Watched The Final Destination today and again like I said, the movie a bit too stupid to happen but I like watching the sequel what happens next and yeahs, it's f*cking gory!
Rating: 2.5/5 Popcorns
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Woke up in the morning for work and realized that I have 1 new message from my knight at 4.10am, which is approximately 6.10am there.
I do miss him but it’s not that bad compared to how I miss him in the first few days. Probably, I’m already getting used to it? I’m not sure myself. And I guess that is how couples usually handle through their days of their long distance love, they get used to it. Zzz!
Trust me, I don’t want to get used to this because I would rather have him here with me than having him being away like this. It really hurts so freaking bad at the initial part! You started crying thinking he is there and you are here, and how are you going to survive that freaking long days without him around. Thinking of the drawbacks makes it worst, no connection, expensive bills to call each other and you guys had to stick to stupid prepaid cards that the value run out super fast. Plus when you look at couples, everything just sucks because it makes you think about him and wish he was here with you.
Subsequently, when the days passed by, slowly you tell yourself; you have to understand because it wasn’t his choice too but it had to be done and he wouldn’t be away that long, time will fly. When everything starts to get better, the hard part when he could not be there to either text or call you every day because of certain circumstances, outfield etc and you start to feel shitty all over again. Your mind doesn’t help because it decide to be such a screw up and saying stuff like “Oh he doesn’t love me anymore” or “Oh, he is having fun and couldn’t be bothered about me” or “What happened to him?! Is he alright?!” Either you end up getting yourself more worried or you just become more depressed.
After all that, this is when the rewarding part comes in, when he suddenly leaves you text messages or even posts something on your Facebook wall or probably even a surprise call. It just gives you those butterflies in your stomach and the adrenaline rush to read what he wrote to you or even hear his voice. And if it was something you would expect to read or hear, a SUPER BIG GIANT smile will be carved right on your face. From there, you just had to convince yourself, “Yes, he loves me too and he is thinking about me just like how I am thinking about him every day. I have to understand that is work wise and time will fly. Without I knew it, it will already be the days he is flying back off to Singapore.”
So here I am, trying very much to convince myself and as I keep counting to the number of days of his return, it felt like as if it’s getting nearer but when I look at the calendar, it looks freaking long.
And today, we didn’t really talk that much today compared like the last few days when he actually can FB Chat with me or even call me. Now his credit is gone, with the horrible connection there he only managed to text me and I don’t think he would be able to be online now because it would already be 1.02am there.
Just how much I miss you so.
2 weeks to his return!
XOXO,
Princessazie Bella<3
Elena Gilbert(:
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