Straits Kitchen, Hyatt

¨°o.O (Post) O.o° 2307 hours

Dear diary,

Boss: *Stares at my feet for 10 seconds* Airzieee?! There’s a hole in your shoe.
Azie: Oh no. >.< Boss you spotted it!

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Had the MOH Audit today and I guess it went well.

Skipped that.

Had dinner at Straits Kitchen, Hyatt Hotel and Mama was invited! =) She really enjoyed herself! And definitely, with my fun loving colleagues as well as my kind hearted boss, I just can’t describe how happy I was today and so was Mama.

Like again I said, even if there is another company that would offer me a high paying job than this. I wouldn’t want to leave this place because I can never ask for more, the colleagues, the boss and environment, trust me, it’s the best place!

If you love your job, you wouldn’t have to work another day.

Some pictures taken while I was at Hyatt, I was too busy eating that I even forget to take pictures of my food. Hehe!

Before I left, boss was really sweet! He handed me some cash, so that I could take Mama home by cab so that she could rest. I wanted to cry in front of him but everyone stopped me from crying. And he said “Take it Azie, from your kind hearted boss!” Lol! So cute! Thank you so much Boss!

At the end of the day, we all felt so full! Full from laughing too much. Lol!

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And I’m really pissed with the Boyfriend now because he is not answering any of my damn text! He asked me to meet him after dinner and I texted him after I was done with dinner but he went somewhere else and don’t even bother replying to my text now. Freaking pissed off to the max! I told him off and he doesn’t even reply. Haiz! Deep down, I am just missing him so much. =(

Princessazie Bella<3
Elena Gilbert(:

Chinese guy

¨°o.O (Post) O.o° 2214 hours

Dear diary,

I just hope the people out there would understand. I don’t need their sympathy, all I need is assurance. Trust me, there is NO MORE DAMN room left in my head and FREAKING brain to think of all the negative thoughts in the world & that sympathy that they left for me, seriously, thank you but no thanks.

I’m feeling like I’m at the lowest end point of my life. I feel so low that every second of the air that I’m breathing, I’m trying so hard to bring myself up again. So, if you think you’re going to give me your next sympathy, save it, I don’t need it, and I don’t even want to know because yes, I am more sensitive right now. So much sensitive!

Your conscience and mine seems to be incomparable.

And to those who prays for my Mama, thank you so much. Really appreciate it! =’)

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We will be having MOH audit tomorrow and followed by company’s dinner at Straits Kitchen, Hyatt Hotel. Don’t be jealous people. ;) My company is so generous enough that I could invite Mama along for dinner together with me. Yay! I’m so fringing happy because I can have Mama to peel the prawns for me and stuff. I want to show her around Straits Kitchen so much! It’s never the same when I’m telling her stories compared to when she experience it for herself tomorrow for the first time.

Anyway, my manager is such a sweetheart. Whenever we have company’s dinner, she will always be the one that peel off the prawns’ shell for me as well as the breaking of the crab and etc. =) Do you use the term breaking or cracking the crab? Gosh! My English is atrocious! And I would never ask for more having to work at such a wonderful place, with kind-hearted boss, wonderful manager and such sweetheart colleagues around. =’) I can just cryyyy.

I seriously hope Mama would be fine and even much better tomorrow, so she could have a fair share of the good food. I would want her to enjoy herself and I’m sure with my colleagues around, she will definitely have a good laugh! Be prepared for Fendy (my despatch Abang)! HEHE! Wish I could bring my dad along but I feel it’s a little bit too much to ask for another person. Ayah next time will be your turn okay? =)

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And before I sign off, I have to tell this.

I was sitting in the bus today heading back home. And there was this Chinese guy sitting opposite me. He frequents the same bus as me actually. Well..he is quite cute looking I would say. Small eyes, small mouth and small nose. HAHA! I was just looking at him and telling myself, “Despite his small features, he is not bad looking eh. If he has a girlfriend, his girlfriend would definitely be that kind of a pretty, tall and slim Chinese girl. Hmm..What profession is he working as eh? Confirm makes big money money money. Hehe!” after which, I look away. Well, he was also on full concentration playing his iPad, so I’m very sure he didn’t even notice that I looked at him.

But guess what? As soon as he was about to alight, he looked up and smile at me. Of all the years we were in the same bus?! I smile back politely and quickly looked away. But at the corner of my eyes, I could just see him looking at me. So, I turn back just to confirm that he wasn’t really looking at me but he was. He smiled again for the 2^nd time. This is really scary because it feels like as if he knows that I was just talking about him. =Z

And this reminds me of the Caucasian guy that took the same bus as me before. We frequent the same bus for almost a year. And at the same exact sit I was sitting and the same exact spot where he was sitting like the Chinese guy. I was just telling myself, what it is like and how does it feel to have a Caucasian boyfriend that is good looking and stuff. And the next moment before I alighted, he looked up and smile at me.

Unfortunately, he is now no longer in the same bus as me. =( Probably, he get transfer out of Singapore, who knows? But thank God, because he was about to make conversation with me and I really don’t like to be telling people like oh, sorry, I’m attach kind of thing. Macam super nonsense tak ada link right? -_-‘

Now I should really stop with all my stupid thinking about how is it like and how does it feel anymore in the bus when I see a guy. Probably, when I was thinking, I’m thinking a bit too loud. I hope I don’t see the Chinese guy in the bus tomorrow because it will be all awkward if he is going to start smiling at me like the Caucasian guy did. From one end to the other end in the bus, it’s only the two of you are smiling at each other while the others look. Garh!

P.S: I wasn’t even wearing my pheromones cream for goodness sake.

Goodnight!

Princessazie Bella<3
Elena Gilbert(:

Tangled.

¨°o.O (Post) O.o° 2231 hours

Dear diary,

Woke up in the morning and did errands for Mama. After which, I head down to Yew Tee to have breakfast with the Boyfriend. It has been long and we last checked, the last time we had breakfast together was like last year. =)

Boyfriend came over, since I’m still in my no mood to go out kind of thingy. We both catch up on Point of Entry at Xinmsn.com since the last time we both got distracted while watching that show and then we watch online movie, ‘Tangled’ together. =)

Anyhoo, I did the cleaning up of the kitchen today, getting rid of all the dusts and etcetera. You wouldn’t even want to imagine, trust me. I’m only half way done, I’ll continue them the next weekend and slowly, repaint stuff and I’m going to transform my house like a makeover kind of concept before raya comes. HOPEFULLY! =)

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As you all know, it’s my kind of movie. Prince & princesses, fairytales and happily ever after. I enjoyed it very much. I love the way how they make the little changes in the movie to make it even interesting.

Glad that the Boyfriend enjoyed watching it too.

Ratings: 4.5/5 Popcorns

And they lived happily ever after.

Princessazie Bella<3
Elena Gilbert(:

Epul

¨°o.O (Post) O.o° 1946 hours

Dear diary,

To those who know, you know. To those who don’t, then it’s for me to know and you to find out.

Mom is doing so much better now. She is so much healthy now. Well, she is healthy! And I bet you would never see such a strong woman like this in your life ever. I admire her courage, her attitude and just every piece of her. My mom is the most wonderful person on earth, definitely the finest and greatest of Allah’s creation. I don’t have to look so far to choose someone as my idol, for my mom, she is my idol. One day if I become a mom myself, I would definitely be like her. =))

Aunties came over today too, looking at the care, concern & the love they have for mom makes me want to tear. I thought people wouldn’t care much since it’s not them whom has to go through all these but when aunties said they cry and it hurts them as much, at least I know I’m not alone.

Whatever it is, I believe mom will get better. =) She DEFINITELY will. Just look at her, Insyaallah. With the family’s constant prayers as well as aunties and my friends out there, I am super certain mom will get better, Insyaallah. Amin!

Oh yes, does anyone know where to get this book? Mom wanted this book and I even drain myself today after work just to go searching for it. I’ve tried popular at Lot 1, Prologue at Orchard Ion as well as Kinokuniya at Takashimaya but to no avail. =( But still, the trip to Prologue today was not a waste because there was this cute fair malay guy there lahhhhh.....

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Anyway, Epul is back from New Zealand! And guess what he bought for me and the Boyfriend? So sweet right?! To think he even thought of us while he is in New Zealand is really such a sweet thing! Why you people so sweet ah ah ah?! =’)

Once again, thank you so much Epul! The chocolate was delicious! Am not sharing any with the Boyfriend since he definitely can’t share his, with me. Hmpf!

Before I head for the bed, you should see how the Boyfriend has been trying to feed me with food for dinner. I’ve not been having much appetite to eat and there you go, all delivered right to my door step. How “sweet”. -_-'

Princessazie Bella<3
Elena Gilbert(:

Start this fight!

¨°o.O (Post) O.o° 2340 hours

Dear diary,

The truth was finally made known. Surprisingly, I thought I was strong enough to go through all these but deep down I’m really not. My face truly shows everything, my weakness especially.

Mom figures it out all in me from the beginning already.

She said I look super uneasy, not myself and super restless. How could I not be? You’re talking about the person you love so much, the one you can’t live without and what more you don’t even want to lose at all!

I’ve been praying non-stop for miracle to happen and things to work out well, Insyaallah. I believe it so so much and Allah is definitely listening to me out there. I have to be strong, I have to pull myself together. I can’t let anything bring me down. But I can’t lie to myself that sometimes I find it very taxing to fight this feeling because deep down, right at the bottom of my heart I feel very very very very very scared. Only Allah knows exactly how I’m feeling right now.

Please pray for my Mom’s speedy recovery. It will definitely mean so so so much to me, more than anything else in this world.

We will start this fight tomorrow onwards and I will continue fighting for her.

=’(

Princessazie Bella<3
Elena Gilbert(:

Pretty Lilies

¨°o.O (Post) O.o° 2234 hours

Dear diary,

I’ve been feeling super down these few days, Allah knows how. =( I tried so hard! To bring myself to be as cheerful as before but I couldn’t. I tried to laugh at every possible joke or funny things but I couldn’t. Who am I supposed to lie to? I can fake a smile, fake laughter but deep down only Allah knows how much I’m cut.

So so so so deeply cut. =’((

To those who already knows, you would know how much this would hurt if it happens to you. I’ve never feel this so much pain in my life before. And the worst pain I thought I’ve gone through before, nothing beat this.

But I will never stop praying. Insyaallah! She will get better. Allah is always listening to me up there and with all the prayers that I have from myself, my family and all the sweethearts, I’m sure she will definitely be better real soon.

My pillar of strength, my confidant, my doctor, my nurse, my world, my sunshine after the rain, my compass when I’m lost, my shelter, my hero..

My mom, basically MY EVERYTHING!

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And I would like to thank my secretary’s daughter, Trisha for this. She is really such a sweetheart!

Well, it really made mom’s day. Initially, she thought the lilies were for me given by some stranger. Lol!

Mom: I wonder which guy you attracted today that gave you the pretty flowers.
Azie: Of course, look at your pretty daughter! Hehe!
Mom: Let me see.
Azie: But sadly, the person wasn’t attracted to your daughter, was rather more attracted to the mother. Hehe!

And surpriseeeee, it was for her. You should see the smile on her face, how she fondle around with the flowers and uttering words of thank you. And so unfairrrrr can! She even search the drawer filled with lots of long kept glasses just to search for a vase. And she placed the flowers in a “vase” filled with water straight away. I gave mom flowers before but all she does was to let it wilt. HEK!

But it doesn’t matter because nothing matters much more to me than seeing her being happy and just to see her smile. =)

Thank you to all the kind souls out there for praying for mom’s speedy recovery as well as putting a smile on her face alternately you put a smile on mine too. May Allah bless you people, Insyaallah! You know who you are. =)

Princessazie Bella<3
Elena Gilbert(:

IT Fair, John Carter.

¨°o.O (Post) O.o° 0110 hours

Dear diary,

I have never missed any of IT fair each year ever since I’ve been to one since like 6 years ago when B bought me there the first time. =) Every year I make an effort to go to one and every year too, I never fail to splurge my money on ANY thing down there. Bad ain’t it?

So this year I bought a refillable ink for my printer. 40 bucks for 3 black inks & 1 of each Yellow, Blue & Magenta ink. Yes, each cost 22 bucks. After which, I regret like God knows how because I won’t be printing much stuff like how I printed stuff before when in Polytechnic. No projects, no documents or even Bursary to apply. So tell me now what am I supposed to do with the ink. Drink it?

Bought a microSD for 4 bucks. I don’t really need the microSD actually. All I need was the adapter to put songs in my “Blackberry” phone since B wants his iTouch back. Ahh, talking about iTouch. I fixed B’s iTouch! The touch screen was untouchable and so I decided to just update his firmware to the latest 5.1 and guess what? It responded to my tender touch after that. =D And now, the iTouch is back in his hands because he purposely leave the earpiece in my bag without the iTouch. Zzz! Even though it is not mine but I feel a sense of “kinship” towards it. Because he bought that iTouch roughly about a year ago and it was left for me to take care (so I use it) till his ORD date. After which, I have been taking care of it like how I would take care of my other devices. Despite losing my iPhone 4 for my carelessness but I did take good care of it! 

And so when he told me he dropped the iTouch the other day and caused it to be unresponsive, I got so angry like as if it was mine. HAHA! And now that it’s workable, I feel so reluctant to give it back to him. But oh well, I’m taking it back tomorrow. HEEEE!

Skip iTouch, now back to the IT Fair. I bought myself a stylus too for 5 bucks. I have shorter one that I connect it to my earpiece dock on the iPhone but this itchy hands keep touching the stylus bud that causes it to sink deeper rather than to pop up for easier navigation of the touch screen. =( So, I bought another look-alike-pen stylus just for my ‘Draw Something’ game.

And not forgetting, Florida’s Natural sweet 5 for 2 bucks!

The end of my buying!

We head down to Yishun to catch ‘John Carter’ after that and had supper at McDonalds before the movie starts.

Boy, we didn’t realize the time after that. The movie ended when the clock strike 12! And we had to rush to catch the last train home. =)

John carter,

Ratings: 2.5/5 Popcorns

The movie was super draggy, felt like it was just beating around the bush.

Princessazie Bella<3
Elena Gilbert(:

Ai ai ai ai azie!

¨°o.O (Post) O.o° 2303 hours

Dear diary,

The lab did a whole replacement of new PCR equipment which will officially start next week and I’m so going to miss my Roche Amplicor PCR machine. =( It has served me well despite dying on me for quite a few times I have to say. Which it recently did, the transfer pipette tip broke on me. -_-‘ How absurd, like it is jealous of the new machine or rather it knows her time is up. 

Bye bye Amplicor! =(  I will always love you and it was you too who taught me to be really careful in everything I do. And I shall say, the new machine too with no exception.

Anyhoo, Roche treated the lab with Pizza Hut for lunch. Yummy-licious! I have been craving for Ocean Catch for God knows how and they got me one. =) There were also Hawaiian, BBQ Chicken Supreme, Vegetable lovers and Ocean Catch of course. Sorry if I got all the names wrong but that’s how I remember them. HEEE! Sadly, not many really love Ocean Catch. =( Is my taste bud really bad?

Let’s all drool to the picture. Hehe!

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And I’ve always been this slow learner in everything I do or learn. While people are all up to Windows 7 for now, I’ve always remain at Pentium 4. And the one people would always associate to being a Starhub. Ahh..but there is this cryptic truth hidden. Just like a snake, I move like one.

Anyway, I’m addicted to this song, been putting it on repeat. 

Oh I’ll swear to you, I’ll be there for you.
This is not a drive by ai ai ai ai!
Just a shy guy looking for a two ply,
Hefty bag to hold my ai ai ai ai ai ai ai love
When you move me everything is groovy
They don't like it sue me
mmm the way you do me
Oh I swear to you
I'll be there for you
This is not a drive by ai ai ai ai

Ai ai ai ai ai ai ai Azieeeeeee!

Princessazie Bella<3
Elena Gilbert(:

Angry Bird

¨°o.O (Post) O.o° 2253 hours

Dear diary,

I was supposed to do my routine run with the Boyfriend today but I had headache while we were both running half way. So we stopped running and did brisk walking instead. Yes, the Boyfriend is always sweet like that but being sweet comes with a price because he start nagging about how I don’t get enough rest because I’m always working, being overwork and skipping dinner to run.

But all I did was to whisper to myself, my sacrifice.

Met Mama at McDonalds after running because Muhammad wanted to have dinner there despite Mama telling him she doesn’t have that much cash left. I was about to enter McDonalds when I saw Mama’s friend talking to her. Apparently that aunty has always been asking me to get a boyfriend, she even said she’ll pray for me to get a boyfriend as well as asking me to invite her to my wedding one day. -_-‘ But she doesn’t know I already have one. =X 

I tried to hide away from her, hoping to enter McDonalds only when she’s done talking to Mama because the Boyfriend was with me. But I got carried away while window shopping at other small shops around. So, Muhammad phoned me with his usual rude tone asking me to come over quickly.

Realizing Mama’s friend was no longer around, I thought of settling down for some double cheeseburger meal before going off but Muhammad’s face was such a ‘______’. So instead of talking nicely to me he went blabbering unnecessary yet rude stuff to me. I couldn’t stand it and so I walked away and again, he showed me this freaking gangster-ish look which I could seriously bash his up if I could. But the Boyfriend was around to calm me down and giving me words of advice saying he is my brother and I shouldn’t be doing that.

=(

Doesn’t he know how much I love him? Not even a single soul appreciates my existence around. Well, at least be nice to me even if you don’t wish to appreciate me at all. 

On Saturday, Mama told me to get Muhammad his boxer shorts at Peninsular which is the only place that sell XXXL size boxer shorts and despite being tired from work and with the scorching hot sun, I still make my way down to Peninsular to buy his boxer. Mama told me the boxer was $7 each but when I went there they jock up the price to $10. I bought him 4 using my own freaking money, not even asking anything in return. Their designs were so limited because he is freaking big size and 1 of the design that I bought was ‘Angry Bird’. How would I know that it’s a stupid trend that guys wear low pants to an extent that they’ll show their boxers?! How would I freaking know?! And instead of him thanking me, he said the design I bought for him was ridiculously ugly and it will be embarrassed for him to wear.

It was really heart-wrenching. A wasted trip.

Like again I said, if you really can’t appreciate me in your existence, the least you could do is to say Thank you. I’m sure it’ll make my day.

Tears rolled down my cheek.

Boyfriend: Be patent sayang, it’s because Allah loves you that is the reason why He puts you in numerous test. The next time when you do something, you should always put yourself first before anybody else. You’ve been doing so much for people, for me, that… You’re just so kind sayang. You’re definitely a good person and I hope one day people would see that, I wouldn’t want to lose you at all, not at all.

=’(

Princessazie Bella<3
Elena Gilbert(: