Kung Fu Master

Dear Diary,

So my colleagues had a great day teasing the Princess at work, all sorts of comments. I really thought I had a nice dark blue long sleeve top on today, which look a little bit of Cheong Sam looking and I kind of clipped my fringe to one side like this,

instead of centre parting them like the usual but..

Jie Min: Eh wah, why are you looking like a Chinese girl today?

Charlotte: Eh, what happened to your hair today? Look like ghost! Look at her, see the hair, look like a ghost.

Zoei: Haha! You look like Kung Fu master today or maybe Kung Fu Panda.

-_-' And yesterday when I tie my hair this way,

Both the dispatch in my lab and the other lab said "Eh can you help me tie like this on my hair? I love it when you tie this way, you look like a small girl. So cute! I wish I could stand here all day long looking at you." Sometimes I don't know whether to swallow those words down my throat or puke them out. A bit too much not?! But most of the time I choose to ignore.

Enough said about the hair.

Anyway, my half-day was spent accompanying Mama for her check-up. Alhamdulilah! So far Mama has recovered fully now but you know whatever that she is going through right now, this thing, it could relapse again but I'm always praying the best for her, In Shaa Allah! God willing, she will! Amin! =))

Just reminded me of those days when I felt like everything has came crushing down on me when I got to know what Mama first was diagnosed with. I felt super down, super depressed that at the back of my mind, I wish I could end my life. Astaghfirrullah-hal-azim! I don't wish to carry on living any more and cry every single day because I'm afraid of what things will be for me in future. I know that was stupid of me but Alhamdulilah! With constant prayers and lots of doa done, I managed to calm myself down and look things into the brighter side.

I always tell myself, Allah SWT will never test His servant more than what we can take it. It's because He knows you can, and you have to prove it to Him that you can with your constant prayers, patience and doa. In Shaa Allah, everything will be fine and rewarding. Amin! Besides, everything always happened for a reason. There's always hikmah disebaliknya like they said in Malay. And Mama's last therapy will be tomorrow and then follow up by constant check-up and scanning for the next 3 months. Hoping for good news always. In Shaa Allah! Alhamdulilah!

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I was supposed to go for my run today but it was drizzling. I wanted to take the risk to just go for a run under the rain but I'm afraid that if I fall sick then it'll be very difficult for the manpower at work. Furthermore, it's like the sick season now. Almost every one I know is like falling sick but I have not yet and I don't want to.

Must be because of the supplement that I'm taking now. I'm currently taking 4life Transfactor Plus as my daily dosage. :) I bought it for Mama actually but I took it on and off for myself. Hehe! It really works for me. Each time when I'm about to fall sick, all I have to do pop 3 pills in and the next day, I feel fine. It does cost a bit costly on my part but it is all worth it. :)

And my monthly pay mostly goes out to Mama and Ayah of course. My monthly handphone bills plus some things that I usually splurge on like food, clothes, transportation and etc etc but these too,

3 bottles of these! With each bottles costing me $100++. HEH!

With each bottle costing about $55++

For such amount that I spent every month, can I have pay increment please? Hehe!

Told myself that I don't want to see you any more after that incident, which I am partially glad that I didn't. But I can't help it thinking of you most of the time. No words of thank you, no words of feedback. How would I know? I don't like rushing into things and I'm sure no one would appreciate that either. But neither do I like waiting into things. It makes me feel uncertain of the situation. All I need is a sign, little sign. And best, with the effort I'm putting in, I don't see any attempt coming from your side. I don't want to be the only one, it makes me feel less worthy. Oh well, I'll get past through this eventually over time. I'm sure I will! The time will come. :)

Till here, I wish I could have done my run because I will be having Company's dinner at Sakura, Dhoby Ghaut tomorrow, to celebrate the passing of our Internal Audit. Told ya I'm awesome to pass without studying. Hehe! And I cannot wait to try the dessert out. I heard they have all the Ben & Jerry's Ice-cream dessert lay out at Sakura. Woo Hooooooooo! Cannot wait. To put on little weight tomorrow and run the extra mile on Friday to shed the fats away! All set!

#Foodporn #Foodpleasure #Foodsensation #Foodnation #Food #Sakura

Oppa Azie Style! Goodnight!

XOXO,
Princessazie Bella ♥
Elena Gilbert(: