Testosterone

Dear Diary,

0710 hours

Who in the world in their off days, wake up so early after Subuh just to online shop?! ME ME ME! I swear when you're already working, you have to MAKE TIME for everything. And during schooling days, time seems to be there for you most of the time, it seems so easy to have free time to do anything & everything in the world. Oh well, I wonder what things will be for me when I start enrolling for school. Yes, work + school. All the best Ah...zie.

And I hope that my colleagues won't miss me so much that I am on leave today. Hehe!

Me: Eh tomorrow I'm on leave, don't miss me ah
Zoei: -_-'
Me: Ehh, haha! The face ahh...and please don't be too quiet when I'm not around.
Zoei: Yah lah, confirm quiet. =( That one I cannot deny. By the way, nice red shoe and nice red dress today!
Me: Eh thanks ah, sexy right? 
Zoei: -_-'
Jie Min: This Azie ah, really got to stop self-praising herself, I tell you.

HAHA!

Me: Yessa off tomorrow. Woo hoo! *Dance
Jie Min: Eh, HAHAHA! You dance like that reminds me of the How We Do (Party) music video.
Me: Ah? The Rita Ora ah? I haven't seen the MV yet.
Jie Min: HAHA! You go see, you go see. And then look at yourself in the mirror! HAHAHA!
Charlotte: Joke!

-.-' Seriously, is that the way how I dance? Hahahahaha!

1735 hours

Mama's check-up went well. Alhamdulilah! Glad the doctor herself was so happy to see Mama recovering well. Insyaallah, things will be much better from now onwards. Amin! And each time I pray, I never fail to pray for the best for my parents, my siblings as well as my future other half, only Allah knows who he is. :) I hope Allah S.W.T keep all of them safe and closer to my heart & Him as well. Amin!

Online shopping? I don't even freaking know what to spend on. So many dresses! Probably I just wait for my pay day lah ah. But I thought of at least getting a new dress to wear for my audit dinner this Thursday at Sakura. Oh oh oh, time to eat eat eat and put on weight. And after that, I will shed off those fats fats fats away.

Sadly, I don't lose weight at all when I do my routine run every night. =( I build more muscles and became slightly heavier. Instead of those flabby fats got shed away and be gone forever like last time, it's now slightly harden and like it's stuck to me. I HATE HAVING MUSCLES! I don't want 6 packs, 2 packs or whatever packs bulging out from my abs, I just want them flat! I hate holding on to the bus hand-gripped above my head or tying my hair and looking at how those muscles bulge out from my big arms. EEEEE! I want to wear pretty dresses and look slim or at least nice & feminine in it without looking "muscular". But with all these muscles that I'm gaining, it will soon MAKE ME LOOK LIKE AS IF I GOT EXTRA TESTOSTERONE IN MY BODEH!

ARGH!

2345 hours

Exactly.

My sister always never fail to make me listen to korean songs and whatever with K-pop. No no no no no! And I was just trying to irritate her. Hehe!

This kind of question when asked, usually left me no choice but to a no answer reply. Lol! >.< I'm so sorry but I've been pressured much about people asking me when will be my engagement or wedding be. If anyone will like to sponsor me a other half and my engagement + wedding, then probably you are eligible to ask me this question. Hehe! 

The exact same stress I felt when I graduated from Poly and people kept asking when am I going to find a job or when am I going to further my studies. Zzz! And if I ever get married, I'm sure the next question is when am I going to have children. People quit asking already. =(

And it's 0020 hours now and I'm not sleeping yet because I accidentally nap in the afternoon after Asar and woke up just nice for Maghrib. Heh Heh Heh! I don't nap because when I nap, this is what happens. Looks like I have to force myself to sleep since I'm working tomorrow. Goodnight! Sweet dreams!

XOXO,
Princessazie Bella ♥
Elena Gilbert(: