet around. I was supposed to buy D somemore shirt (He is always wearing the same few shirt over and over again) but I was short of 10RM. It felt so pathetic like how in Singapore I can just literally use card or withdraw money nearby to buy the things that I want but here, if I'm short of cash and I didn't change the money to Ringgit, means I don't have anymore money left. Hernie wanted to lend me her RM10 but I figure out, it's okay. D can live without the shirt since I already bought him something yesterday and I can get him these shirt next time.
Malaysia Custom
We made our way to Malaysia custom when we saw the ticketing area again. Hernie decided to just ask the counter again and coincidentally, 3 person happened to change their train ticket timing to a later timing and we got 3 tickets back home at 5pm by KTM. Syukur Alhamdulilah!! So so happy that pushing the pram wasn't so much of a problem for me, but still a problem. Lol! Because as I was trying to push the pram up the escalator I almost fall back down like a domino, pushing Hernie and Shayleen back. Luckily, there was this guy (I bet he is a Singaporean) whom quickly hold on to me and "saved" me mannnn. And Hernie was like "Cute sia lelaki tu datang terus save kau gitu. Ish! Melebih pula aku." HAHAHA! And he helped me with the pram all the way up the escalator since there were more than 1 escalator. Haiyazzz! Hehehe!
Another pram affair at the Malaysia Custom, when I was supposed to put the stuff into that baggage scanner.
I lift up the heavy things on the pram's seat to place it into the conveyer belt to scan but the other things that was hanging around the pram was too heavy too, that the pram overturned and fell backwards. Guess what? Those officer never even come and help me. They just look at me even though in my eyes I was looking so helpless for someone to help. So annoying! Hernie had to run to me and helped me instead.Apart the Malaysia custom when I was in the train, there were really some other nice people who helped me to carry the pram in and out of the train upon seeing me struggling with the pram. May God bless people like this. See the difference in Singaporeans?
Woodlands Checkpoint
Seeing all those people in uniform, whom I used to be so scared of because I always think they are scary and of higher authority people. HAHAHA! But now I no longer am afraid of. All thanks to D. Hahahahaha! One of the ICA officer asked me as I was pushing the pram "Is there a baby inside?" Tsk. No baby apparently, all food stuff. Makes me look kuku pushing the pram around without the baby. Lol!
Hernie helped me to carry the stuff to be scanned at the baggage scanner and yay! We are back in Singaporeeeee! Feeling tired and it was raining heavily too, we grabcar all the way back home together.
All in all, I did enjoy my vacation. A good way to de-stress from the busy life of Singapore. Oh well, what to do now that I am back to reality.
But the good thing, it's Sunday today and I'll get to enjoy one last weekend before going back to work. I'll too, get to meet D in a while later. Alhamdulilah! Back in the arms of the man I love. Missing my very own Suri Hati Mr
. Okay maybe not his arms yet, we not Halal. Hehehe! Toodles Noodles.
XOXO,
Princess Azie Anni ♥
Saturday, November 12, 2016
Pine Molek Luxury Apartment Part 1
Dear Diary,
I am finally back just today after being away from Singapore for 3 days +. And since I have the time and did all the unpacking today too, I shall update my blog. Surprisingly, I didn't buy many things but I did finish all the cash that D gave it to me to spend it there.
Anyhoos, I am not going to overload all the entry on what happened for 3 days in JB. So, I'm going to go slow on my updates by updating my JB trip.
09 NOVEMBER 2016
I woke up at 8am and slowly stroll into the toilet to have my shower. No idea why but I had a pretty bad diarrhea before heading to JB for my staycation. Guess it doesn't seem to start on a good sign.
My bestfriend promised me that we'll leave house by 10.30am to take the KTM train all the way to JB but it got dragged on all the way to almost 1pm. I have gotten myself ready by then. But well, it's okay because I'm quite well used to having to wait for people most of the time. So yeahs.
The initial plan was that my bestfriend was going to pick me up in a taxi and we will head to Woodlands checkpoint together. We were supposed to catch the 1.30pm train when she texted me at 12.45pm saying that her husband was going to send her off to Woodlands checkpoint instead. I mean I'm okay with that but I just felt that I should have been told much earlier. I could have taken the public transport and make my way down slowly to Woodlands checkpoint righttttt? I dislike cabbing. I'm not going to deny that I felt slightly upset, slightly mad. So, I let it out to D. And of course lah. The fiancé felt the same way too. He told me not to go. Even before this, he has been wishing that I didn't go at all, but I kept insisting since I already promised my bestfriend. His mad is different when I'm mad and his mad at me is different when he is mad at others. Lol!
But well, I decided not to let this thing spoil my mood. Thus, I decided to just Grabcar to Woodlands Checkpoint instead. And when D called me telling me not to go, I was crying over the phone, telling him I've already packed my stuff and was looking forward for Swimming pool.
K.
So he comforted me and guide me on how to drop and head down to Woodlands checkpoint to the train station area. (Honestly, this is how gonggong I am whenever I'm alone or not in a familiar places. Furthermore, I have NEVER been to Woodlands checkpoint on my own, my entire life.) I love how protective that boy can be sometimes. God knows.
Met my bestfriend there and her another friend, Syafiqah. Since her husband was quite worried that it's only the two of us going plus Shayleen, her daughter. So she had to ask Syafiqah along.
KTM Train
$5 for the train from Singapore to JB. Quite pricey compared to taking bus but heck, we beat the crowd. This is so hassle-free!! We didn't even have to queue so long to get our passport chop both in Singapore & Malaysia. The destination of course doesn't take that long, prolly about 10 minutes but definitely better than having to stand in the bus and the continuous alighting & boarding of the bus. My bestfriend could even bring her luggage and daughter's pram without difficulty.
Komtar Mall
So we decided to have brunch here, since we are already starving. We couldn't decide between Swensen or Manhattan Fish Market, when I was told to choose. Eenie Meenie Minie Moe, Swensen that is. For the price of 1:3, I ate like a glutton there. Yes all this! HAHAHAHAHA!
Whenever in Singapore, I had to control myself from eating so much because of the bill. But here, all I care was to eat, eat and eat. And guess what? All this only cost me RM50. Muahahahahaha!!
After lunch, we went to do groceries at City Square for cooking purposes the next day and I bought my toiletries stuff since I did not bring them from home. And off we took a grabcar (another cheap way to save money) to our apartment - Molek Pine Luxury Apartment.
Molek Pine 2 Luxury Apartment
Now that I'm an "expert" about homes, I can describe the apartment better. This apartment consist of a living room, 1 bedroom, 1 master bedroom, 1 suggested study room, 1 common toilet and a kitchen. No bathtubs, sadly. It looks like a 4 room resale flat (because it's big), not the BTO kinds because BTO houses are small now. And this person has a lot of patung-patung bahala (forgot what it's called in English) in his house, make me skeptical about staying here just the first time I step foot into the house. But nevermind, Allah SWT is with me. Amin!
So Hernie (my bestfriend) and her close friend, Syafiqah plus Shayleen had the master bedroom. While I had the other bedroom all to myself. Hooray! But after a while, it felt kinda lonely without my other bestfriend, Hajar around to hype up the atmosphere. Tsk! But it's okay too. At least, I get to clear my mind and just chill alone. That's what I wanted to do, be away from D and the rest.
There was wi-fi too, so I managed to keep in touch with D. Texted each other after he finished his course and I realized how much I miss my fiancé. I thought I could live like this, away from him. Like how he can stay away from me but I just cannot. I miss him.
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After Maghrib, we Uber to Pasar Borong Pandan. We went to the wet market there to buy more wet ingredients like tiger prawns, the chicken & etc to cook the next day (to save). Honestly, everything there is so cheap. 1 kilo of big tiger prawns cost us RM24 and 1 whole chicken cost us only RM10.
I was mesmerized with the price. And so I asked Hernie, "Can we bring this back to Singapore?" Of course the answer was no which I didn't know despite my own fiancé who is working for the government protecting the borders of Singapore. Lolols! 
After all that, we decided to settle down for dinner. I was only dehydrated & thirsty but wasn't hungry as I was still feeling quite full from my brunch. But since everybody wanted dinner, I had mine too. I told Hernie to just order anything. Hernie & Syafiqah needed to head somewhere because the shop was closing soon. So, they told me to wait for the food to arrive, bringing Shayleen along, leaving me alone to wait for the food and again, I felt slightly lonely. But hehehe! Again, I beat this feeling off me.
And tada, Hernie ordered for me Nasi Goreng 😋 and all the rest that came after. Paid for the food and I ate first before they came because they were away for quite some time and I don't want to be sitting down doing nothing, just staring at food since my phone has no autoroom/network.
I couldn't finish my dinner. I was so full, so bloated. At the same time, too sleepy to eat. Haha! We went "shopping" for a bit and I grabbed Ra'if some shirt and a slipper for myself and we headed back home by grabcar.
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Showered and we were supposed to watch movies on DVDs since there was a number of them, hoping to movie marathon. But it was already 1.30am and I was too tired. Hernie texted me (I was in separate room) asking if I was already asleep, I didn't reply because I was already gone into the another part of the world. Hahahaha!
10 NOVEMBER 2016
I was the first to wake up, while everyone else was still asleep. I cannot bring myself to wake up till late noon even if I sleep late the night before. (Habit #1) And I have to shower, brush my teeth, cleanse, moisturize my face the first thing I'm awake. (Habit #2) No just brushing teeth and lazing around without showering like how some people can.
By then I was feeling hungry and I have to have breakfast. (Habit #3) I can skip lunch or dinner but not breakfast. I eat a tremendous amount of heavy breakfast. But there was nothing much I can do because everyone else is still asleep and I have to suck it up feeling hungry.
I tried to meddle with the DVD player hoping I could watch some movies while waiting for the rest to be awake but the DVD player cannot play those DVDs. I was doomed, till everyone else wake up. 😩😫
A while later, Hernie & Syafiqah woke up. Hernie made breakfast, scrambled eggs. And we all had breakfast. There were cereal as well but I had the scrambled eggs with 2 slices of bread. That managed to fill me up.
And then they cooked lunch, Udang (Prawns) Cili Padi. It was nice (because I tasted a bit when Hernie asked me to) but we didn't cook rice because they were no small pack rice sold nearby. In the end, Hernie & Syafiqah ate the Udang Cili Padi with bread since they were too hungry to wait till we go out to buy rice. I know I can be quite difficult sometimes. Not that I am but, I am not the asal boleh anyhow kind of person. Since I wasn't the one who cook, I also don't want to anyhow eat the food people's cook, not until I was asked to. So in the end, I didn't eat lunch. Thank God I happened to buy some cookies, so I had those cookies while I was in my room.
Initial plan was to go for swimming at 1pm but it started pouring. So we just stayed indoors while I catch up on 'Suri Hati Mr Pilot' online in the living room, since my room connection to the wifi is pretty lousy. But since Hernie & Syafiqah were inside their room, so I head into mine.
And I'm starting to miss D. A lot. My intention to go for this vacation was because I wanted to give him some me-time away from my clinginess-self. Haiyaz. But I know, I cannot behave like this. I'll be alright!
Aeon Mall, Tebrau City
After Maghrib, we Grabcar to Aeon Mall. My intention was to look and buy D some clothes before I start spending all the money gone. I mean it's only nice and polite that I buy back something for him since he gave me those money to spend there in JB, although he doesn't want anything. But to no avail. There wasn't much things to shop around there since everything looks like your next Orchard Ion Mall with expensive and branded stuff. And Hernie & Syafiqah only wanted to buy groceries, so I decided to just not go anywhere and buy "groceries" too. I bought nothing but just coffees to buy back in Singapore. Hahaha! That was because they had so many NEW different flavours can? Which Singapore doesn't have. Even Hernie & Syafiqah was shocked to see me buying back only Coffees. Lol!
Anyway, I always consume coffees during vacation. No idea what is wrong with my eyes that I always feel so sleepy and cannot stay up so late whenever I'm on vacation, when this is the time I am supposed to be most awake and supposed to savour the moment more. Lol!
After which, we grab car back to our apartment and bought Baskin Robbins!
I was told to take care of Shayleen while Hernie & Syafiqah did the cooking. Honestly, I sucks at cooking when there are people around. I have no idea why but I automatically become gonggong around people who knows best how to cook. So I decided not to meddle around in the kitchen and stay out of it. Sat in the living room, entertaining Shayleen while watching shows on TV. Oh yes, they have TV2 and TV3 here which plays good awesome show. IP-Man 2 was on!
Funny how we didn't realize we burnt the rice (no rice cooker) and we were busy doing other things while cooking the rice, until we smelt burnt. LOL! So, the bottom part of this rice couldn't make it. But oh well, it still taste nice. Super super late dinner at 12.30am. Hahahaha! This is definitely way past my dinner and my diet-ing hours of consuming food but heck! I am on a vacation. Hehehe! And I have this Habit #4 not being able to sleep right after food. I have to give myself at least 3-4 hours before I can sleep, to allow digestion to takes place or else I will wake up with acid reflux in my stomach and end up vomiting. Thus, I end up staying up so late and was able to sleep only like 3.30am in the morning.
To be continued....
I am finally back just today after being away from Singapore for 3 days +. And since I have the time and did all the unpacking today too, I shall update my blog. Surprisingly, I didn't buy many things but I did finish all the cash that D gave it to me to spend it there.
Anyhoos, I am not going to overload all the entry on what happened for 3 days in JB. So, I'm going to go slow on my updates by updating my JB trip.09 NOVEMBER 2016
I woke up at 8am and slowly stroll into the toilet to have my shower. No idea why but I had a pretty bad diarrhea before heading to JB for my staycation. Guess it doesn't seem to start on a good sign.
My bestfriend promised me that we'll leave house by 10.30am to take the KTM train all the way to JB but it got dragged on all the way to almost 1pm. I have gotten myself ready by then. But well, it's okay because I'm quite well used to having to wait for people most of the time. So yeahs.
The initial plan was that my bestfriend was going to pick me up in a taxi and we will head to Woodlands checkpoint together. We were supposed to catch the 1.30pm train when she texted me at 12.45pm saying that her husband was going to send her off to Woodlands checkpoint instead. I mean I'm okay with that but I just felt that I should have been told much earlier. I could have taken the public transport and make my way down slowly to Woodlands checkpoint righttttt? I dislike cabbing. I'm not going to deny that I felt slightly upset, slightly mad. So, I let it out to D. And of course lah. The fiancé felt the same way too. He told me not to go. Even before this, he has been wishing that I didn't go at all, but I kept insisting since I already promised my bestfriend. His mad is different when I'm mad and his mad at me is different when he is mad at others. Lol!
But well, I decided not to let this thing spoil my mood. Thus, I decided to just Grabcar to Woodlands Checkpoint instead. And when D called me telling me not to go, I was crying over the phone, telling him I've already packed my stuff and was looking forward for Swimming pool.
K. So he comforted me and guide me on how to drop and head down to Woodlands checkpoint to the train station area. (Honestly, this is how gonggong I am whenever I'm alone or not in a familiar places. Furthermore, I have NEVER been to Woodlands checkpoint on my own, my entire life.) I love how protective that boy can be sometimes. God knows.
Met my bestfriend there and her another friend, Syafiqah. Since her husband was quite worried that it's only the two of us going plus Shayleen, her daughter. So she had to ask Syafiqah along.
KTM Train
$5 for the train from Singapore to JB. Quite pricey compared to taking bus but heck, we beat the crowd. This is so hassle-free!! We didn't even have to queue so long to get our passport chop both in Singapore & Malaysia. The destination of course doesn't take that long, prolly about 10 minutes but definitely better than having to stand in the bus and the continuous alighting & boarding of the bus. My bestfriend could even bring her luggage and daughter's pram without difficulty.
Komtar Mall
So we decided to have brunch here, since we are already starving. We couldn't decide between Swensen or Manhattan Fish Market, when I was told to choose. Eenie Meenie Minie Moe, Swensen that is. For the price of 1:3, I ate like a glutton there. Yes all this! HAHAHAHAHA!
This is Hernie's
Cheesy Cookie Summit
Whenever in Singapore, I had to control myself from eating so much because of the bill. But here, all I care was to eat, eat and eat. And guess what? All this only cost me RM50. Muahahahahaha!!
After lunch, we went to do groceries at City Square for cooking purposes the next day and I bought my toiletries stuff since I did not bring them from home. And off we took a grabcar (another cheap way to save money) to our apartment - Molek Pine Luxury Apartment.
Molek Pine 2 Luxury Apartment
Now that I'm an "expert" about homes, I can describe the apartment better. This apartment consist of a living room, 1 bedroom, 1 master bedroom, 1 suggested study room, 1 common toilet and a kitchen. No bathtubs, sadly. It looks like a 4 room resale flat (because it's big), not the BTO kinds because BTO houses are small now. And this person has a lot of patung-patung bahala (forgot what it's called in English) in his house, make me skeptical about staying here just the first time I step foot into the house. But nevermind, Allah SWT is with me. Amin!
This is the Living room
The Master bed room
The Kitchen
So Hernie (my bestfriend) and her close friend, Syafiqah plus Shayleen had the master bedroom. While I had the other bedroom all to myself. Hooray! But after a while, it felt kinda lonely without my other bestfriend, Hajar around to hype up the atmosphere. Tsk! But it's okay too. At least, I get to clear my mind and just chill alone. That's what I wanted to do, be away from D and the rest.
There was wi-fi too, so I managed to keep in touch with D. Texted each other after he finished his course and I realized how much I miss my fiancé. I thought I could live like this, away from him. Like how he can stay away from me but I just cannot. I miss him.
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After Maghrib, we Uber to Pasar Borong Pandan. We went to the wet market there to buy more wet ingredients like tiger prawns, the chicken & etc to cook the next day (to save). Honestly, everything there is so cheap. 1 kilo of big tiger prawns cost us RM24 and 1 whole chicken cost us only RM10.
I was mesmerized with the price. And so I asked Hernie, "Can we bring this back to Singapore?" Of course the answer was no which I didn't know despite my own fiancé who is working for the government protecting the borders of Singapore. Lolols! After all that, we decided to settle down for dinner. I was only dehydrated & thirsty but wasn't hungry as I was still feeling quite full from my brunch. But since everybody wanted dinner, I had mine too. I told Hernie to just order anything. Hernie & Syafiqah needed to head somewhere because the shop was closing soon. So, they told me to wait for the food to arrive, bringing Shayleen along, leaving me alone to wait for the food and again, I felt slightly lonely. But hehehe! Again, I beat this feeling off me.
And tada, Hernie ordered for me Nasi Goreng 😋 and all the rest that came after. Paid for the food and I ate first before they came because they were away for quite some time and I don't want to be sitting down doing nothing, just staring at food since my phone has no autoroom/network.
Mango I can't remember the name. Lol!
I couldn't finish my dinner. I was so full, so bloated. At the same time, too sleepy to eat. Haha! We went "shopping" for a bit and I grabbed Ra'if some shirt and a slipper for myself and we headed back home by grabcar.
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Showered and we were supposed to watch movies on DVDs since there was a number of them, hoping to movie marathon. But it was already 1.30am and I was too tired. Hernie texted me (I was in separate room) asking if I was already asleep, I didn't reply because I was already gone into the another part of the world. Hahahaha!
10 NOVEMBER 2016
I was the first to wake up, while everyone else was still asleep. I cannot bring myself to wake up till late noon even if I sleep late the night before. (Habit #1) And I have to shower, brush my teeth, cleanse, moisturize my face the first thing I'm awake. (Habit #2) No just brushing teeth and lazing around without showering like how some people can.
By then I was feeling hungry and I have to have breakfast. (Habit #3) I can skip lunch or dinner but not breakfast. I eat a tremendous amount of heavy breakfast. But there was nothing much I can do because everyone else is still asleep and I have to suck it up feeling hungry.
I tried to meddle with the DVD player hoping I could watch some movies while waiting for the rest to be awake but the DVD player cannot play those DVDs. I was doomed, till everyone else wake up. 😩😫
A while later, Hernie & Syafiqah woke up. Hernie made breakfast, scrambled eggs. And we all had breakfast. There were cereal as well but I had the scrambled eggs with 2 slices of bread. That managed to fill me up.
And then they cooked lunch, Udang (Prawns) Cili Padi. It was nice (because I tasted a bit when Hernie asked me to) but we didn't cook rice because they were no small pack rice sold nearby. In the end, Hernie & Syafiqah ate the Udang Cili Padi with bread since they were too hungry to wait till we go out to buy rice. I know I can be quite difficult sometimes. Not that I am but, I am not the asal boleh anyhow kind of person. Since I wasn't the one who cook, I also don't want to anyhow eat the food people's cook, not until I was asked to. So in the end, I didn't eat lunch. Thank God I happened to buy some cookies, so I had those cookies while I was in my room.
Initial plan was to go for swimming at 1pm but it started pouring. So we just stayed indoors while I catch up on 'Suri Hati Mr Pilot' online in the living room, since my room connection to the wifi is pretty lousy. But since Hernie & Syafiqah were inside their room, so I head into mine.
And I'm starting to miss D. A lot. My intention to go for this vacation was because I wanted to give him some me-time away from my clinginess-self. Haiyaz. But I know, I cannot behave like this. I'll be alright!
Aeon Mall, Tebrau City
After Maghrib, we Grabcar to Aeon Mall. My intention was to look and buy D some clothes before I start spending all the money gone. I mean it's only nice and polite that I buy back something for him since he gave me those money to spend there in JB, although he doesn't want anything. But to no avail. There wasn't much things to shop around there since everything looks like your next Orchard Ion Mall with expensive and branded stuff. And Hernie & Syafiqah only wanted to buy groceries, so I decided to just not go anywhere and buy "groceries" too. I bought nothing but just coffees to buy back in Singapore. Hahaha! That was because they had so many NEW different flavours can? Which Singapore doesn't have. Even Hernie & Syafiqah was shocked to see me buying back only Coffees. Lol!
After which, we grab car back to our apartment and bought Baskin Robbins!
Cotton Candy and Chocolate Mousse Royale flavoured.
I was told to take care of Shayleen while Hernie & Syafiqah did the cooking. Honestly, I sucks at cooking when there are people around. I have no idea why but I automatically become gonggong around people who knows best how to cook. So I decided not to meddle around in the kitchen and stay out of it. Sat in the living room, entertaining Shayleen while watching shows on TV. Oh yes, they have TV2 and TV3 here which plays good awesome show. IP-Man 2 was on!
Funny how we didn't realize we burnt the rice (no rice cooker) and we were busy doing other things while cooking the rice, until we smelt burnt. LOL! So, the bottom part of this rice couldn't make it. But oh well, it still taste nice. Super super late dinner at 12.30am. Hahahaha! This is definitely way past my dinner and my diet-ing hours of consuming food but heck! I am on a vacation. Hehehe! And I have this Habit #4 not being able to sleep right after food. I have to give myself at least 3-4 hours before I can sleep, to allow digestion to takes place or else I will wake up with acid reflux in my stomach and end up vomiting. Thus, I end up staying up so late and was able to sleep only like 3.30am in the morning.
To be continued....
XOXO,
Princess Azie Anni ♥
Tuesday, November 08, 2016
Pre-Marriage Course
Dear Diary,
One of the administrator staff from the pre-marriage course people called me yesterday to confirm D and my attendance on the course. And I was like "Yes yes, confirm." And the person went "And so the payment..." And I was like shoot! I totally forgot about the payment. HAHAHAHA! Here I am making sure that D do not forget the dates for our course, making emphasis everyday, yet I totally forgot about making the payments. Muahaha! Actually, D has already transferred me the money somewhere in April but I...kinda...spend..that...money..already. Err..I know it's not amanah of me.
Tsk! But..it's just D. Hahaha! Such biasness of me.
So of course, I made the payment straightaway with the savings I have. Honestly, I don't have much. I'm paying almost everything at home. The groceries, the bills etc etc etc and barely have enough savings for myself. Besides, when Mama was around before she was ill, that I managed to save up, I kinda used up all my savings of 4 years to pay for my Degree. Haiz! I know right. And I have like a year to save up to pay for my own wedding now. I can't afford not to make any majlis at all because you know parents.
Haiz! Not many parents are like as easy going as some. I shall not even say anything that will make me an unfilial daughter. It's okay lah eh. I'm just going to shoulder this burden/pain on my own.
I hate to always praise D or always say good things about him, because he is not actually entirely perfect. I know his flaws, we all ain't perfect but he is the only person I could really thank so much each and everyday of my life. OT after OT for me, for us, just to get this wedding done, so that we don't disappoint both our parents as of regarding the majlis and could carry on both of our lives in peace after the wedding.
Some people may question, tak cukup duit then why still rush into marriage? The problem is, we're not rushing lah. Well, at least to me I'm not, even though I did question D about marriage before. HAHAHA! But we're just at the right age to get married right? And we want to keep the relationship as Halal as possible.
So anyway back to our pre-marriage course, D made another transfer secretly back to my bank account,
(now that he has a hold onto my account number, this is what happens) which later he told me about it. So it wasn't a secret anymore. Lolols! Honestly, I am so going to turn into taitai if he keeps doing this to me. Okie, just kidding. Hehehe! 
Our pre-marriage course is by SuChi Success - Kasih Sejati, which of course, my fiancé have no idea what or where it is because he only pays and follows. This course was recommended by my friend, Minah. Initially, D and I were having troubles about looking for pre-marriage courses and we had no idea. I have known of some express ones that my friends attended but to pay for the same price for an express one, worth it or not? And I got to know from my sister, the one that she attended (shall not name them) say it was just a brief & general one, things like we all already know. For the price I'm paying now, cehhh..D pays lah eh, twice somemore, times two. HAHAHA! I want something that will make us D and I have additional knowledge from what we already know, or at least impart some knowledge that we can carry on and remember for the rest of our lives being married together. You know, leave us an impact that kind. Hehe! But we all know, for a marriage to work is not about others, it's always about the two of you.
I haven't been to the course yet, not until next month, Insyaallah. But I will update on how the course is like once I'm done. 2 full days course - 9am to 6pm. Prepare to sleep. Hehehe! Just kidding. D and I have to excuse ourselves from a lot of friends' wedding reception that day. Tsk!
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On a lighter note, I was supposed to meet D today to bookmark the flats we wanted for Bukit Panjang BTO. But that boy is down with fever since 2 days ago and had to cancel on meeting me last minute. I could act like my spoilt-annoying-sometimes-self when things get cancel last minute.
But nope! 
Not going to behave like that anymore, as I promise D that I will try to be a better version of myself. Insyaallah. Amin! And our appointment is also not till the end of the month. So it's best to choose the units at a later date as chances of the flats getting taken will be much lesser. Besides, we still have to depend on the ethnic quota for the chances of getting this flat, else hello Sembawang. Lol!
And I know this come so sudden but yes, I will be heading for a JB staycation with the bestfriend from tomorrow onwards till the weekends. I cannot wait. I really think that I need this getaway so so much more than anything else. I need to release stress from work, from everything. I wish I could drag D along for staycation like this and stuff but nope, we ain't Halal for this even staycation-do-nothing yet bruh. But of course, D is quite worried that it's just the two of us going. I wish I can say I'm a big girl now and everyone shouldn't be worried about me but the fact is, I have never been much of a big girl myself all these while. =X But I know, Allah SWT is with us no matter what.
Till here.
Opps, I still haven't pack my belongings yet. All the best to me and please pray for our safety too.
I pray that Allah SWT will always be with D and my family to keep them safe at all times too. Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin.
One of the administrator staff from the pre-marriage course people called me yesterday to confirm D and my attendance on the course. And I was like "Yes yes, confirm." And the person went "And so the payment..." And I was like shoot! I totally forgot about the payment. HAHAHAHA! Here I am making sure that D do not forget the dates for our course, making emphasis everyday, yet I totally forgot about making the payments. Muahaha! Actually, D has already transferred me the money somewhere in April but I...kinda...spend..that...money..already. Err..I know it's not amanah of me.
Tsk! But..it's just D. Hahaha! Such biasness of me. So of course, I made the payment straightaway with the savings I have. Honestly, I don't have much. I'm paying almost everything at home. The groceries, the bills etc etc etc and barely have enough savings for myself. Besides, when Mama was around before she was ill, that I managed to save up, I kinda used up all my savings of 4 years to pay for my Degree. Haiz! I know right. And I have like a year to save up to pay for my own wedding now. I can't afford not to make any majlis at all because you know parents.
Haiz! Not many parents are like as easy going as some. I shall not even say anything that will make me an unfilial daughter. It's okay lah eh. I'm just going to shoulder this burden/pain on my own.I hate to always praise D or always say good things about him, because he is not actually entirely perfect. I know his flaws, we all ain't perfect but he is the only person I could really thank so much each and everyday of my life. OT after OT for me, for us, just to get this wedding done, so that we don't disappoint both our parents as of regarding the majlis and could carry on both of our lives in peace after the wedding.
Some people may question, tak cukup duit then why still rush into marriage? The problem is, we're not rushing lah. Well, at least to me I'm not, even though I did question D about marriage before. HAHAHA! But we're just at the right age to get married right?
And we want to keep the relationship as Halal as possible. So anyway back to our pre-marriage course, D made another transfer secretly back to my bank account,
(now that he has a hold onto my account number, this is what happens) which later he told me about it. So it wasn't a secret anymore. Lolols! Honestly, I am so going to turn into taitai if he keeps doing this to me. Okie, just kidding. Hehehe! Our pre-marriage course is by SuChi Success - Kasih Sejati, which of course, my fiancé have no idea what or where it is because he only pays and follows.
This course was recommended by my friend, Minah. Initially, D and I were having troubles about looking for pre-marriage courses and we had no idea. I have known of some express ones that my friends attended but to pay for the same price for an express one, worth it or not? And I got to know from my sister, the one that she attended (shall not name them) say it was just a brief & general one, things like we all already know. For the price I'm paying now, cehhh..D pays lah eh, twice somemore, times two. HAHAHA! I want something that will make us D and I have additional knowledge from what we already know, or at least impart some knowledge that we can carry on and remember for the rest of our lives being married together. You know, leave us an impact that kind. Hehe! But we all know, for a marriage to work is not about others, it's always about the two of you.I haven't been to the course yet, not until next month, Insyaallah. But I will update on how the course is like once I'm done. 2 full days course - 9am to 6pm. Prepare to sleep. Hehehe! Just kidding. D and I have to excuse ourselves from a lot of friends' wedding reception that day. Tsk!
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On a lighter note, I was supposed to meet D today to bookmark the flats we wanted for Bukit Panjang BTO. But that boy is down with fever since 2 days ago and had to cancel on meeting me last minute. I could act like my spoilt-annoying-sometimes-self when things get cancel last minute.
But nope! Not going to behave like that anymore, as I promise D that I will try to be a better version of myself. Insyaallah. Amin! And our appointment is also not till the end of the month. So it's best to choose the units at a later date as chances of the flats getting taken will be much lesser. Besides, we still have to depend on the ethnic quota for the chances of getting this flat, else hello Sembawang. Lol!And I know this come so sudden but yes, I will be heading for a JB staycation with the bestfriend from tomorrow onwards till the weekends. I cannot wait. I really think that I need this getaway so so much more than anything else. I need to release stress from work, from everything. I wish I could drag D along for staycation like this and stuff but nope, we ain't Halal for this even staycation-do-nothing yet bruh. But of course, D is quite worried that it's just the two of us going. I wish I can say I'm a big girl now and everyone shouldn't be worried about me but the fact is, I have never been much of a big girl myself all these while. =X But I know, Allah SWT is with us no matter what.
Till here.
Opps, I still haven't pack my belongings yet. All the best to me and please pray for our safety too.
I pray that Allah SWT will always be with D and my family to keep them safe at all times too. Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin.
XOXO,
Princess Azie Anni ♥
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