A day at Johor

¨°o.O (Post) O.o° 2302 hours

Dear Diary,

Backdated: 29 July 2012

Woke up at 6am and quickly rushed to get ready because YES! Mama, Sissy, Ressal & B are all heading to Johor to do some Hari Raya shopping! =)

I was a bit agitated at first because Mama is blessed with two future sons-in-law with one who always likes to rush while the other one always take his own sweet time. Zzz! So, Ressal was already waiting for us downstairs but B was still taking his own sweet time to get ready, as well as myself because I don’t have to wake up for Sahur you see. So, everyone end up waiting for me.

I end up sleeping in the car while Ressal drove us all the way to JB. It was such a sleepy morning but I feel quite blessed because I’m not fasting. =X HEHE! So I thought I could munch onto some snacks or gulp down some drinks in between, which I thought I could! But it’s NOT easy because I’m in Malaysia, I might even get fine for drinking or eating!

First stop,

It is seriously a good deal! The kuih-muih were sold like 21RM and below per container which cost even less than S$10! We went to Angsana to check out the price of the same kuih-muih in the same container, the one that cost 21RM at the factory cost about 35RM at Angsana and $15 at Raja Kuih.

So can you just imagine?! I end up splurging like 100RM just plainly on kuih-muih as well as keropoks! HAHA!

Second stop,

Head to Ressal’s kampung and Mama who has her kampung affection during her childhood days and so she started getting all the fruits from the trees! Lol! Fresh fruits from the trees! We have like Rambutans, mangoes, etc and ermm..I have no idea what Jambu are called in English. Hehe!

Mama had to wash the Rambutans because they were infested by lots of ants and I don’t know if you could see the ants from the pictures because I use iPhone to capture the picture instead of my powderful camera.

Third stop,

Giant! We shopped quite a lot here, well quite is not the word but I splurge more RMs in here! From snacks to chocolates to drinks and moreeee!

Stop by for a car wash and headed home after that. Usually, while doing car wash we would dine in at 'Singgah Selalu' but since it was the fasting month, we sat at their rest room with Malay classical movie being played on TV and with the air con on. Instead of watching the movie, we all ended up sleeping! Lol!

HOME! Now look at the amount of shopping we did judging from the number of plastic bags.

And yes, finally buka time with the family. B & Ressal join us for buka as well, such a big feast. =) Alhamdulilah!

Princessazie Bella<3 font="font">
Elena Gilbert(:

Geylang

¨°o.O (Post) O.o° 0024 hours

Dear Diary,

Miss M decided to come today, approximately at about 1pm and bother my sleep. Cramps were freaking horrible and all I did was just tossing and turning on bed for a couple of times and crying like God knows how before popping 2 menstruation pills.

It took about an hour before the pills took effect plus Mama was trying to massage my thigh and leg. The whole leg was in bad pain as well and I was screaming half the time when Mama touches me. Yes, that is how severe my cramps were each time. And with that, I come to a conclusion that I should visit the Gynae soon. I don’t find it normal at all to have terrible cramps at every menstruation cycle that I’m going to have. Imagine facing that each month. =(

Despite the menses cramp, I still do housework. Woman is woman huh.

Had a conversation with B,

Me: Can you accompany me to the doctor?
B: I’m awake dear. U want to go to the doctor? Are u sick dear?
Me: Yahs syg. But I feel better now.
B: Why honey?
Me: I’m having menses. I’m afraid it’s endometriosis, fibroid or cyst. Coz I’m always having stomach cramp when having menses. I don’t think it’s normal. =(
B: Then we go to the doctor lah dear. I don't think it's good like that as well.
Me: I told my mom but she said don’t think it’s anything serious.
B: Hmm.. Den how? What happens if you cannot get pregnant?
Me: Don’t say that way please. I’m so afraid. I want to get pregnant!!! =’((
B: Me too. I mean I also want to have children. I want to become a grandfather. Hehe
Me: Hehehehe! U’re so funny! I want to have children with you as well. =) Touch wood, but what happens if I can’t, would you leave me? =’(
B: Don’t even think about it dear, I’m sure we will, Insyaallah. Anyway, I won’t leave you, we will spend our live together.

I want to marry early and I want to become a Mama!

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Anyhoo, break fast with the Boyfriend yesterday at Geylang after work. And boy was my colleague right! We couldn’t even get a place to sit just to settle down for a comfortable dinner. Headed to Arnold’s and the whole place was on reserved. Zzz!

So B and I decided to grab some food, I had Seaweed chicken while he had 3 curry puffs and 3 popiahs to himself. And we did some eating exercise! We ate while walking and it is not as bad as you think it is. =) We end up splurging on different food, lol! Which is good! Imagine if we were to settle down for Arnold’s, we wouldn’t even want to try the Bazaar food. The good thing is we were full from just the tiny bits of food that we bought here and there.

Let’s do some ratings:-

Nutella ball! You should just chunk the whole thing inside your mouth and taste how the ball burst Nutella chocolates inside your mouth. YUMMY! 10 balls for $3. =)

My favourite! The potato roll do you call that? They have 3 different flavourings to sprinkle onto the potato. Cheese, BBQ & Chilli which I have tried all 3 at one go the other time at Expo. HAHA! And like everyone knows, I would definitely go for the spiciest one and so Chilli it is! =) Short for $2.50 and long for $3.00, might as well settle for the long one.

We were walking around and came across this shop, which sells different types of chocolate. The different colours and shapes of the chocolates attracted B and I to stop by. They have different flavour ranging from dark chocolate to even Bubble Gum chocolates!

The funny thing when the person asked if we wanted to sample their chocolates, B agreed to sample them. And their chocolates samples were like little tiny bits of pieces like as if those chocolate crumbs that fall of from the chocolates itself. They were so tiny!! -_-‘ B even went “Where is the sample? Is this the sample?” I mean they should at least give a proper sampling the next time. I don’t think B could even taste anything at all.

Still we decided to get the Bubblegum chocolate for two! =) It cost 80 cents per chocolate.

And last last last, we couldn’t stuff anymore food anymore. I have never liked anything that has got to do with soya bean. Name it, soya bean drinks, bean curd or whatever. But ever since Jie Min joined us at my workplace, I have started to not say like them but eat them. Lol! I’ve tried the Original bean curd from another stall the other day and so I decided to try Milo Bean Curd from another stall yesterday and it was not bad. =) I wanted to try Durian but it was sold out. Zzz!

This stall sells Original Bean Curd for $1.50 and flavoured ones for $2.00, while the other stall I went the other day sells Original for $1.50 and flavourings for $2.50. I would come back for Durian the next time. =)

I have never hate Geylang even though the place can be really crowded and stuffy, squeezed with people. It’s the Hari Raya mood that I get when I go there. It’s just where us, the Muslims go just before Hari Raya strikes. It’s definitely a place to appreciate. Imagine not having Geylang at all? Hari Raya would never be the same again.

Before I go, I hope people out there the females especially, would wear appropriate clothing’s. Yes, even though it’s hot, I don’t think there’s a need to wear half-tube clothing where you’re top chest is exposed as well as your stomach. If it’s at the beach, I won’t even question that but at Geylang? Come on, it’s filled with Pakcik, Makcik, Abang-abang handsome okay I was just kidding on the handsome part but I mean seriously, people who are back from Terawih with Baju Kurung on. Don’t they feel embarrassed at all?

I don’t have any rights to question or even talk about this but I just hope people would respect Ramadhan a little more.

P.S: Heading just after Sahur to Johor with Mama, Sissy, Ressal & B to get some kuih-muih and etc. Yay!

Princessazie Bella<3
Elena Gilbert(:

Let's not fulminate against

¨°o.O (Post) O.o° 0024 hours

Dear Diary,

I just have to say something.

I know in this fasting month people tend to be more pious than before. People skip clubbing, stop wearing revealing clothes, performing Terawih and etc etc etc, you name it. Some even promise to be good and do good.

Syukur Alhamdulilah! Amin!

I’m really glad they do, coming from my point of view. While I can also understand coming from another people’s point of view which some say these people are hypocrite because it only lasted for a while. While some says, what’s the purpose of the Sunnah, Terawih when the Wajib, 5 times a day prayers was left behind.

But there’s a phrase that says, you cannot criticize someone who do “bad” or rather when they sin because you yourself don’t know how good you have been. Only Allah S.A.W knows and it’s even worse if you criticize people who are trying to change to do good and be good. You should give all your morale support and the best thing to do is to pray for them to continue to be like what they were during Ramadhan and even after Ramadhan.

Let me tell you a story about myself. I used to not pray 5 times a day, just doing them occasionally when I’m really really feeling down. Like they say people like me, when you’re happy you forget Him but when you have problems, you seek Him. Even when fasting month is done, I have never paid back those days that I have missed when Miss M came. I used to allow anger to take control of me, jealousy to grow around me and hatred to fill my heart. As much as I have my good side, everyone has their own dark side as well and that was the darker side of me.

Each year during fasting month, I stick to rules that I promise myself. No revealing clothes, stick to wearing pants or long skirt and no sleeveless shirt etc. No swearing of words and perform my Terawih of course. I stick to the rules strictly when one day, I asked myself, what’s the purpose of doing all these? I sound like a hypocrite because I’m not like that when it’s not Ramadhan but I just had to do it because it had to be done. It’s a holy month, no matter how hypocrite I turn out to be, which thank God nobody ever said I was, I have got to respect it the least.

But it was because of last year’s fasting month that everything changes. I stick to my normal routine rules during the fasting month and guess what? I slowly pick up by praying 5 times a day each day without fail even after Ramadhan have left us, I don’t really wear revealing clothes that often than before, not that I totally stop wearing them but I just wore them less often.  Insyaallah one day who knows I might even put on the tudung when the time comes. In fact there are quite a number of those revealing clothes that I have dump. I have started to pay back the days I miss to fast during the fasting month. =)

This would have never happened if I decided not to stick to my normal routine rule during the fasting month. Because we never know that small changes we decide to make in life like for example making changes during the fasting month, could change someone to be a better person.

Can you just imagine if someone were to criticize me saying that I was hypocrite and to stop all those. And if I were to really take it to heart and stop doing my normal routine during the fasting month thinking I was a real hypocrite, I’ll probably still be “lost” until now.

Let’s just not criticize. =) I do agree there’s some truth to your thoughts but you’ll never know these small changes that they made, will really change them. And always pray that the good deeds they do during Ramadhan will continues and follow them even after Ramadhan have left us. Insyaallah! =) Let’s encourage each other to the path of Allah S.A.W. They have got to start somewhere to be good, maybe not now, not later but they will. 

I guess it would be better if people are nicer when correcting or advising another human being. Because using harsh words and sarcasm sometimes will not let your message get across, it might even spite hatred or anger and we don’t want that. Fight fire with water, use soothing and encouraging words. It helps, Insyaallah. =)

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I woke up late for work today. That happens each time when I do Sahur because after performing Subuh, I end up sleeping and this cause me to have 101 difficulties to get out of bed. From 6.15am, I snoozed my alarm clock till 7.15am. An hour! After which, I had a terrible headache at work and just feel like throwing up.

Thought of sleeping when I reach home but I had to vacuum and mop the house as well as clean my room. After cleaning up, did the dishes and perform Zohor & Asar, I literally knock out only to wake up few minutes before breaking fast. -_-‘ I even miss watching ‘Ketuk-Ketuk Ramadhan’. I hope Sissy will help to do the vacuum and mopping one day as well……….. One day.

Look what I did as well! Finally after so long we have this back at our home. I fix this myself, Muhammad didn’t even help. =( Sometimes it always feels like all responsible is mine but oh well, being the eldest huh.

Not so much to look at but eyyy, it's my effort. HEHE!


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Anyway, Bestie Hernie promised to go Terawih together with me tonight but apparently she cancels it last minute. She’s prone to always do that but still; I love her no matter what. So I decided to head for Terawih with the Boyfriend’s companion instead. Glad I did! =) Till here, I guess I should just head to bed before getting another headache attack for sleeping late.

Princessazie Bella<3
Elena Gilbert(:

Germany Frankfurter Grüne Sßope

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Dear Ramadhan,

We meet again finally. Alhamdulilah! I still remember asking myself at the end of last year’s Ramadhan if I ever get to meet Ramadhan again this year.

Anyway, I would like to thank my colleague Jie Min for the bean curd tart that she bought for 2 days for all of us in the lab. I have never tasted bean curd tart before and just like egg tart it taste extremely delicious and it’s less sweet as well.

Thank you Fendy for the Strawberry Milk Tea bags for Mama all the way from Genting Highland. I took two sips of the tea that Mama made and it tasted exactly like Strawberry Milkshake from McDonalds. NICE!

Thank you Ayah for buying me these 2 bags of prunes, when all I asked for just 2 sour prunes. I do have cravings for sour prunes now and then like pregnant woman and I can finish the whole 1 bag in a day, God knows. -_-‘

Thank you B for accompanying me to fulfill my crazy cravings to get this Flamming Hot as well as the Spicy Lime chicken drumlets at KFC. 

I seriously think Miss M is on her way soon because I really have bad cravings nowadays, especially getting up early and queuing up just for Sausage McMuffin with egg early in the morning.

And lastly, thank you to my colleague Pia for making these Germany recipe for us to indulge in during lunch time, called Germany Frankfurter Grüne Sßope. It was really sweet of her. It’s quite an expensive dish since all the ingredients are quite pricey, the sour creams, crème Fraiche and stuff. But eating it with potatoes, you just cannot stop. I shall try it with pasta the next time! =)

Anyway, I wish all my Muslim a Happy Fasting month tomorrow in this fasting month. 

Princessazie Bella<3
Elena Gilbert(:

When I'm gone

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Dear diary,

I feel sad each time when I had a tiff with Muhammad. I don’t know when our relationship as brother and sister would be able to foster. And it was all because of drumlets from KFC. All I was asking was for him to leave some drumlets for Ayah because I bought those for Ayah and he was eating all till it almost finishes. After which, he kept cursing the drumlets for God knows why, the drumlets were innocent for heaven sake.

I talked to him nicely and he got angry because he wanted the chicken and he felt I was just interfering out of the blue telling him all these. Because of that, he kept shouting unnecessary and unpleasant comments at me. And for certainty, I did not shout at him, call him names or whatever. He went on and on till for about 10-15 minutes that I had to ask what was wrong with him, could he stop it already.

He even got more annoyed and shouted back at me. Mama heard us and scolded him because he wasn’t even feeling blessed and grateful at all for the food, instead otherwise.

For some reason, I just had a feeling that Muhammad will tweet about me and boy, I was right. Don’t ask me why but I always have this instinct that I would know what people will do to me be it good or bad. And sometimes, Allah S.A.W will just show it. And it only happens when I’m close to that person.

It’s really sad when I read this because no matter how angry I am sometimes, I refrain myself to tweeting and even if I had to tweet because I’m feeling so low, I refrain from mentioning and using names. Just look at the way he tweet, that little respect he have for me as his eldest.

And dear diary, I have really tried. I really tried so hard to be responsible because I'm the eldest in the family. I tried to be a good sister to my siblings; I tried to be a filial daughter to my two wonderful parents. I tried to be a loving girlfriend to B. And not forgetting, tried to be a better Muslimah for Allah S.A.W & for my aftermath. Being concern for the people I love.

I have never expected anything in return at all. Not good things definitely, not bad things as well. I guess it's true, when I'm no longer around then people will start to realize. And it will be all too late already. Wish I could say this but I am still going to say it, “Just please, don’t even bother crying at my funeral when I'm gone because you're supposed to appreciate me when I'm alive, not when I'm dead.”

Princessazie Bella<3
Elena Gilbert(:

I Love/Hate You

¨°o.O (Post) O.o° 2330 hours

Dear diary,

I guess we’ve drifted apart. A part of me says I love you but the other part of me is saying I hate you, I wish I could get rid of you. Both feelings are rather equal, so I’m not pretty sure which one holds a strong affection.

I Love You?
I Hate You?

I’m unsure.

Sometimes I wish I could delete certain memory of my thoughts. If I could, I would definitely remove every part or inch I have of you. And I wish I could pierce something sharp into my heart and make it heart-less. If I could, I would make my heart numb to love you in reciprocate.

It’s irony how you could be the best thing in my life, making me feel happy on cloud nine and the next moment, there you go pulling me down, down and down making me feel like the worst I’ve ever been.

I wonder if I have to keep up with this misery, disappointment of my life just to be with you. Tell myself I deserve better but I can’t bring myself to love another. How should things even move on and go further?

I really cannot wait for that particular day when you regret doing things to hurt me & that day you realized that you have been taking me for granted and no other woman could tolerate you like how I do. That moment, when you start to realize, it will be all too late. I’m waiting for that moment…

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On a lighter note, I can't wait to go for a massage after work with my Swiss Colleague, Pia. =) I'm half day tomorrow. Hooray!

Princessazie Bella<3
Elena Gilbert(:

B is back

¨°o.O (Post) O.o° 2217 hours

Dear diary,

So, B is already back home yesterday night. He text me at 12 midnight asking me to meet him and he had something for me as well. I was pretty afraid to tell Ayah I’m leaving the house to meet B. Mama was already asleep, so I couldn’t ask her. =X I could sneak out through my bedroom window, HAHA! But no, I wouldn’t even think of it. I will be forever guilty my whole life if I were to do that.

So, I was preparing myself to be slaughtered by Ayah when I wanted to ask for his permission to leave the house at 12.30am but luckily, Ayah just told me to be back home quick. I can see there was some reluctant to his face but he just couldn’t say ‘No’ since Muhammad was out with his friends and Sissy is over at ECP with Ressal & family and is not back yet. And I have been good, staying home always.

I don’t understand why I usually don’t get the green light as often as my siblings do. I have never been to any overseas outing with B because my parents just wouldn’t allow me but Sissy could! Anyway, it wasn’t to any of my ground rules to go on overseas with B for as long as I’m not married yet.

And THANK YOU so much Sweetheart for these. =) Really appreciate it so much for thinking of me. I mean it’s true, when you buy for someone something from somewhere that was because that person was in your mind half the time. HEHE!

 

B didn’t get anything for my family like you know he is never good at this kind of thing like how I would buy for his family kind-of-thing when I’m on overseas. -_-‘ Not to suck up definitely but you know, it’s just appropriate. You buy something for the son; you don’t expect the other family to just look and see, right?

But I gave what I have to my family saying B bought for them. HEHE! (But I’m sure he would give it to them!) It was just so coincident! Ayah loves the Durian Cake thingy, Mama loves the hard biscuit and I shared my Choki Choki Chocomilk with my siblings. All happy, all said thanks. ^^ Credit goes to me. HEHE!

Princessazie Bella<3
Elena Gilbert(:

Jason Mraz Fever

¨°o.O (Post) O.o° 2217 hours

Dear diary,

I still can’t get over Jason Mraz’s concert and is still having the vibes! I truly enjoyed myself there, despite the place being over-crowded with 15,000 people who turn up.

Plus nothing complete more with Jason Mraz’s soothing song that was being sung by him, the breezy wind and B’s hand wrapped around my shoulder from the back and us swaying left to right singing together, especially when we sang ‘Lucky’ and ‘I Won’t Give Up’ together.

So here I share the pictures and some videos during Jason Mraz’s concert – Garden By The Bay.

Jason Mraz – Be Honest

Jason Mraz – Living In The Moment

Jason Mraz – A Beautiful Mess

Jason Mraz – Everything is Sound

Jason Mraz – I’m Yours

Jason Mraz ft. Corrinne May – Lucky

Jason Mraz – The Remedy

Jason Mraz – The World As I See It

Jason Mraz – Mr Curiosity

Jason Mraz – Butterfly

Jason Mraz – Unfold

Jason Mraz – The Freedom Song

Jason Mraz – I Won't Give Up

Bye Bye Jason Mraz! It was definitely a good performance!

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Anyway, B is already at Melacca and he is pissing me off a little NOW. He told me he did some shopping there and so I was just merely asking what did he shop for and he told me secret. I gave him 200 RM to shop okay! (I know I shouldn’t be even writing this at all) I asked him twice and twice he said secret. Super annoying! And now he is not replying to my text. I need to do more selawat so that I won’t get more annoyed than this.

Till here, I’m working again tomorrow.

Mon Tues Wed Thurs Fri Sat

Mon Tues Wed Thurs Fri Sat Sun

Mon Tues Wed Thurs Fri Sat (tomorrow)

I haven’t even taken any leave yet. Wow, I must be a robot. OH! Did I mention that I was so tired that I slept in the bus and miss my freaking stop? 4 stops away!! And the stops are like further from each other because I’m taking an Express bus which doesn’t stop at all bus stops. All the way till Lucky Plaza! And you know how I’m a sucker for direction; it took me almost 20 minutes to find my way back to Wheelock. Zzz!

Okay. I better be sleeping soon.

Princessazie Bella<3
Elena Gilbert(: