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Ignore the first post. -_-'
So here I am starting to blog all over again. Thanks to @danzre9. :) Anyhoos, I'm still trying to pen down my thoughts. I don't even know where to begin, how to start. Gosh! It felt so looooong that I left my blogging world, probably a year?
I shall update in this tiny comfy space of mine of every single thing I feel and do everyday just like how I did the last time. I guess it makes me a happier person when I do that. Alright! Let me shove this problem off my chest first. I don't wish to even write it down but I guess I have to! Just to let that burden out of me.
As you all know, Grandpa is no longer staying in the same roof as me. It happens because of Dad. He just couldn't get along with him and they always go logger heads with each other. Whatever Grandpa do is nothing good to the eyes of Dad and vice versa till it even affect the relationship of Mom & Dad. They would just go on quarrelling over nothing but about Grandpa! It's so freaking ridiculous I know!
I don't really freaking know what happened the other time, 1 month back because I was at work. All I know something happened at home. If I was not wrong, Dad tried to clean Grandpa's bed? He was putting Grandpa's bed sheet and everything on the floor? And Brother thought Dad was trying to do something ridiculous, he went to ask Dad "What's wrong with you?!" in a harsh tone, that made Dad so angry and he almost beat brother up. Angry words were exchanged, I shall not elaborate.
So Mom couldn't take it anymore, she cried on the phone and called my aunties. My aunties made the decision to take Grandpa away from our house. Mokde (2nd aunty) decided to take Grandpa in her house and seriously, I don't remember Mom saying she wants Grandpa out of the house. All she did was to pour her hearts out but my aunties were the one that made the decision to pack Grandpa's stuff away with them.
And now that Grandpa is out of the house, the relatives are all blaming my Dad for being whatever he was and blaming Mom too. Yesterday almost everyone was showing unhappy faces at my Dad during Cousin Hisyam's wedding. Come on! Might as well you don't even invite us, if that was the treatment we were going to receive! I know my Dad is at the wrong but how could you blame my Mom?! Firstly, he is her husband and secondly, that is her Dad. She has been put in a state that leaves her no choice at all. Like you people asking to fucking choose between your parents or siblings! In the matter of fact, you love BOTH and it's just hard for you to choose! You just can't! Mom wanted both but look at the situation she is in now!
I totally understand the anger and pain from my relatives but could they at least just stop and think for a while?! Whatever shit my Mom has to put and go through, she has definitely been through a lot! Yes, she said she is strong but come on! Which woman on the earth is strong to lose her dad, husband and siblings' love one shot at a time. And with my brother's fucking attitude that is becoming more and wilder now, NOTHING HELPS!!
I wish I could help Mom but what can I do?! Given a choice, I would want to bring my Grandpa back home! I love having him around because he does nothing in the house to disturb all of us at home. But fuck you all! I can't stand the fucking arguments everyday my parents have, just over my grandpa. With Grandpa here, they quarrel over him and Mom cries. And without Grandpa here, her siblings hated her and Mom still cries!
And seriously, if you were to say so much stuff about my family, mirror yourself?! Aren't you yourself having a hard time taking care of your own father too?! My Mom has been taking care of Grandpa for almost all her years man. Call yourself daughters & sons. For goodness sake, he is NOT only my Mom's dad; he is you people's dad too. And trying to blame everything on my Mom, that is fucking STUPID!
Sometimes at times like this, praying really helps but stupid menses! Anyway, will be heading out for dinner with my lovely girlfriends tomorrow at Lucky Plaza and Ayam Penyet here I come. More fatssssss!
XOXO,
Princessazie Bella
Elena Gilbert(:
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