Letter to Mama..

Dear Diary,

Dear Mama..

I miss you so much today. So much that I keep crying, I feel so sad. Here I am seated in this home alone...without you. Well, the everyday evening has always been the 2 of us mostly, watching TVs, sometimes snacking, me sharing you what my day is like and you telling me stories about your day. While Ayah is out to work, Muhammad always home late in the wee hours and Adik is out with Ressal. Now that Adik is married, having her family of her own, her own adorable son..pretty much busy with life - a perfect family. Syukur Alhamdulilah. I can never so much happier for her.

Mama, maybe I don't deserve the happiness in the world at all, or maybe I live in this life just to keep being happy for other people, or maybe my happiness is not here yet? I am unsure.

I have never blame fate or His Qada' and Qadar. Nothing like that. I accept what has been written for me in life. I am very much redha and put my trust in Him in denoting what is best for me. But being redha does not necessarily mean I don't tear sometimes. I do because I'm not emotionless. I feel pain. I feel sad. I feel lonely. I have feelings and I do feel..deep. I feel deep.

At the end of the day, how I wish I could come back to those warmth hugs & touch, comforting words and make me feel safe all over again. My time in this world was short but I hope I get to spend an eternity with you in the thereafter, Mama. Insyaallah. Amin.

My mom, you are irreplaceable and I miss you very very much. I hope God send me my missing kisses over to you.

XOXO,

Princess Azie Anni ♥
#PrayforAzie

Not Worthy.

Dear Diary,

I think I have come to a point where I give up in life.

 

I give up in all the people around me.

 

More of people don't even need me in their life ever.

 

My absence or appearance doesn't matter to anyone.

 

I don't know what else am I living for in this world if it's not because of God.

 

I have no reason to live for, nothing to live for.

 

If I could give this life away, I will give it away to people who deserve it more than me.

 

I am not worthy of this life, not even worthy of my own life.

Azie Anni

38 Halal Cafes

Dear Diary,

My colleague Eileen, suggested to me that I should do a café blogging since I frequent café. I have never thought about doing one but prolly I can TRY blogging about the cafés that I have been to. I don't really take much pictures of the atmosphere or the surrounding of the cafes before besides just the food, since it has never came across my mind that I would want to do a food blogging one day. Hehe!

Anyway, whatever that is being in my blog is based on my own deduction, my own judgement because...I really have a humble taste bud compared to anyone else. People always tell me the food it's not nice but I always find it otherwise. But when I say it's not nice definitely you can trust me on this because to other people it will be a zillion times not nice. LOL!

Okay so here's to my Halal café hunting/restaurant places that I have been to. I won't give a review if they are nice or not just yet but just spamming the list..

1) Jollibee, Lucky Plaza

2) Gelare Waffle, IMM

3) Tender Fresh, Bukit Timah

4) Spring Leaf Prata House, Railmail Station

5) Pu3 Restaurant, Bencoolen

6) Butter Studio, Jalan Besar

7) Penny University, East Coast Road

8) 4 Fingers, Ion Orchards

9) Butterscotch, Bukit Merah

10) Makisan, The Cathay

11) Bali Thai, Waterway Point

12) Nene Chicken, Bukit Panjang Plaza

13) The Chicken Rice Shop, OneKM Mall

14) Pot Luck, IMM

15) Mr Lava-Lava, Kembangan

16) The LabSG, Bugis



17) Café Mondo, Orchard Central

18) Penang St, NUH

19) Paddington House of Pancakes, City Square Mall

20) I Am, Bugis

21) Nabins, Bugis

22) Pho4A, Bugis

23) Krave, Bugis

24) The Ramen Stall, Bugis

25) My Secret Hideout Peachy, Bugis

26) Fika Café, Milennia Walk

27) Zulos, Clementi

28) Flavour Flings, Hougang

29) Enak Enak Hongkong Tea House, Simpang Bedok

30) Tang Tea House, Simpang Bedok

31) Roti Bakar Jakarta, Changi Village

32) Le Steak by Chef Amri, Jalan Kayu

33) Lepak Corner, Sam Leong Road

34) The Famous Ice-Cream Roll Shop, Thomson

35) Overdose, East Village

36) Streats HongKong Café, Bukit Panjang Plaza

37) Siam Kitchen, Bukit Panjang Plaza

38) Satay by the Bay, Gardens by the Bay

I can't believe how much I have actually spent on food. 38 Halal cafes altogether. LOL! More to come... Till here.

XOXO,

Princess Azie Anni ♥